All I know was that my heart was in pain, immense pain that I had no recollection of how I went back to my room, or how I managed to make it through the night. By the time morning came, the sun filtered through the slightly opened curtains, peeping in soft golden lights across the room, a huge contrast to what my heart was feeling.
The spot beside me on the bed, where Matt should have been, was cold and empty. I felt none of the warmth I’d once enjoyed waking up beside him.
He hadn’t returned early last night, and even when he finally did, I couldn’t find peace, couldn’t sleep. His words from when he left echoed in my mind, his flimsy excuses taunting me.
He had told me his great uncle, Sebastian Salvatore, would be in town soon to expand his business. In Matt’s world, that meant he needed to be on his best behavior to get on the man’s good side. He mentioned needing to ensure everything was perfect for the meeting.
But after what I’d discovered, I knew it was a lie. He left to see her—Faye.
Now that I thought about it, maybe he met her all those times he claimed to be going out for work. He probably just wanted more time with his lover while I played the perfect fiancée, clueless and devoted, thinking he was pursuing his dreams. All the while, he had been pursuing something else, someone else.
The truth shattered me more than I wanted to admit. The very thought of it churned my stomach. The worst part was knowing he’d been taking my blood, draining me like some danm vampire, only to give it to her.
When would it end? Would he keep going until I dropped dead? Would he be satisfied then? Perhaps he’d wanted me dead all along.
A tool—that’s all I was to him. Not even a person, much less a wolf.
And yet, pathetically enough, I couldn’t bring myself to confront him. I didn’t know why. I wanted to—I really did. But for some reason, as I watched him get ready and leave, I could only sit there, doing nothing. Even when he leaned down to kiss my cheek goodbye, it felt like nothing more than an act he’d perfected over the past two years. It felt hollow, a robotic gesture, not an act of love.
I hated it. I hated everything that had led to this. I hated that I could only sit and watch as it crumbled. I hated that I still couldn’t face him.
More than anything, though, I hated how much I loved him, and how that love had left me feeling so betrayed, so broken-hearted. When the door finally clicked shut behind him, I released a shaky breath, my shoulders slumping and my knees weakening. If I had been standing, I might have fallen.
My mind raced, replaying everything that had happened over the past two years, every lie I’d believed, every sacrifice I’d made. The silence in the house felt oppressive, my mind looping through the betrayal, the anger, the disbelief.
How had I let it come to this? How had I allowed myself to be deceived for so long?!
To think that I’d been giving him my blood all this time, believing he was doing it for my sake, only to find out I was nothing more than a fool in his eyes—and in hers. How long had he been with her? Was she the reason he got with me in the first place? Was I the other woman here, or was she?
The more I thought about it, the more suffocated I felt. I desperately needed an escape. I needed to get out, to talk to someone—anyone—to lift some of this weight off my shoulders.
Without a second thought, I reached for my phone and dialed the one person I could count on: my best friend, Gracie. She was the only person in the pack who genuinely understood me, who had ever been kind to me.
She picked up on the second ring, her cheerful voice flooding the receiver, instantly calming some of the storm inside me. “Hey, baby girl!” she greeted, as upbeat as ever. “What’s up?”
My heart hammered in my che-st, my voice thick as I tried to speak. “Gracie,” I croaked, hating how weak I sounded. Tears pricked my eyes, but I blinked them back. “Can we go out tonight?” I cleared my throat, hoping my voice would steady. “I just… I need to get out of here, please.”
There was a pause on her end, a beat, then another. Gracie knew me well enough to sense something was wrong. Her voice softened, and I could practically see the frown on her face. “What happened, Leila?” Her cheerfulness had vanished, replaced by a fierce, protective tone that nearly brought me to tears again. “Did Matt do something?” It sounded like a question, but we both knew it wasn’t.
Gracie had never liked Matt, even before I joined the pack. No surprise she guessed he was the cause of my distress.
I hesitated, unsure how much to say. Finally, I decided against explaining over the phone. “Not now,” I said, shaking my head, even though she couldn’t see me. I gripped the phone tightly, my heart aching. “I’ll explain everything when we meet. Can we go to the club later? I need to clear my mind.”
“Of course, babe, of course,” she said gently. “I’ve got your back, always. I’ll pick you up around six. Is that good for you?”
“Yeah,” I managed, swallowing a lump in my throat. “Six is good.” It would give her time to finish work, and it worked well enough for me, too.
Some of the weight pressing on me eased at the thought of spending time with her. It had been weeks since I last saw her, and it felt like forever. I needed some girl time, desperately.
After a few more words, I hung up and collapsed back on the bed, staring at the ceiling. Tonight, I thought. I’d let it all out tonight, even if only for a little while.
Maybe Gracie would have an idea—a way out—because I certainly couldn’t think straight. But deep down, I knew my time with Matt was over.
It had to be, one way or another. Now, it was just a matter of when.
