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Breanna's POV
Just like the night before, and every day since it happened, she sat down in the living room, perfectly still as she stared into nothingness.
The day had been extremely hard, from pretending to be alright, to a new five thousand word thesis she had to write, her car breaking down, the constant pain in her side, her landlady screaming insults at her and coming home to an empty apartment. It had not been the best.
She had thought that by now, her eyes would be dry, that there would be no more tears. But her eyes proved her wrong, every time she came home, to his house, the house they had shared since she moved in with him. She cried.
His presence lingered every where, it was his house after all, she had never cried so much in her entire life, but for course, she had never lost a brother before in her entire life.
She wasn't sure if she wanted to continue with life, If she wanted to be in school, she couldn’t afford it anyway, she couldn't handle being constantly reminded of him every where she turned to in the house.
Life sucked. She wanted to crawl into a hole and just disappear.
Her chest felt stuffed, it was difficult to breath, her body felt heavy, like she was a walking zombie, no doubt she looked like one too.
She didn't make so much effort to her appearance when she left in the morning and between the amount of time she had to take crying breaks, she knew she wasn't her prettiest, but who cared.
Life took a drastic turn from what she used to think was bad.
Growing up was hard, they grew up on the ocean side, it was just her, Jack and their father; Joshua. They didn't have much, but it wasn't always bad, or so she liked to think.
Their mother Rose died while giving to her, and ever since then Joshua had never been the same again, he started drinking, a lot, and when he couldn't get enough alcohol, he took his anger out on his children, Jack, to be specific.
Breanna, basically raised herself while their father was out drinking and squandering most the money he made. She was hungry all day, every day so she learnt to cook by herself with what ever money he spared.
It only took a while before Jack began to rebel. He moved out the day he turned 19, but kept in touch with her.
In her last year of high school, Joshua suffered an injury at his work place, ruining his knee, soon after he developed Alzheimer and some other mental condition she couldn't pronounce.
Breanna had to start working to take care of them, but his anger towards his children only increased as she grew up to a splitting image of her mother.
He never failed to remind her that she killed her Rosaline, his precious wife, and ruined his life. At first it hurt to hear him say those things to her, but as time passed, she learnt to just ignore him, but then cry herself to sleep every night.
One day, he had an episode and he threw a vase at her, tearing from her shoulder all the way to her elbow. That was when she had enough. She committed him to a nursing home, sold their house, packed her bags and came to Lakeside.
Since then, it had been both of them against the world, he helped her with her application essay and helped pay half the first tuition with the money she made from house.
He was her best and only friend, since high school, when she was bullied for wearing her brother's old hand-me-downs, they couldn't afford to buy her new clothes and their father never gave it a thought to buy her nice things, even when he was sober.
Sure, Jack was not perfect, but he was her brother and she loved him. It hurt too much to wrap her head around the fact that he was no more, that he was gone, forever. He was in his last year at Charleston, with just a few months before graduating, and then those evil people went and wasted his life.
He was a person of a lot of dreams and hopes, Breanna never understood how he could stay so optimistic when they faced problems everywhere. He lived his life full of fun, unlike her, always cowering in fear, trying to hide herself, so she wouldn't stick out like a sore thumb, like she did when she was young.
She couldn't make any friends, she always felt like filth next to the kids who had mothers, and they always made sure she felt like it too. So she lived her life away from everyone, except for Jack.
Breanna thought of how to break it to his girlfriend, Michele, and all his friends, she didn't have his phone, because it was ruined in the fire, not even the clothes he wore that night was spared.
Jack got her the first job in a movie theatre, after that he got her a waiting job and a bunch of other jobs. She could never be like him, she was too scared.
The thought of living life without him was simply appalling. She wasn't ready to accept it yet.
She retrieved the black card in her purse, examining it closely, if she decided to go for the interview, that would mean moving on with life without Jack, but she didn't feel like it, she didn't even want to do anything with herself, but living in this house she shared with Jack was beginning to feel constricting.
She sighed loudly. She put the card away and leaned back staring into the ceiling.
She didn't know what to make of Professor Caines sudden interest in her life, maybe because he thought she'd try to kill herself after that night. It would be a lie if she said she hadn't thought of it, many times.
But she knew his history with women, it was no news that he was a ladies man.
