Emma's POV I was really done with Chase. I tried to help with the hot pan that was ruining his decor, and what I got as payback was him going out to wait on some delivery guy. “That's it.” I said to myself as I got up. There was no point in staying there, with the empty chair opposite for company. I sat for ten straight minutes, staring at nothingness. I wished Lily was there to see it. Cause a while back, it looked like I was making stuff up. He literally left me there, my hands were burning. Not even the decency of getting me ice. I shed a tear or two as I stood up and went into his room, to do what I was supposed to anyway. “I should not be doing this.” I said, as I punched Kevin's number into my phone, with my hurting fingers. I was mad at Chase, and I wanted payback. “Hey.” Kevin's voice rasped over the phone. I immediately knew that was a sign. He was breathing hard. I recoiled at the thought of interrupting something. “I'm sorry, I should not have called.” I
Chase POV “Emma, let's talk like the couple we are.” I said to her, My patience was quickly thinning. “If you think that's helping, think again.” She shot at me. She had all her stuff in hand. It was so obvious she wanted to leave. “What did you say to Lily?” She asked me again. “I didn't have to say anything.” I replied to her, “Gray didn't want to leave her. He just went to the airport and turned right back.” “Really?” She looked like I'd just told her a cock and bull story. “Yeah.” I replied. “We can go together if you want.” I added. I didn't want to say the next bit, but she made me. “My dads got a private jet.” “I don't fucking care if he owns the world, Chase!” She screamed in my face, confirming that what I'd pulled was a dick move. “I didn't mean it that way.” I apologized. “Emma, I need you to please just calm down. I'm supposed to be the mad one here. What's going on?” I asked, tired. I felt so weak, tired of it all. The whole thing had sunk its t
Emma's POV “I really don't know what answer you're expecting.” I replied to Chase. I could feel my heartbeat in my mouthI didn't like when he was in these moods. He had a look in his eye, and that was not how the Chase who loved me looked at me. I had to stop breathing and clench my palms to stop the rising tears. “Do you fucking love Kevin?!” He said, he looked like he'd just swallowed bile. “I don't love him, Chase.” I replied truthfully, “but I'm not sure about my feelings for you.” “How long have you felt that way?” He asked. “Can I be honest?” The conversation was in a different tone, and I appreciated it. I didn't want to be confronted, I wanted to be asked. “Yes, please.” Chase's voice was breaking. “I never really came back after what happened.” I confessed. He just kept looking down at the center rug. The tears pooling in my eyes had made all the colors morph into one indescribable shade. “Chase, I came here drunk that night.” I confessed. “I had a
Emma's POV “Hey Freshie.” A guy with an already receding hairline called out to me. I was still recovering from the seven hours flight I took a day before. The excitement of a new environment was what kept me going through the stress of it. I'd been to multiple offices, and I had a couple of classes. Majoring in Women's and Gender studies meant I had classes four times a week. I didn't consider it such a bad deal, I walked away as fast as I could, I'd heard so many stories about college, and I was on a video call with Lily. She and Gray have been in Berlin for about three weeks, all of which she kept in touch with me. “Just a few hours in and you're already making your mark.” She squeaked over the phone. It was weird enough that I was walking around on a video call, everyone around me was ducking, and I understood they prolly didn't want their faces on camera. “Trust you to notice those kinds of things.” I replied to her “I'm sorry it caught my attention.” She said,
Emma's POV “I literally thought it was gonna be farther than this.” Casey's apartment was about ten minutes from mine. We walked the whole distance in silence. I was too nervous to bring something up, but I doubt that was the same thing for her. “I'm sorry in advance for whatever you're gonna be seeing in there.” She said, and I chuckled a bit. Casey was effortlessly funny. “You can still turn back now, I'm serious.” “No, Casey. I wanna spend the day with you.” I confirmed. I expected her to take out her keys and unlock, but she went straight for the door knob instead. “Here goes…” “Hi Emma.” I heard the last voice I expected to hear, the very last voice. “Why didn't you tell me?” I asked Casey. “I literally just met you. How do y'all know each other?” I asked again. I had so many questions, but I was gonna be taking it one after the other. “I'm sorry, Emma. I've gotta explain, please come in.” She said, “Your house doesn't even have as many colors as you mad
Emma's POV “I literally thought it was gonna be farther than this.” Casey's apartment was about ten minutes from mine. We walked the whole distance in silence. I was too nervous to bring something up, but I doubt that was the same thing for her. “I'm sorry in advance for whatever you're gonna be seeing in there.” She said, and I chuckled a bit. Casey was effortlessly funny. “You can still turn back now, I'm serious.” “No, Casey. I wanna spend the day with you.” I confirmed. I expected her to take out her keys and unlock, but she went straight for the door knob instead. “Here goes…” “Hi Emma.” I heard the last voice I expected to hear, the very last voice. “Why didn't you tell me?” I asked Casey. “I literally just met you. How do y'all know each other?” I asked again. I had so many questions, but I was gonna be taking it one after the other. “I'm sorry, Emma. I've gotta explain, please come in.” She said, “Your house doesn't even have as many colors as you mad
