Mag-log inNik. My eyes roved lazily at the woman who was dressing up in front of me in appreciation. It is still a wonder to me how almost 18 months married and the attraction was almost instant. Especially seeing her perform mundane tasks and after birthing our babies. “I am not coming back into that bed with you, so you better forget about it.” Elaine rolled up her skin coloured fleece tights up her thighs and my eyes were fixated on the motion. I folded my hand under my head so I could watch her better. “How are you preparing for the re-opening?” Her face creased in frown and I chuckled, “it’s not easy to run a business" she sounded so exasperated that it was cute. “Tell me about it.” Running one restaurant was driving her crazy. I had tons of establishments across two major industries. Her eyes lit up in excitement, something that happened whenever she was emotional about what it was that she wanted to say. “Do you know how insane it is managing workers? Do you know how difficult it
Ahhhhhh” I yelled and dropped the burger in my hand unceremoniously on the table. Nik looked at me on high alert. “You little mongrel” I yelled at the cheeky boy in my arms. “He bit me!” I pulled out my nipple and yanked up my blouse. I dropped the now crying toddler on the floor. “If you’re old enough to bite, you’re old enough to stop breastfeeding” I yelled at the cheeky monster who only flashed me a toothless grin. Maybe not fully toothless. Nik chuckled at our interaction and I dropped Daniel on his feet. He scrunched up his face and I rolled my eyes, expecting the tears but not caring about it. I picked up my burger and Daniel turned his huge brown eyes on me which I ignored again. This is the end of breastfeeding. At 14 months, the twins had started taking baby food, and cereal but I was still breastfeeding. Daniel went towards his father who lifted him and put him on his leg and ruffled his hair. I couldn’t help the smile that stretched my lips. The twins truly looked
I made a mistake, Serena” I was grateful for the sauna we were in because the heat could explain why my eyes were misty.Serena was beside me the next minute and I lay my head on her shoulder, instantly grateful for the ability to be able to be vulnerable here. Just like that I was telling her all that happened at dinner that night and my confession. “Oh my love.” She ran her hand through my damp curls and I was grateful she couldn’t see my face. I wonder if she knew about the contract and how falling in love with Nik wasn’t part of it. “You shouldn’t be sorry that you fell in love with him” I got up angrily at this point and paced the tiny hot room. “But I shouldn’t have!” I flung my hand in the air, “I had kept it for so long, I opened my big mouth and ruined everything!” Serena got up in her bikini and came to my side, “Love isn’t something you should feel but be unable to profess” her words were so true that I sank into the curved wooden slab. I was so grateful that we were
NIK She was crying. I had sworn over and over never to make her cry, but she was lying right beside me and trying to hide her tears from me and I feel like shit. I don’t even know why I froze when she made her proclamation earlier. It startled me yes, but maybe I could have handled it better than I did. I fisted the sheets hard, trying hard to resist the urge of reaching to her and pulling her back into my arms. I hate seeing her hurt, I hate it even more when I’m a the one hurting her like right now. I lay there for what feels like an eternity until her shoulders stopped shaking and she started sniffing, indicating that the tears were ending before I finally released the sheets. My conclusion was reached far too quick because she just started another bunch of tears. ******* I needed to punch something, someone or myself. It also didn’t help that I was working on 3 hours of sleep. I read the document in front of me, focusing solely on the black ink but my mind was r
ELAINE. He was avoiding me again. It was clear as day. There was this established pattern of him going on trips, staying off longer at work, coming home late, all just to avoid conversations. It was his usual pattern that I wasn’t even surprised that he had come home late tonight. “Are you going to go on a long trip that’s going to last weeks just to avoid this?” I added, my hand found its way to my chest, rubbing at it, as if it would make the knot in there dissolve and go away. We had children now. Kids that cry every time they wanted their dada that, it wasn’t just me he was ignoring or avoiding anymore. He sighed loudly and turned on his side to face me, so that I could see the brown of his eyes. “Can we just go to sleep, I’ve had a long day.” I could tell that he was telling the truth about that, but it didn’t matter. “I wish. But the reason your children are in bed with us right now, is because your daughter was crying for you all night, and this was the only way
Nik. I watched as she fed my son, and I started to wonder how that tasted. “What?” She asked, squinting her eyes and I shrugged not looking away. “It tastes just like what I ate for the day most times. Sometimes sweet, or even salty.” I chuckled in amazement, “how do you know what I was thinking.” She only rolled her eyes, “ hello, I know you a little better each day.”The way the words rolled off her tongue just made me adjust in my chair, watching her breastfeed didn’t turn me on, but this turned me almost immediately. I didn’t expect what she did next. But she got up and put Daniel down in the cot beside our bedI watched from my position on the bed as she called the housekeeper who came and took the baby to play with them and when they were finally gone she smirked at me. Fuck this can’t be what I think it is. It’s been 6 months post partum now, and for most people maybe it was too long but for us, I wanted to only try again with sex when I was sure that she was ready. I
I watched the girls get ready in the dorm room and my heart knocked over and over in my chest ribcage. It wasn't like I was doing anything majorly wrong but I still felt anxious about it. After all, I'm an adult and I don't need to report or ask for permission from him, before I go about my day
Nik. The meeting I had in Shanghai had finished late last night, and Serena wasn't feeling so well, so Alex had made us hurry back home last night. I thought of telling Elaine I was coming but decided against it last minute. Choosing instead to wait till I got home. My choice was proved right wh
Crocodile baby” I muttered under my breath as I popped open a mint and shoved it into my mouth. “Are you talking to me ma’am?” The new female body guard asked from behind the wheels. “Nothing. I'm just talking to myself.” She smiled. A warm one that reached her eyes and made it crinkle and it ju
Nik. I stood under the shower as torrents of water poured down on my back and chest. Fuck. I shouldn't have done that. I had sworn to myself that I had better self control when it came to her. But I also really needed this. Not really sure how much pent up energy and sexual frustration I let ou







