Let Me Touch You

Sam's POV

Two weeks had passed since I was left in this mansion, too weak to step out and too afraid for my life to even dare it. Lucifer, I thought, was going to be hard, indifferent or even worse, yet he treated me with so much care it made me wonder.

It made my first thought of never depending on him waver.

No one had ever treated me kindly, he was… an exception.

He had called his mate and asked to lay in bed with me. I had never let him though. I couldn’t.

I just wasn’t ready enough to acknowledge that the mate bond was really having a toll on me. I wanted him so much just the way he did. I know he did. I thought I’d hate seeing the hunger in his eyes or the way he watched me in my sleep but surprisingly I loved every single part of it.

Not that I was ever willing to accept that.

I laid in the bed, sheets wrapped around me, and I closed my eyes. The fingers wrapping around the sheets were white as the sheets themselves.

The healer—whatever her name was—had said that I wouldn’t make full recovery until Lucifer sealed the mate bond.

Which meant fucking me.

Yeah, Lucifer had to fuck me.

Or I had to… whichever way, but I doubted I would be doing any fucking with Lucifer.

He was of powerful Alpha blood and I was a weak Omega.

The door opened and he walked in, just like he’d done anytime I thought of him.

He stalked towards me, all six foot, hard muscles of him. He was wearing only shorts and as much as I wanted to not look, there was nothing I could do.

“You haven’t come out all day.” He said with his usual dark tone. He let his hair pour around his shoulders. I swallowed.

The man was beautiful.

What?

I wasn’t even trying to deny it now.

“I’m not feeling really well,” I said, tearing my gaze away from his muscled chest.

“Can I come up?” He asked, and I turned to look back at him. His eyes were dark and I could only imagine the amount of patience he had to gather to put up with my rejection.

The bond was tugging at him too.

He had done everything to save me from dying.

Wasn’t I being too selfish?

What surprised me was the fact that I had come to realize it so soon. It should take longer, so why…

“Sam? You’re not even going to grace me with a no?” He asked and I blinked at him.

I was at the end of my shit, really spiraling this time.

My throat closed.

I swallowed.

“Come up,” I said and watched as his eyes widened in surprise just for a split second before going back to his usual cold demeanor.

He moved towards the bed and I held my breath, damn myself. I was beginning to feel heat between my legs, I wanted this so badly.

Lucifer got in bed beside me and turned to look at me. His hand shot to my face and I recoiled. He didn’t relent but placed his palm on my cheek. I burned for his touch.

“Why won’t you end your suffering and let me have you? End both our suffering.” His voice was soft as he stared at me. I couldn’t believe this was my arch enemy in bed with me.

“Without the bond, I mean nothing to you,” I whispered, and his eyes closed briefly.

“The bond is still a lifetime. Why would you worry about it breaking? And if this makes you happy, I came to your engagement out of jealousy.” He said and my eyes shut to him.

“What?”

“Not jealousy for you but Diane. I thought she would be having you all to herself.” He whispered and I stared at him, unable to believe what I was hearing.

“The only reason I’ve always kept up with your banter and hatred was because I liked it. Honestly, I don’t care for a family quarrel that’s been going on before I was born, I just kept up with it because it was you. I only realized it after I couldn’t watch you die.” Lucifer said, and I turned away from him, unable to meet his eyes.

“Aren’t you saying this just so I can give in?”

“Alex, I can take you how I want, anytime. But I’ve been patient with you. Do you think I’ll resort to lies just for it?”

No. I didn’t think so.

But I didn’t say a word.

I could feel him inching close, the heat of his body on me.

“Tell me, baby, what is the problem?” The words from his mouth made me shiver… I frowned. I didn’t like this.

“Don’t call me that.”

“You shouldn’t have turned your back to me then,” he said, and I felt his hand come around my waist. It was gentle and I liked his warmth so much I couldn’t fight it.

“You need to recover, you know that, so please tell me why you don’t want this.”

“I’m not used to this, Lucifer. I can’t… I’ve never fucked a man.”

“I’ll do the fucking,” he whispered in my ear and I shivered into him.

“That’s not what I meant.”

He sighed.

“I’ll take it slow, I understand, I’ll treat you right. But don’t push me away, okay baby?”

This was too natural for him, I raised a brow.

“Have you always liked men?”

“Yes.”

“And women alike. I’m bi.”

Ah…

“So you’ve fucked men?” I couldn’t hide the hint of jealousy in my voice.

“Sigh… men and women, but you’re the only one I want to be buried in right now.”

“I’m not ready yet,” I said this time, sincerely.

“I know, baby, but you never will if you don’t take small steps.” I was pressed against him now, and I could feel his bulge pressing hard against my ass.

Fuck. My wolf growled. I was mesmerized by the feeling.

“How?”

“Let me touch you.”