Chase’s POV “How are you today?” Kayla asked me. We were gonna be taking the same classes for a semester. “Good, thank you.” I answered “You're really still gonna be the cold, standoffish bug I met a week ago?” She asked, hands on her hips. Kayla's fashion sense is what I'd consider lazy, but she was a really pretty lady. “Just maybe because you're a nasty person?” I retorted. “Come on, that was over three months ago.” I said. “And you're revolutionized since then?” I asked her, sarcastically. “Yeah, actually. Kevin is no more the miserable cunt he was then, mission accomplished.” She was beginning to irritate the fuck outta me. I was emotionally finished, exhausted. “The fact that we both major in biochemistry doesn't mean you have to talk to me.” I replied. “I dont care about you, seriously, and I cannot be bother to give half a fuck about your brother. I seriously do not hold anything against you two, I just wanna be left the fuck alone.” I said. “Its h
Chase's POV “Doughnuts do not always fix stuff.”Kayla said after sinking her pretty white teeth into a fat chocolate glazed ball. “They help you feel better.” I replied to her. “I got them on my way back yesterday, felt bad I left you out there like that, figured it was the best thing to apologize with.” I rapped. I've ever really been too expressive with my emotions, being with Emma taught me that. Seeing Emma in every girl was holding me back from wanting to be with, or even talk to one. “You've gotta realize that not every girl is that way.” Kayla said, looking into the box of three untouched doughnuts, and about six that she'd bitten into, “There's no point to anything if you think me to be her.” “That's not it.” I denied, I didn't believe it, and I knew she didn't either, “I'm sorry.” I've had to apologize to many fucking times over the past few weeks,, I didn't even know if I could do any right. “You don't have to be.” Kayla said, really looking at me for the f
Emma's POV “We are both hurt. I think it's better we realize that and stop shaming the other person. Emma, you're just as damaged as I am.” Chase said. “That's not rocket science, Chase. Isn't this how you leave everyone you've been with?” I asked, “Broken and damaged?” “That's unfair, Em. You keep skipping the fact that there are always two sides to anything.” He replied to me. “You think I did, Chase?” I looked at him in his sinfully sexy blue eyes I still hadn't gotten an antidote to, not even the anger I felt, “All I did was allow you. I made you do all you did to me. In a way, I even enabled you.” “That's untrue, and you know it.” He replied to me. “I've talked about this, over and over. In my head and out of it, and it's still the same conclusion I reach.” I responded to him. “If ‘out of your head’ in any way refers to the bastard up there, I don't think I want to hear it.” I replied to her. “You've gotta get over yourself, Chase.” I said. “There's life
Chase's POV “You're still here, Em. It means you're interested.” I said. “I'm not comfortable here.” She said in a low voice. “I'd be in the garage, meet me there.” I said. “Maybe this is your time to show how low you regard me.” I let go of her hand which I had in mine, doing it both lightly and seductively. I knew I walked with such swagger, such essence that couldn't betray how scared I felt deep inside. Maybe she'd realize that I wasn't worth shit, and just go upstairs to meet her little boyfriend. I sat in my favorite of my dad's lot, the black mustang I saved Emma's ring in. That particular car had so many memories. I wanted to be in. I checked the time on my Patek, it was a few minutes to midnight. The estate gate was gonna be locked by 00:00, and if I couldn't make it out by then, I'd be stuck with Em and that bastard. 23:53, I had begun to get antsy. It'd be really unfortunate if I left, and Em eventually came down. I kept telling myself to calm down and b
Emma's POV “Can I trust you?” I asked Chase. I was mentally drained. Having played the good daughter throughout the anniversary, I wanted to catch my breath. Little did I know I had just been walking straight into Chase’s arms. “You know you can, Em.” He said, enthusiastically. “I'd hold your secret against me, Em. I wouldn't even tell myself.” His eyes mirrored mine, tired, hunger of the soul, and exhaustion. I couldn't believe that it was the same person who acted like I didn't exist last night. “I don't know where I stand with Kevin, really.” I said what I'd forbidden myself to. I made a deal with my mind to never say it. Just so I didn't believe it. The more I said something, the more I was forced to believe. “Start from the point where you left me, Em. I want to know it all.” He said, looking downI hated when Chase had that pensive look on his face. It felt like he was just a slight provocation away from murder. “After us,” I started, my mind was a bit foggy
