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37: What he wants
“Big sis,” Joy says at my door.
I look up from my phone.
“Daddy's calling you.”
“Why?”
She shrugs. “I don't know. He just said I should call you.”
“Is mommy there?”
“Yes.”
I wonder what he wants to talk to me about. “Okay, I'm coming.”
Joy leaves while I wear my kimono over my nightie and keep my phone on my table.
The sound of the TV is all I hear as I approach the living room and my heart begins to palpitate.
Since I told my dad about my results, he's only spoken to me on general terms: either sent me on errands, asked me where certain things are and the likes of these. No word has been said about my bad result or his threat to take away my sewing machine, so I start to think this is the reason he calls for me.
Joy enters the living room, sits on the armchair as I stand at the archway.
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