“I still can't believe you're dating, Cooper Lee.” Patrick says, putting milk into the cup. I smile at the thought. “Me too.” I glance at him. “You think it's a bad idea?” I purse my lips. He pouts like he doesn't know. “I dont want to say anything. But I heard Cooper's family could be controlling in their child's life.” “What do you mean by that?” “Cooper used to date girls like you.” He stops and glances at me as if he just said an offensive thing. I think he just did. “It's not like that. I mean come on let's just face it. You're an ordinary girl who pretty much bleed in time just to make $30 dollars a week, while Cooper drives around at the town with his Lamborghini.” He's right. I'm just an ordinary girl. With a daughter for a record. It makes me sad all of a sudden knowing I just realize that by now. “Right.” In a saddening tone I say. “But Cooper's good. He's kind. He never let me feel secure about anything.” “That dude? He's a keep but his mother just the witch of all.”
I just taken my shower when my phone rings.“Kim?” I asks, sitting on the ned with my towel on.“Hey, I...can I ask a favor?” She sounds so worried. Like she's down and grieving.I nod but she can't see me. “Yes, yes.”“Can you please check Simon? He's not been answering my call. I dont know why. I mean he always pick it up. But today he's so out of reach.”“Yeah, on my way .”.“Thanks, Era.”“Of course,” I assure her. I get up andThe door creaks when I open their front door. Their house is full of silence like it's haunted and abandoned and I just know that he's upstairs. Just as I make my way I can see the mess in their kitchen. Plastic bottles. Beers. And empty bags of chips. Has Simon been drinking lately? But why?I step into his room with my heart pounding a little. Got no idea why I'm feeling like this, but maybe because it's the fact that we're here alone again. He's right there. He's lying on his side, he's back facing me.I stir him a little as I sit on the space next to
I wake up to the sound of a truck outside. Era is lying next to me in the couch. Wait why did we end up like this? Oh, last night. Her face is nestling to my neck. She looks peacefully sleeping and she's taking her time so calmly. Her body is curl up so close to mind with her one arm drape to my waist. And just like that I fall in love again. Again. And I shouldn't I know. She's in love with Cooper and the only reason she's here is because Kim asked her. It's not like I'm suddenly ungrateful for it but I wish she came because she wanted to see me not because Kim asked her to. Last night, it almost hit me hard seeing the way she looked at me with disappointed eyes. I knew then she hates to seem drunk. But I knew too that she wanted to understand. And I wanna thank her like really kiss her hand for it but I hold myself from doing so. Now, it's hard to hold myself. I find my hands caressing her face. Her soft delicate skin almost remind of the girl she was then. So innocent. I wond
It's been raining for days. I cannot tell if the heavy feeling I've been feeling comes from it or if it's because of what has happened between me and Simon the other day. It didn't end up well. I think it was something we never saw coming and now we have to face the consequence our words brought out to each other. I know I acted wrong and so did he. So I don't really blame myself for the way it turned out. I blame him for calling me bitch at the end. Bit I know I've hurt him so badly bringing up Cooper and comparing him to him. I've been thinking of calling him but every time I pick my phone Anne calls in. She called me today, telling me that she has to go fly to California for some family matters. I felt the panic begin to make its way to me. This is too soon to happen. She asks if I would to go back for awhile and then come back here until she's back to New York. I know I have to go back. There's no way she's driving Sophie here. It's not the time yet for everyone to see Sophie
Slowly. I think you slowly forget the pain of the past when you're begin to feel the happiness of the present. It's those people that are with you that seem to matter now. And those who left, they shouldn't be something you have to think about all the time. Leaving was their choice. And I know why I am saying this, it's because I know what it felt like to have someone all so suddenly be gone. “Do you see that?” Emma points to the bird flying above the shore. She has her head lying on my lap. I nod and smile at her cuteness. Starting now, I'm focusing on who is with me. Emma's with me on this very beach we had our first kiss. It's the same beach I showed to Era the first time I saw her since she came back. This place has become a sentiment to my heart. And I won't ever want to forget it. “You see this?” I kiss her forehead and think of all the way I could do it again. Just to see her smile. I feel so happy that she's back. That will stay as long as she's here with me. She giggle a
My body freezes as I watch him watch me. Emma is laughing behind him. I think I hear her call my name and waves at me. I kinda do the same but Simon doesn't pay attention because he's way too focused on me. It's not right. He should be looking at Emma not at me. Because the way his gaze fixed is always the way I want Cooper to do. Like I think Simon wants to run up to me and give me a tight longing hug or maybe a kiss. I shouldn't be thinking any of this or even him. It's wrong. So wrong.I take a deep deep breathe and begin making my way upstairs to where Cooper always stays. He's gone in his first bevause he's mad. He's mad at me for not telling him that I'm going to New York. It was just one week but I feel like I did a crime here. I needed to take care of my daughter. Every time I remember her sweet smile I just feel relieved. I want to look back at Simon to see if he's still watching me but I'm scared I won't be happy to see what he will be doing with Emma in that pool. So I st
ERA'S POVBeach vacation is finally here. I've been thinking about it to come around. For a while I had forgotten that it would still happen . It gotten out of my mind. It's just that I spend so much time with Cooper these days. Getting to know him. We talked about his family. How his mother loves floral things. That she likes putting asseoted flowers in every vase she found whether that is cheap or expensive. I was astounded by it because it fixed in my mind that Cooper's mom would only go for expensive things but this is an exception. “Wohooooo!” Cooper shouts next to me as the white sand catch on our feet. We're walking towards the rented beach house. His hands are slipped through my waist as we feel the heat of the sun shining above the clouds. It's so sunny today and I hope it never rains. The wind is so warm against our skin. It keeps baling my hair away. I'm sure it's too tangled up now. Better that way than it doesn't. It feels so good being here. It's like I'm younger tha
So the first night. The first night has to be the one to set the excitement up to the highest level where we couldn't reach it. At this moment, everyone is busy. John is cooking the barbecue with a pretty girl in white shorts, named, Anastasia. Cooper and Simon are cooking something else in the kitchen but mostly with the drinks they keep laughing at. I don't I would be drinking tonight. It's out of my plan. While me, I just watch everyone. I hope I could do something asie from shuffling through good indie music. Emma and the other guy that just arrive set fire set in the middle of the sand. The sky is full of starts thanti wish I could kiss it long. Everything I see is full of magic now. But across twenty feet away, is the sea. Its waves crashing in the dark is just there fully alive like if it's not there, this wouldn't be possible at all. So when everyone is done with their tasks. We west. There's a long table in the middle, just a few feet away from the fire and we'd taken out