Chase's POV “What did you do that for?!” Emma yelled after landing me a slap to the cheek. “I already said I wasn't gonna let you go.” I replied stubbornly. “Chase, my arm is hurting.” She cried, referring to the arm I'd been holding. I felt like a nasty person. Maybe it was the universe providing answers to the question I'd asked so many times, “Am I not good enough for her?” Well, I now knew I was too violent, too relentless, too impulsive, I rarely rethought my decisions, I bent everything to my will, things had to suit me, always. And those were all the things Emma stood against. “Emma, I'm a damaged guy, and I know it's really not your job to fix me. I'm a sorry project who should've belonged to my late mom and my dad who's now a happily remarried man. I get it. No one wants a project. But this is me swearing that I'd never hurt you, Em. I've learned. I do better for myself these days.” I said, frantically. Emma was rubbing her arm where I grabbed her, a sorry rem
Chase's POV. “It's not good that I'm too close to you, Chase.” Emma cried. Her eyes were already tearing up, and her face wet. Her rosy cheeks were beginning to peek from beneath the light make-up. “Why, Emma?” I asked her, letting my mouth say all the things my heart felt. “Am I so bad?” I asked. “I never said anything like that.” She answered. “So what is it?” I asked, exhausted. “Why do you want to be away from me so bad? Why do you treat me with such a long spoon? You can't deny missing me, Em. I see it in your eyes. What is holding you back?” I dared reach for her trembling hands, and she didn't pull away. It was a good thing. “Chase, I just still find it so hard to process. I'd rather think about things that hurt me, than process the whole thing. The past year has been the most tumultuous part of my life yet. I'm so fucking drained, I just need peace.” She said, “And you think that description doesn't fit me.”I asked, against my better reasoning. I then remi
Chase’s POV“I didn't think you'd be here.” She said,“I could say the same.” I replied to her Emma was the last person I thought who'd want to catch a break from the ceremony.She was at the center of it all, and really did well at her job of role playing a perfect daughter.“It's too much.” She replied with a low voice.“What is?” I asked, clearing my throat. “The atmosphere.” She explained, kicking the grass in her stilettos. Her legs looked like they must've been hurting. “Here.”I gave way for her to sit on her favorite swing. I could never take that away from her. “Thank you.” Emma was being her generic self, the side that she showed everyone else. Shy and contained. But I didn't like that. I liked that Emma I fell for, headlong. “It's nothing to Chase’s POV “I didn't think you'd be here.” She said, “I could say the same.” I replied to her Emma was the last person I thought who'd want to catch a break from the ceremony. She was at the center of it all, and really
Chase's POV I wished I could remain busy throughout the day. A time to rest meant a time to think. I was under the same roof as Emma, like I'd been wanting, but we were yet so far apart. The flowers were an ill thought decision, but I had to do something. Being in the same house with Emma for over three days was beginning to mess with my mental health. “You shouldn't have done that.” I said to myself. If only Emma had kept it a family thing and didn't have that one over, things would have been a lot easier. I intentionally left a note out of the flower delivery, but I knew she recognised the sender, irregardless. Before I knew it,my 5:30 alarm went off, and I had to throw on my tux as fast as I could. It'd be great if my dad and Linda got down to a full audience waiting for them. It was a really big deal for my dad, so big he had made arrangements for his helicopter to pick them both at ten o'clock. Linda was wearing a slick floor length satin dress in emerald green, paired
Emma's POVI decided to see my mom before the dinner. I didn't care if it was right or wrong, but I'd barely seen her all through the day and I was dying to know how she was holding up. Maybe an escape for myself was the other motive, but primarily, I wanted to know how she was doing. “Hey mom.” I said, pushing her door open. It almost felt like it was her wedding all over again. Mark was going all out. And I didn't know why it had to be that big for a guest list of just sixteen people. “This is a lot.” I smiled. “It is.” I saw the woman beneath all the makeup, hair glam, and accessories. She was still just my mom. “Can I have a moment with my daughter please?” She referred to everyone else in the room who wasn't me, and they, by my rough headcount, were about eight. “We can spare only about half an hour.” A kind lady who looked like she was in her thirties said, She had an outrageous makeup done. While it looked good, edgy, classy on her, I hope that wasn't gonna be my
Emma's POV. “You were gonna go in.” He said, looking away. “I was.” I replied, unshifting. He no longer had the courage to stare me down, and I no longer had the will to leave, “MIT looks good on you.” He said. “Thank you.” I smiled, “I could say the same for you.” “I see you've made new friends, well old ones,but you know…” He said. I chuckled within myself. Who'd have known that I could make the bad boy Chase unsure about me? “Yeah, I had no choice.” I murmured. “Uhm, how are you?” I asked, just out of courtesy, I told myself. I thought being brave and bold was gonna make me indestructible by him, but I was beginning to come off as antagonistic, and I didn't like it. Deep down, in the corners of my heart I hoped Kevin would never see, Chase occupied it. I wanted for him to close the distance between us like he'd once done. To treat me like his own. I was getting a little teary, so I dug my freshly manicured nail into my palm, I wasn't gonna cry, I could not.