Now my priority was to start planning my leaving.
Life has been pretty good to say the least. I’ve gotten used to my life as the Luna of Sebastian and I’d pack and I have gotten used to being a member of the De Luca family now. Speaking of lives, a few months after the Luna ceremony, Sebastian and I welcomed the newest addition to our family. The baby we have been all anticipating since everyone had caught the baby fever with Little Lani. Killain Sebastian De Luca—our first child and the cutest child I have ever laid my eyes on. After Little Lani that is.Have you seen what we did with the names? Kehlani and Killian. We are hoping they would be the best of siblings. Certainly, I never understood what true, and love at first sight is till I laid my eyes on him for the very first time and held him in my arms. Suddenly, all the hours spent during labor did not matter so much. The pain, and the mood swings I have suffered those past nine months did not matter when I saw Sebastian hold killian in his arms. I did make a promise then to
LEILA MILLER.My heart hammered behind my ribcage as I stared at him, frozen, my lips parted and unable to utter any words to him. Sebastian did not have to say much, he did not need to elaborate or anything, with just that simple statement, it carried the weight of everything that could ruin the little composure I had managed to muster all this while.But what scared me even more was that he did not have any reaction. He did not seem angry, or happy. It just felt like a normal conversation, like we were not speaking of something that was going to change our lives.“What…” My voice came out low, so I cleared my throat to make it sound clearer, “…What do you know?”Instead of replying instantly, Sebatsian reached out to me, and then picked up little Lani from my arms, and I allowed him, for I did not have the strength in me, nor the composure to hold her. My stomach twisted uncomfortably, and I had to swallow a thick lump, watching him as he steadied her in his arms, and then leaned ba
LEILA MILLER.Maya was discharged from the hospital after twenty four hours, and we helped her get back home and that was when the pampering from everyone started. The entire pack could not wait to see the baby and her mother, and at one point, I almost felt jealous because there were so many people around her, I felt as though I have not been getting enough time with her.So, after Maya had fallen asleep at one point, I took Kehlani away from her father who seemed to be in need of much needed rest as well and disappeared off with her to the one place I knew people would not think of going to so I could enjoy my time alone with her.Seb’s private library.I went to a corner in the library, by the full length mirror so I was having a great view of the pack, and then settled on a rocking chair. I cuddled Kehlani close to my chest and rocked the chair to and fro, simply enjoying the moment simply.I was not sure how long I sat there, but I knew that at one point, I had started to doze of
LEILA MILLER.“Meet Kehlani Jasper De Luca.” Jasper had said, handing the newest addition to the family to me, and I extended my hands to collect her, the baby scent instantly hitting. She was deep asleep, but the moment my eyes fell on her, I could swear I have never loved any human so fast.Not even with Sebastian. No. Actually, this was a different sense of love. The kind that comes unexpectedly, with no warnings, no heads up whatsoever. The kind of love that you feel as though you were willing to put your life in an instant for that little human.That was the kind of instant, overwhelming love I felt for Kehlani.And when I reached out to pat her cheeks softly with my index finger? She squirmed, and for a second I thought she was going to stir awake but she did not. Instead, she simply outstretched her hand out, and then held my finger in her small hand, and I could have sworn I almost melted like butter then.Love blossomed in my heart and I felt warm all over.“She is beautiful.
LEILA MILLER.Everything was a mess afterwards really.I could not quite remember how we got the other’s attention, but I know in the blink of an eye, the ambience had shifted and Jasper was by his mate’s side, mom on her other side and Sebastian by mine. It was a chorus of voices, reach trying to speak of what to do and how to go about it but at one point, everyone did collectively agree that it was best to take her to the hospital instantly.So, Jasper along with his parents took her to the pack hospital, which had already been informed and prepared to receive her, while Sebastian escorted me back to the pack house to pick up her maternity bag. It was in times like these that I was genuinely glad Maya was a thorough and organized person. She had already prepared everything and the bags and everything else was prepared.All we had to do was pick it up, and follow them to the hospital.But the hospital was a mess as well. Maya had been taken into the labor room, while Jasper was tryin
LEILA MILLER.The moment I had said that, I held my breath, my eyes settled on the pack that remained still—and I could barely tell what was going on in their mind. For a split second, I had wondered whether I had said the wrong thing given how quiet they were, and as an instant sense of comfort, I turned my head around, my eyes finding Sebastian’s.But his expression as much calmer than mine was. For he simply offered me an assuring smile, and once again, just as he had been doing the entire night, his hand gave mine another squeeze, and I squeezed it back.I tore my gaze from him and faced the pack again, my gaze finding his family’s, and Jasper then got on his feet, before he started clapping.Then, everyone did. And the cheers begin—it came with full force, all at once, so much so that I almost staggered back, taken aback and overwhelmed by the amount of instant love was thrown my way.“All hail Luna Leila!” They had all cheered together, their collective voices resonating around