I finally decided to let go of the house. Era have put a sign in front of their house that says property for sale. The last morning I have was spent staring at the sign for a few hours. I wasn't feeling happy about it. It was a lonely sight for me. I was empty. The soaring loneliness have become more evident. If only Richard didn't have to be gone. Everyone showed up at the funeral. Richard's family was there. Dad was there. We talked a bit and then he went back to New York. He is apparently a business man. A man of success. A man of ambition. Richard is a man of balance. He is still successful. He gave time to his family. He have happiness to both. I really see the different. But what can it do. Things will never be the same. Some little words from my own father aren't enough. I needed him more than anything. This is something I wish he have given me. Sometimes, I just want Richard to be my father but he isn't the name on the paper but he has a piece in my heart that stays the same
FIVE YEARS LATERERA'S POV “Mommy! Mommy!” I run upstairs and trying my best not to think of any bad thing that can happen to Sophie. She's sitting in the bathroom. “What happened?”I ask her, holding her hands. “Can you get my Zoe in my bedroom?” A relief of sigh come out of me. Zoe is her teddy bear. The only thing she can play with among all other toys she have. I don't think it's one of the fun thing about being a young kid. You get to choose which toy is your favorite. If it's a plastic toy. A feathery toy. It's all up to you. And it's one of my favorite thing to do for Sophie. Being able to give her the one that she likes the most. Sometimes it reminds me of my childhood and it often leads me to remember Simon. It's been five years. Yes. Five years. I don't how will I feel. Sometimes I wonder if we'll ever get tot he point of seeing each other again. And I have come to the point of not liking myself thinking about it. It's making me sad sometimes. I do feel like I have giv
(Chapter Song: Heavy Heart by RIO)Simon POVEver since summer hits the ground of Holy Cross Village, I knew that the THE SMITH, the punk rock infamous high school band of our school, released their second album. I knew I had to get away from everyone else that has done nothing but listen to their dire indecent music on tape more than ten times a day. And that is too much for me to bear. Well, I know this because my sister, Kim, never had one night without blasting their music out her window.I wouldn't say she's obsessed with them, I know it's justa fangirl thing. She at least explains to me, that it somehow has an expiration date so I don't have to constantly worry about it. But I don't think the expiration date she's telling me is somehow just right around the corner. I don't feel it yet.But my personal experience of getting away from eavesdropping on
SIMON POVAfter that phone call I had with Era, it took me hours to let it sink into my very awed mind. Knowing that Era has still managed to remember our telephone number has left me gasped and shook my head in disbelief.We haven't talked for two years until she called last night and the fact that she still remembers our telephone number wow. I know I have said that a lot for the last hours of my life. I don't think I even slept.I have been staring at myceiling when Kim knocks twice on the door and opens it eventually knowing it's never locked. Her face pops into the door, “Will you drive me to the show?” She asks. It's not asking permission actually, it's just asking if I would drive her to the show, which is an obligationregardless of whether I resist or insist.“I'm busy.” I sigh and close my eyes.&nbs
SIMON POVTWO YEARS LATERI push the glass entrancedoor and slip myself in as I try to cover my drunken eyes from last night's party with a black shades on. It's been going for a while now. I find parties numbing a lot of pain. It makes me forget about theold days and some other things including the wound in my family that my father left.I smile at the lady as she walks past me from the line. She has bright red lipstick on and just got her coffee. One more customer before it's my turn. I look around, especially outside. I see. The day is good-looking. Sun is out. Everyone's shuffling from one place to another. Talking. Stumbling. Smiling. Laughing. They are all different.When the guy in front of me walks away from the line, I step into the spot he leaves. I look at the girl behind the counter. She has a smile on her lips. I recognize a fam
(Chapter Songs:Nevertheless by RIOHeavy Heart by RIO)SIMON POVI leave my car and walk towards the front of the coffee shop for the second time this morning. The sun burns my skin, so I hurry towards the glass door. When I get inside, I immediately meet her two grey eyes while she’s serving a coffee to the woman in front of her.I don’t make it to the line first, instead I just look for a table to sit down. When I find one to the very corner, which is next to an old man with his granddaughter, I guess, probably, aged between 8 and 10. She is looking at me with a weird stare on her face.Just good. Yeah. Just stare at me, kid.There are more people slipping into their seats but I’m glad there aren’t so much tables so it doesn’t get too crowded.I look away and fix my gaze to the
SIMON POV Just right around 2 PM, Era comes out of the coffee shop. I was guessing it would be the same time her shift will be over. I start walking towards her without second guessing. At first she looks surprised seeing me, but also looks like she was expecting me, somehow. Her hair is up in a bun. Her white shirt is a stained with coffee and she's wearing the same blue washed jeans since last week. She looks really tired. Her eyes are closing off longer before she opens them. “Are you okay?” Then I realize she is not. “A long day?” “A good long day. But I’m tired. I'm hungry and I haven't eaten this afternoon.” “What?” No way she didn’t have a meal this afternoon. “Yeah, there were a lot of customers. Way too many. Plus my substitute was sick. I had to do some sacrificing.” She throws her head back in frustration, “At least my shift
It's seven in the evening. Simon is getting us some cake and fruit salad, so while he's gone I wander around his room. It's so quiet and peaceful. There's a sound of soft wind from the window. I missed it being here. Being so comfortable looking at his things like I used to do. But I carefully distance my hands from the frames on his desk. I get a feeling it won't be right to touch them yet. In that picture, there's me and him, probably, six years ago, outside their front yard eating ice cream in the middle of the night. I remember that. I remember he was pushing me to confess to him that I liked him if I don't do it, I have to buy us ice cream. It was a wreck dare because I couldn't say anything about confessing. I would never wanna lie about something I'd never feel. “Sup?” Simon is back with two transparent glasses in his two hands. His eyes drops to the frame behind me. “Were you looking at those?” He asks with a familiar smile hanging ton his lips. I nod, “Yeah. You know it'