Although she had never heard of him with a student before; she was glad he had a tiny bit of decency and class left, but one couldn't be too careful, especially because he had seen her stripping, he must think she was a lose person among many other horrible things.
She had expected him to be an evil person, with the constant frown he wore and with his reputation of failing students just because he didn’t like them, but in the few days he had proven to be anything but evil.
He held her when she had a nightmare, screaming and punching, he held her. Breanna snuggled herself at the memory, biting her lip. His arms were large, hard and warm - safe - his arms were safe.
That alone came as a huge shock to her.
She thought he'd be repulsed after her having seen her in underwear, but he wasn't, instead saved her life, he stayed by her in the hospital all night, drove her to the station and brought her to his house after she vehemently refused to be taken back to the hospital.
She didn't know what to make of his behavior, surely he must want something, but she didn't know what. She didn't have any more to give, she was all spent.
Finding more protein shakes in fridge, she downed it and plopped down her sleeping pills. It had been well over a week since she had slept more than one hour even with the help of the sleeping pills.
She stalked slowly to Jack's room. It had also been about a week, since she last set foot in the room. She had been avoiding the place like a plague. Going in would only make it all real, she didn't want to accept that it was yet.
But now, she couldn't help herself, she longed for him, she wanted to feel him again, like he was here with her. To protect her from all her hurt, like he used to.
The door squeaked open as she pushed it, his small bed stood in the middle of the room with dirty clothes pilled on it. A small work space where he kept recording stuffs and some old players. The walls covered in posters of his favorite rock band "Midnight", a very legendary producer - 'Don Marcos' and a very famous song writer.
She reached for a jacket, his favorite black leather jacket, he wore it everywhere, she washed it for him the day before that night, so it was in still in the washer and he couldn't wear it out that night. Bringing the jacket to her nose, she took a big sniff of detergent and his woody scent. Tears fell from her eyes.
She wore the jacket shakily and gathered as many of his tapes as she could find. She went back to living room and started to play them one by one till she fell asleep just as the sun was rising.
Well, this was dark. Breanna is going through a lot right now. We need a prince charming to cheer her up!!....ASAP!!. This is a big change from the previous Chapter 9. I hope you liked it!. Comment, like, share, and leave a review!. Love, Bee.
*Edited This chapter has brief mention of strong language ********************** Maxwell's POV A week later. He didn't plan on going, but he had to. Steve and the rest of the guys went too, they had to stay far away, but they were there, honoring the lives of those who passed on that awful night. He didn't like to think about it much, but when he saw her in the black dress, holding a bunch of white roses, the blank distant look in her eyes as the service commenced it rushed to him like ligthning. He knew she was not okay and for some reason, no matter how he tried to shake the feeling that he could help. That he should help. He just couldn't. He was never like this, he was usually glib, but this time, it was some what personal. He began to imagine all the other people that died, how they meant something to their families, but now they were dead, gone to never return. His stomach churned. "Fuck!." He had not felt like this since his grand dad died, he never wanted to relive
*Edited Breanna's POV She took a deep breath through the lungs, as the warm air hit her face, the breeze tugging at the skirt of the black dress she was wearing. The town was holding a mass burial for the people that died that night. So here she was, with a bouquet of white roses in her hands, Jack loved roses, especially the white ones, their mother had a white rose garden when she was alive, where she would spend hours trimming and nursing all weekend according to him. A few of Jack's friends came to support, but she couldn't register any of their faces, his producer and even his boss from work. His girlfriend didn't make it, she didn't even bother to ask why. She didn't tell her dad, he wasn't even in the right frame of mind to understand anyway, it was useless telling him. It would only cost her more money to bring him all the way here. The service ended as quickly as it started, she didn't hear a word the priest said, she felt like life had left her and that she was just dri
*Edited This chapter contains strong language and reference through out. ******************** Maxwell's POV Petra called him at eleven pm, and couldn't stop talking about Wilson. "Max!, you didn't remember to tell me she was gorgeous!." She sang over the back ground chaos of her husband yelling at their kids not to kill each other. He sighed, dragging a hand over his face. He had a long stress filled day, that wasn't over yet. With a lot of work on his table, he didn't need her prying self. The night was especially hot and it was killing his work progress. A mail arrived earlier and he was informed that his deadline was shifted up. So since he got home, he buried himself under piles and piles of papers work, locking himself away in his office. The moonlight peeked in from the large sliding doors that led to the patio, casting a shadow over the large book shelf. He could hear the distant hoot of the owls on the trees, and the crickets in the mud, the sweet soothing sound of natu
