OLIVIAI can’t get all the moans I hear last night out of my head.No matter how hard I try to push them away they’re persistent, creeping into my ears that I tried to cover with a pillow.No even cotton puds in my ear could do the trick. I was left all night listening to those tormenting sounds until they became my nightmare.I cried at some point, hoping that my sob would drown out their voices. I think at some point he heard me because the squeaking of the bed stopped and their was silence.I held my breath, waiting for him to realize what he has done and come back to me after sending those girls away.That didn’t happen. Of course he wasn’t coming back to me, just like my parents left me and never came back.Maybe there was something about me that repelled people and kept them away from me.They kept at it all night long which explains the bags under my eye when morning finally comes.I have to get out of here before this room suffocates what remains of me. I put on my work out at
OLIVIAWe’re still holding hands when we step into the apartment and that’s the first thing Jake notices.His eyes move from me to Sharlene and back again then rest on our joined hands. His eyes twitch, that’s the only reaction from him.There are no signs of the girls from last night, he must have asked them to leave after Sharlene walked in. For that I was grateful, that way Sharlene would not be able to see the humiliation Jake is putting me through.With a final glance at Jake I let my hand slip from Sharlene’s and go to my room. They could stay there and do whatever it is that siblings do.As for me, I was going to treat this wedding like it was a real one because after everything that has happened, I had a feeling that I would never have the courage to get married again. Or at least for real.So I was going this one as much as I could and not even Jake was going to ruin it for me.Just before I shut my door I hear Jake and Sharlene talking, more like arguing because their voice
OLIVIAWe’re still holding hands when we step into the apartment and that’s the first thing Jake notices.His eyes move from me to Sharlene and back again then rest on our joined hands. His eyes twitch, that’s the only reaction from him.There are no signs of the girls from last night, he must have asked them to leave after Sharlene walked in. For that I was grateful, that way Sharlene would not be able to see the humiliation Jake is putting me through.With a final glance at Jake I let my hand slip from Sharlene’s and go to my room. They could stay there and do whatever it is that siblings do.As for me, I was going to treat this wedding like it was a real one because after everything that has happened, I had a feeling that I would never have the courage to get married again. Or at least for real.So I was going this one as much as I could and not even Jake was going to ruin it for me.Just before I shut my door I hear Jake and Sharlene talking, more like arguing because their voice
OLIVIAWe go to random stores after that. We buy jewelry and whatever it is that Sharlene deemed important for a wedding.She even gets us matching necklaces at some point with our initials at the back. I’m not sure how she convinced the jeweller to brand it on the spot but it worked.I would do whatever she asked if she threatened me the way she did the jeweller in her drunken state.Sharlene was right, alcohol brings out all the fun. I could get used to this.I wish Jess was with us, lord knows she could use some fun in her life especially with the entire marriage thing going on.I imagine the desperation she feels being tied down to someone forever. Mine was just going to last three months but it felt like an eternal cage. I had to go back and find a way to help her.“Hey! What are you thinking so much about?” Sharlene asks me as our cab pulls into the parking lot of a bustling bar.“My best friend, her parents are making her get married to someone she does not even know” I whine,
OLIVIAHangover is a bitch and I’m never drinking again.By the time I made it up the stairs last night and into my bed, I blacked out.I woke up in the middle of the night throwing up. Sweet Sharlene held my hair though and cleaned me up when I was done.When I woke up in the morning, I felt dead. My eyelids were heavy and they hurt a lot. The sun streaming into the room didn’t even help.Luckily there was aspirin and a bottle of water waiting by the side of my bed. I made a mental note to thank Sharlene later for it.I’m not sure what time she left but it must have been pretty early because I woke up to an empty bed.It’s just a day till the wedding and I’m growing nervous. Especially when Jake’s mum comes to the apartment and whisks me away.Apparently we’re going for spa treatment which she claimed was also good for bonding with her future daughter-in-law.I doubt she meant it. If anything I was at alert around her, in case she decides to get rid of me before the wedding.“Thank y
OLIVIAThe ride home in his car is silent, but not awkward. We’re both drowned in our thoughts, me especially because I don’t know what to expect from Jake.I don’t want to assume that the actions he had displayed back at the club was out of jealousy. I mean that is one emotion that I can never expect from him, not when he had several women lined up and waiting to take my position.“You didn’t have to carry me out like that, I’m not a child. You should have just called me out.”I didn’t expect a response so I’m baffled when he comes to an abrupt stop and turns to give me a stern look. “And would you have followed me? Willing?”I’m tongue-tied because I don’t have the answer to his question. Or maybe it’s because I was too ashamed of my answer, it would seem pathetic to say that I would drop everything I have and follow me if he ever asked.The light turns green and I’m spared from answering. Instead I put all of my focus on the window and stare at the night life that breezes past us.
OLIVIAI’ll dream about last night for the rest of my life. The passion, the love and the desires that laid tangles with us in the sheets.I’ve never been connected to another like I have with Jake and instead of the regret I thought with seep in, love blooms even more in my heart.This was a dream come true for me. To spend my life with someone that loved me, that was willing to go miles for me and what we shared.It’s hard to keep the smile from my face even in my dreams. My joy was immeasurable. I turn around and try to wriggle back into his arms only to find his side of the bed empty.After his profession we’d both ended up in his room, and he showed me the reason he was quite popular with the girls, while they were all hooked to him.It was a torture trying not to think of all the people he had been with in the past. My only consolation was that he ended up with me. I was the only that held him in the night, I was the one he choose.I let light slowly seep into my eyelids as I op
OLIVIAWe stand there, engaged in a staring contest. Of course I lose because in my defense his eyes aren’t really the type you’d like to look into for a long time. It feels like they’ll drag you into the plainness of them.“I’m out of here,” I mutter under my breath and try to push past him. He’s not even trying to be gentle at this point, he pushes my shoulders hard enough that I stumble and fall to the floor.It hurt, really bad. I hope I’ve not bruised my tail bone because it would be even more painful.With a muffled sob I stand up with much difficulty and hold on to the table so I don’t go falling down again.“Why won’t you let me leave? It’s clear that you don’t want mt here anymore,” I say, growing frustrated with every minute that passed us by.“I’ll let you leave on only one condition,” he starts with a raised brow. “You’ll ever contact Jake again.”“What sort of joke is that? What of the wedding? I think you’re missing a lot with what you’re asking me to do.”Kyle shakes hi