OLIVIAThere are no words to express exactly how I feel at the moment. All I can say is that my heart does a strange flip before proceeding to beat faster than it ever has. A strange feeling carries its warmth past my heart and settles deep in my stomach. Home, my entire body screams but I don’t wait to hear the explanation it has for this peculiar reaction. I focus instead on watching the building we drive past and trying to commit it to memory. I’ve never been on this side of the city so it will need some getting used to before I can move around all on my own. There’s a park just down the street with an ice cream and pop corn stand. Mac must notice how my eyes linger there until he turns down another street which cuts it completely from my view. “We can stop by on our way back.” I turn my torso to look at him. “Really?” A short glance and a smile. “Really.” I relax into my seat. Looking forward to it much more than the aspect of shopping. I don’t wait for Mac to open the door
OLIVIA My head is resting on the window and watching the blurry images of the buildings that Mac speeds by. With the way he’s relaxed I can tell that the incident back at the store has brought this air of intimacy between us. Not the kind between people in relationships, but the feeling where you know the other party understands you and will always be there for you. Maybe always was stretching it a bit too much. Yes, he helped me back there with the woman because I genuinely don’t know how I could have maneuvered that situation on my own. Anyway he has literally being helping me since he met me for the first time but it was a bit too soon that this was a forever kind of thing. Besides once I get back back on my feet, I plan to leave the country and start over completely in a place where no one knows me. Where I can’t be reminded of the pain in my past. My head goes up when I realize the car has stopped but we’re not back at his apartment. I look at him as he takes off his seat b
OLIVIA All my life I’ve never felt genuinely needed by another until now. It’s something that makes my heart explode with joy and the feeling of being important to another human being. It makes me want to go back to the past and find his sister for him, or at least find out where she is so I can assure Mac that she is fine something. An idea clicks in my heart. I’ve been thinking of ways I could repay Mac and his family for all the things they’ve done for me. This could be it. With time I can save and help them find their long lost daughter, she was the one that mattered the most to them. My heart is bent on this even though I had no idea how I was going to push through to make it happen. Mac and his parents with all their money haven’t been able to find him so what chances did I have? Maybe sheer will and the gnawing need to do this for them. I can’t imagine having a family somewhere that was looking for me and I wouldn’t know. Years ago I had believed that it was my case, that
OLIVIAMac stays blinking up at me like he hadn’t heard me right. It’s a lot to process so I give him all the time that he needs. “What do you mean you are…” he can’t even get himself to say it. I mean I’m aware that a lot of people out there have a thing against gays, some have made nasty comments about it regarding me in the past but it didn’t matter then. Because I didn’t care about anyone or whatever biased opinion they have of me. With Mac though, I hate the judgement I see in his eyes. It makes me wonder if he would have saved me back then in the bus station if he knew then that I was gay. “It can’t be, it doesn’t make any sense,” he says ad stands up from the tool. I stay rooted in my position. “Are you regretting saving me now?” I ask quietly. He turns to me with a furious look. “Why will you even ask that? What has you being gay got to do with saving you?” “It’s as plain as day that you have a thing against me being gay. Are you going to tell your parents?” the question
JAKEIt has been two days and still there’s no sign of Olivia. Maybe this really is how it was supposed to end between us.Still. I had not believed dad when he said Olivia wasn’t going to show up for the wedding. It had been a challenge between us, if he could bribe her out of wedding me or if her love for me would make her stay by my side. For real this time, instead of that atrocious contract we’d drawn up between us. But Father had won. At the end she had left me and all for what, money? The exact thing I had offered her from the very start. Something, or rather someone stirs beside me and I’m thrown back to the harsh reality of me being married but certainly not to the girl that my heart beats for. “How long have you been up?” Her sleepy voice makes my skin crawl because it conveys the intimacy of our situation and it is one that I’ll never be okay with. Green eyes blink up at me as it struggles to get into focus. I immediately get away when she starts to stretch.“What happe
JAKEI’ve never seen a father have so much disregard for his own daughter. The strained relationship, if it could be called that, between her and her father is very much evident. The awkward silence that had befallen us after his statement didn’t do much to help the already tense air around us. “Thank you for your understanding,” I say after clearing my throat. A part of me feels bad for putting Jess in this situation and wants to take a bit of responsibility for her. But at the same time, my heart cannot resist caring for another, not when it beats for only one woman in the entire world. Mr. Adams offer is so obviously an intriguing one, it makes me want to drop every other thing and accept it. But that would be a disrespectful to Jess and the vows we had said in front of the altar. “If you’ll excuse me,” Mr. Adams says and stands up. “I’ll be leaving first.” As expected he calls to me to the side once we’re out by the parking lot. “What is there to think about? Take the offer
JAKEI’m surprised at her lashing out because I never suspected someone with this much quiet demeanour was capable of even raising her voice. My next question revolved around why she let her parents push her around when she can stand up this much for herself. “I can’t have you going around with different men, think of what our families will say,” I put the car back in ignition. “But you can think about your ex or whatever and everyone will be cool with it,” she says, ready to take me on this fight. “Don’t think you’re the one who a few lovers by the side.” I slam the break again, my ears ringing from her admission. “What the hell did you just say?” I pull into the driveway with an urgency that had blood bumping in my ears. She comes out of the car and slams the door shut with so much force it was deafening in the empty space. “Leave the hell alone Jake, this day has been tough on me already.” “What do you mean love?” I ask, following her up to my floor. “Let’s put a lid on this
OLIVIA I’m a bit hesitant when Mac pushes the door open for me. I wait a few seconds behind until he comes back and pushes me along. The place is mostly empty, and from my guess it hasn’t been open in a few days, or say a week tops. There are tiny sheets of dust on the tables but it’s nothing a good swipe won’t fix. Luckily I’m good in cleaning as well. “Let’s take this upstairs to the apartment, mum should be waiting there already.” He carries the bags his holding through the backdoor while I struggle with trying to take in everything at the same time. The cream walls compliment the light red furniture and decorations, it almost gives it this Christmas feeling. It hasn’t been open in a while but I can still smell the faint scent of bread and pastries in the air. Even the smell of coffee will take a while if it were to completely leave the space. There is enough space between the tables to move around, making it very spacious and well ventilated unlike the local cafes that were al