*Edited Breanna's POV Two weeks later Dr. Robinson invited her to the grand opening. Thus her current rummage through her closet to find a decent enough dress for a grand opening and cocktail after party in the awful state of her room. Although she had only been working a week, easing into the work atmosphere was definitely easy. Besides, the clinic was yet to be properly opened so all she did was organize her boss's emails and report the last details of work needed to be done to the place. The only issue was her sleeping routine. For a whole year she used to stay up all night working. Unlike now, she was awake both at night, due to her nightmares and all day attendng classes or at work. So she was tired a lot. Settling for her old high school gold prom dress, she got ready. Shoes weren't an issue, although cheap and thrifted - she had a number of them from stripping. The dress was tight, extremely, it had been almost three years since she wore it. She wanted to sell it when s
*Edited Maxwell's POV His frown deepened as he noticed Martha walk in. The monotone business conversation that he paid no attention to in the first place and the slow jazz music in the background blurred around him. After his speech earlier as one of the partners, he had been swarmed by business men trying to pitch to him, but he wasn't interested, he already had enough on his plate business-wise. Some even brought their sisters or nieces to set him up with. He had tired one too many blind dates from networking events like this to know better than to show any interest. His eyes met with Petra's and she gave him a sly smile before walking to meet Martha. Looking around frantically, he found Wilson, by herself looking into a glass of wine suspiciously in front of her. With only one thing on his mind, 'to get her away from Martha' he walked briskly towards her. Before they could get to her and start drilling her with questions that would forever ruin him in the eyes of his innocent
*Edited Breanna's POV She walked around for a while, inhaling the cold windy air. Rain was coming, she could feel it. But she didn't want to go back into the party. Not after what happened with Professor Caines. She just wanted to go home. But she was stranded, a long way from home without a ride because he was the one that brought her here. She knew he didn't like her, he didn't come off across like he liked anybody though. With the recent changes in her life, she was glad for his help but she didn't need him to baby sit. She was perfectly capable of handling herself among a few business people. She had been doing just fine on her own till now. The rain started suddenly. She tried to find shelter, but she had wandered away from the building. Just then her phone rang in her purse. It was from the nursing home. They had called three times before but the loud party didn't let her hear. "Hello?." "Breanna?." Nurse Gabriella shouted over the speaker. She pushed the phone slightly
*Edited Maxwell's POV He chest squeezed at the sight of her, drenched - and crying. He frowned, the feeling, foreign. The anger he was feeling had long disappeared. Ten minutes ago to be precise, since he started looking for her. Martha was right, she meant something to him. He had anger issues, always had, one out of many reasons why Petra was his therapist aside from being just an overbearing friend. His "issues" in general started a long time ago, when he got a first hand experience of abandonment and heart break. As corny as it sounded, his first heartbreak, broke him. He was still dealing with the aftermath. It was why he never committed, why he didn't let anyone in, despite all the eligible blind dates he had been on in the past. The thought that, if he didn't let anyone in, he wouldn't care, too much that it would hurt him again. He didn't want that. He had tried in the past and it didn't end well at all. But here he was, feeling all these feelings he hadn't felt in a wh
*Edited Breanna's POV "Breanna, I'm afraid we have bad news." She had been worried, ever since she arrived, her stomach twisting and churning with worry. "How bad?." Breanna felt her throat dry up instantly, the Doctor's face and tone didn't exactly do anything to ease her worries. "See you father developed a clot on his hind brain a few weeks ago, covering his cerebellum and medulla which is dangerous for a patient already diagnosed with Alzheimer and which caused his stroke, he is old, and had been sick for a while, I'm afraid his body can't take another stroke, that is bound to happen." "What does that mean?........" Her heart sunk at the doctor's words, her head began to spin, but she managed to stay still. 'There should be a solution'. She told herself. "The clot needs to be removed and hopefully, with the clot gone, another stroke can be avoided. But more than that, the clot is very hazardous to his health." She paused and locked eyes with Breanna before she continu