Mag-log inSANDRA’S POV
The morning air is cooler than I expect. It hits my skin the second I step outside the hotel, sharp enough to wake me properly this time, not like the slow, blurry waking inside that room.
This is real, Cars move past me. People walk by carrying coffee cups and talking about normal things while my entire life feels like it cracked open overnight.
I pull my jacket tighter around me and walk. No destination at first, just movement, just distance.
Distance from Austin. From Pamela. From the hotel room. From him.
My phone buzzes in my hand. I don’t look at it. I already know who it is. Austin. Again. I stop at the side of the road, exhaling slowly, my fingers tightening slightly around the phone before I finally glance down.
Austin Calling……I decline it immediately. The screen lights up again. This time a message. *Babe, where are you? Let’s met.*
Another message comes in before I can even lock the screen. * Stop ignoring me. We need to talk.*
Something cold settles deeper in my chest while I type back quickly.*We’re done. Don’t call me again.* I hit send.
Then block him before he can respond. The silence after feels……strange. Not better just different.
My phone buzzes again. Pamela. I don’t even open it. Blocked, simple.
I exhale slowly, but the pressure sitting inside my chest still doesn’t fully ease. Like something is lodged there refusing to move no matter how many times I breathe.
My phone rings again. Different name.
Lena. Of course. I stare at it. I answer on the third call, pressing the phone to my ear without slowing my steps. “I’m fine,” I say immediately.
There’s a pause on the other end. Then, “Sandra…… come on.” Her voice is calm, but firm.
“I said I’m fine,” I repeat, sharper this time. “Sandra…….” I hang up. I don’t have the energy for this. Not right now. Not when everything inside me still feels wrong.
I slide my phone back into my bag and keep walking, faster now, like if I stop I’ll start thinking again, and if I start thinking, I’ll remember too much.
Austin. Pamela.
The bed. The hotel. Him.
My steps slow slightly, damn it. That was a mistake. One reckless night. That’s all. It didn’t mean anything. It cannot mean anything.
I force myself to focus on something else. Classes start again tomorrow. The thought lands harder than expected.
Suddenly my mind floods with unfinished projects, deadlines, sketch drafts spread across my apartment floor, internship applications sitting incomplete in my email.
That’s my life. That’s what I worked for before all this chaos started swallowing everything else.
Not men, betrayal. Not heartbreak. I stop walking slowly. What the hell am I doing? Walking around Los Angeles like my entire future disappeared because of one relationship?
Absolutely not. I’ve worked too damn hard for that. Late nights bent over drafts. Coffee-fueled breakdowns before presentations. Dad quietly checking on me at two in the morning while pretending he wasn’t worried. “You don’t have to prove yourself all the time,” he always says.
But I always do. And I’m not throwing my life away over Austin fucking Clayton.
My phone buzzes again. I ignore it. Instead, I pull up the unfinished internship application sitting in my drafts.
My thumb hovers for a second. Then I open it. Right there. On the sidewalk, cars passing, people moving. Life continuing.
Good. Let it. Because I’m still here too. I start filling it in. Name. Details. Portfolio. My fingers still shake slightly, but this time I don’t stop.
I finish it. And when I finally hit submit, something inside me steadies just a little.
I let out a slow breath. “Okay,” I whisper quietly to myself. This matters. This is mine. I tuck my phone away and finally turn toward home.
I’ll deal with everything else later. But at least now I’m moving again instead of drowning.
*********
Two days later, I stand outside Austin’s house beside my father while he talks about investment projections like this is any normal afternoon.
I honestly don’t know why I agreed to come. Closure maybe. Or maybe part of me just needed proof that I’m really done with him.
The front door is unlocked. Dad steps inside first while I follow behind him slowly.
Voices drift from the living room. Male voices. One familiar. One……My stomach drops instantly.
No way. Austin turns first the second we enter. Relief flashes across his face immediately. “Dad……This is Sandra," he says easily, slipping an arm around my waist possessively. "My girlfriend."
I stiffen. Girlfriend. I am NOT his girlfriend. But before I open my mouth to correct him.
Then I see him. Kelvin.
Everything inside me stops. For one horrifying second nobody moves. Nobody breathes. My pulse slams hard against my ribs while shock crashes through me so violently I almost take a step backward.
This cannot be happening. Kelvin looks exactly the same as he did in that hotel room. Calm. Perfectly put together.
But I catch it anyway. That tiny shift in his expression when he sees me standing beside Austin.
Recognition. Shock. Something darker right underneath it. Then it disappears instantly behind cold professionalism.
Austin’s arm tightens lightly around my waist while completely oblivious to the fact that the room suddenly feels like it’s collapsing around me.
Dad smiles easily. “Sandra, this is Kelvin Clayton.” Kelvin. Clayton. My blood runs cold. Austin’s father.
Oh my God. The room suddenly feels too warm. Too small. I can barely hear anything over the sound of my heartbeat pounding in my ears.
Kelvin steps forward first because apparently one of us has to function like a normal human being right now. “Sandra,” he says smoothly, his voice completely controlled. “It’s a pleasure to meet you.”
Liar. I stare at the hand he extends toward me. This feels insane. Like some sick joke the universe decided to play specifically on me.
But Dad is watching. Austin is watching. So I force myself to move. The second our hands touch, heat rushes sharply up my arm.
Exactly like the hotel room. