As soon as I get out of the car, the chilly night air strikes my skin and goes deep into my chest. The mansion in front of me appears like a fortress. It's tall, menacing, and obviously extremely nice. This isn't the kind of place I'm used to being. The polished glass windows reflect the streetlights, which cast long, black shapes on the front yard. As soon as I get to the property, I can see that things are different.
I take a deep breath. I keep my hands at my sides even if they're sweaty. I don't want to ask for mercy. I'm here to live.
There he is, at the front door.
Charles Thorne.
He seems like a statue at the doorway, and his tall body casts a menacing shadow. His blue eyes cut through the black light and stared at me like a predator might at its prey. His brown hair is perfectly combed and his black suit is spotless. He looks wonderful. He doesn't grin. He doesn't do anything. It looks like he's waiting for me to make the first move.
As I walk, the gravel road crunches under my feet. Charles doesn't even try to let me in. He only observes, his eyes serene and almost cold. I want to back away from him, but I don't. I'm not afraid of him. At least I tell myself I'm not.
"Jackson," he says in a low, clipped voice. "Come in."
I nod and walk approach him, but he doesn't even look at me as he goes back into the mansion. As I follow, the door closes silently behind me.
The inside of the mansion is just what I anticipated it would be: cold, slick, and not particularly welcoming. The floors are constructed of polished marble that sparkles in the dim light. Everything fits together so well that it makes me uncomfortable. The air smells like leather and something that smells like lemon.
"Follow me," he says as he walks down the long hallway without looking at me.
I look around. Everything is as it should be, nothing is out of place, and it doesn't feel warm. I can't help but wonder whether this is how Charles lives every day, in a world where sentiments don't count.
We go through a few rooms, such as the office, the library, and the dining room. Charles doesn't say why. He walks carefully and with purpose. He's not giving me a tour; he's just showing me the room like he's showing off a new acquisition. A new job.
He suddenly stops in front of a big, smooth piece of art and asks, "Do you like it here?" When I call, he doesn't look at me. He just stares at the art with a blank look on his face.
"I don't know," I say in a high-pitched voice. "It's a bit much for me."
When Charles glances at me, something—maybe amusement?—flashes across his face. But it's gone in a heartbeat, and that same unreadable gaze comes back. He looks at the painting again.
"It's not for you to like. I own it. That's all that matters.
I swallow and try not to bite back. I could feel the walls between us getting thicker every second. I knew I wasn't here to stay. I wasn't even here to be treated like a person. I was here to be... used.
After a while of awkward silence, Charles turns to me. His face is as cold and far away as ever.
He says, "I have my rules," and the way he says it makes it sound like a command instead of a suggestion. "Don't break them." "Stay in your lane."
His voice is final, and it makes me sick, yet I stand up straight and stare him in the eye without blinking.
"I don't want to cause trouble," I remark, but the words don't seem to mean anything to me.
Charles doesn't say anything; he just turns around and walks away, expecting me to follow. And I do.
We step inside a huge living room with big windows that look out over the city. I can't get to the lights in the distance. I feel like I'm in a glass cage, looking out at a life that isn't mine anymore.
Charles walks over to a sleek bar, and his movements are smooth and fluid. He prepares himself a drink and doesn't ask me whether I want one. He swirls the whiskey in the glass in his hand, which catches the light. He isn't looking at me; he's looking at the drink.
Finally, he says something. "You'll get paid." For your... job.
I glance at him, and something bad crosses my face. "Charles, I'm not a whore."
He lifts an eyebrow at me, not caring that my voice is harsh. "You're only here because you need me." Keep it in mind.
I take deep breaths, but I don't give up. "I didn't come here to be insulted."
"Please don't hurt me." He speaks in a chilly, planned way. "I'm reminding you that I have the cards. I'm letting you stay somewhere. You really do need a roof.
I agree with him. I don't have anything else. No money, no family, and no pride. But I don't want to say it. I'm not going to tell him I need him. In no way does that make me feel small.
He drinks from his glass, and the silence between us gets louder. I stand there, not knowing what to say, feeling the heaviness of his words.
At last, he turns around and looks me in the eye. "Do you understand what the terms mean?"
I nod, but my throat is tight. I don't need to ask him what he means. I get it. He has made it clear. This is a deal. Not getting emotionally invested. Just a cold, real link.
"I get it," I say, my voice tight.
He sets the glass down, and the sound of the crystal hitting the marble floor echoes in the stillness. "Good." I can keep you here as long as I wish. And you will do what I say in exchange. I won't put up with people who don't do what I say.
I can feel a cold coming on, but I force myself to keep my face blank. I don't know what to expect from him, but I know I'm already in deeper than I want to be.
Charles gets closer, and it's too much for him to handle. "You'll see that things aren't as bad as they seem," he continues, his voice quieter now but still strong.
I shake my head. "I'm not here to feel better. I had to come here.
He stares at me for a while, like he's trying to figure things out. I can feel the tension between us increasing again, and I can feel something pulling me that I don't want to confess.
"Exactly," he says in a quiet voice. "Neither of us has time for games,"
I sit in my office and look at the papers on my desk, but the words are hard to read. I can't stop thinking about Jackson—how strong he is, how he stands up for himself no matter what. I didn't think he would be like this. I didn't think I would be so interested in him. The more I stay in this house, the more his presence makes me uneasy. He's not like the other people I've had around who have followed my guidelines. That is not something Jackson does. He pushes back and fights against the limits I set for him. It's annoying, but also exciting. I can't help but think about what he'll do next. What he's willing to put on the line. And why the hell it matters so much to me. I put my fingers on my temples to help me focus. This isn't how I do things. I don't feel things, and I don't want things. I don't want to be distracted. I have the power. I have always been in charge. Jackson has been able to break that grip, though, just by being himself. By being impossible to miss. The door
I stand in front of the big window in my study and look out at the city below, but my mind is somewhere else. I can hear Jackson's footsteps in the corridor, and I feel that old pull in my chest. For years, I haven't let myself feel this way. Weakness. Want. But now that he's in my mansion, I can't ignore it any longer. I have always kept a tight grip on everything—my career, my life, and my feelings. I had to. That's how I got this empire going. That's how I made it through. But Jackson... Jackson is not the same. He makes me feel something inside that I haven't felt in a long time. It's the way he makes me think. How he stands up for himself, even when he knows he's not in the right place. I can see the fire in his eyes. It's not just a survival instinct; it's something more. Something about him makes me want to push him, test him, and see how far he will go. I've been careful too careful—staying away, but I'm not sure I can keep this up. I want more when I watch him. Not only hi
The door clicks shut behind me, and the gentle sound stays in the air like a warning. As I walk into the corridor, my heart races and my mind races. My fingers touch the smooth walls, and the mansion's cool, clean air makes it hard to breathe. I can still feel the pressure of Charles' kiss on my lips and the heat of his touch on my skin. I try to forget about it, but it keeps coming back. What the hell just happened? I walk swiftly, and my mind and heart are all over the place. I should have been mad. I should have been really angry. But all I feel is... confused. I feel like I'm stuck in a hurricane that I can't get out of. I need to breathe. I need to take a breath. When I get to the back door, the chilly night air greets me like an old friend. I go outside, and the darkness wraps about me in solitude. The mansion feels like a jail since the huge gates keep me in a world where I don't belong. As I stroll down the garden path, my breath fogs up in the cold air and my boots crunch
The quiet in Charles Thorne's stately guest chamber is made worse by the faint buzz of the city below. The room is spotless, so clean that it seems like a hospital. The sheets are too silky and the bed is too comfy. It feels like I'm lying on a cloud, yet it doesn't help the pain in my chest at all. I roll over and think about what happened that day. Charles was cold, bossy, and distant. I couldn't really figure him out. All the money, the power, and the mansion are too much for me. He treated me like an object, like a deal, like I was nothing more. I get out of bed and sit up in the dark room, looking out the window at the city lights that are flickering. This is the first time I've ever been in a place like this. It feels like a cage made of gold, and the walls are closing in with every breath I breathe. I stand up and walk around the room. I guess I need to leave. But where would I go? If this man doesn't take me in, who else would? I say to myself, "Damn it," and run my finger
As soon as I get out of the car, the chilly night air strikes my skin and goes deep into my chest. The mansion in front of me appears like a fortress. It's tall, menacing, and obviously extremely nice. This isn't the kind of place I'm used to being. The polished glass windows reflect the streetlights, which cast long, black shapes on the front yard. As soon as I get to the property, I can see that things are different. I take a deep breath. I keep my hands at my sides even if they're sweaty. I don't want to ask for mercy. I'm here to live. There he is, at the front door. Charles Thorne. He seems like a statue at the doorway, and his tall body casts a menacing shadow. His blue eyes cut through the black light and stared at me like a predator might at its prey. His brown hair is perfectly combed and his black suit is spotless. He looks wonderful. He doesn't grin. He doesn't do anything. It looks like he's waiting for me to make the first move. As I walk, the gravel road crunches un
I sit on the side of the bed in this cheap motel room. The damaged lamp's wavering light makes long shadows on the peeling wallpaper. The air is thick with the stench of old cigarettes and remorse, and the weight of my own failure. My phone is next to me on the bed, and it buzzes every now and then with notifications that I don't want to see. The screen, which used to be full of messages from family and friends, now seems like a harsh reminder of everything I've lost. I can't help but notice my old friends and relatives going on with their life when I scroll through social media. My mom's face is smiling in pictures of family get-togethers, and my dad's tight hold around his new wife's waist. I can almost hear my dad's voice saying, "You're no longer welcome here," over and over in my brain. I shove my fingers into my temples to try to get rid of the memories. My body feels like a stone because of how hard the truth is that I'm facing. I never thought I would be sitting alone in a r