6

Ivy Chase

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Sitting in the bar waiting for him, I felt lost wondering how my life ended up like this.

I wished it was just a dream.

I couldn’t even use sleep to escape from my problems even if I tried. I ended up waking back to reality and my chest still hurt as though I was stabbed physically with a knife.

Sebastian always told me that he loved me. He always assured me that we would be together forever. He made it seem like he was madly in love with me.

But everything was a lie.

I had been tricked for so many years. Nobody would do something like that to the person who they loved. It wasn’t logical.

For years, Sebastian had been my world. He was the center of my life and I had built everything around him. I had given him every piece of me without hesitation.

I stood by him. I sacrificed for him. More than I wanted to admit. More than I had ever let myself acknowledge.

His dreams had become my dreams.

When he wanted to start up his company, I was there. I contributed all the savings I had. Just because I believed in him. Just because I believed in us.

I thought we were a team. I thought that if he succeeded, it meant that we were succeeding together. I was all in and I thought he felt the same.

I stood by his side, every step of the way. I had been there through his late nights, through every frustration, through every loss. I had been the one to motivate him even when he wanted to give up.

I did a lot.

I made sure he ate well. I made sure he slept well.

I had listened to all his rants about being frustrated with work. I was there to always assure him. To always remind him of why he started in the first place.

As I thought about everything, I didn’t even realize that tears had been flowing down my cheeks. Everything was so messed up and I was still in awe.

We had been through so much together and I didn’t expect it to turn out like this.

I even had to walk away from friendships, and cut ties with people who were like family, just because Sebastian didn’t like them.

Just because Sebastian felt like they were against him. I forced myself to believe him. I forced myself to think that they didn’t support my boyfriend, so there was no use in having them around.

I thought Sebastian was enough for me. Like, I had him so I didn’t need a bunch of other people in my life. Little did I know that it was one of the wrong decisions that I made in my life.

I had done so much for him.

And yet, he still went ahead to betray me.

I watched him and I wasn’t sure what memory would leave my head anytime soon. He didn’t betray me with a stranger. He didn’t betray me with a random girl from his club.

He chose to betray me with my best friend.

I couldn’t help but wonder why.

Why did Zara also choose to betray me? She was the one person who I wasn’t scared to be vulnerable around. She had seen every part of me. I was open with her about almost everything.

She had listened to me talk about Sebastian countless times. She had watched me blush and giggle while I talked about how much I loved him.

She knew about almost everything that was happening in our relationship. Shit, she always talked about how she loved what we had and couldn’t wait to experience it with her own person.

I felt like I couldn’t breathe.

None of it made sense.

How could they do something like this to me?

I closed my eyes tightly as the scene replayed in my head. I didn’t see any sign of guilt or hesitation. It was purely pleasure.

But maybe I was just misunderstanding everything.

There had to be some sort of explanation. Maybe he had heard what happened at the hotel. Someone might’ve snitched and he was heartbroken and angry.

Maybe he wasn’t sober and wasn’t thinking straight. He was hurting and wanted revenge on me. He wanted me to hurt like he was hurting. So he decided to sleep with my best friend.

I swallowed hard. I needed to give him a chance to explain. There was an explanation that would make everything seem more logical.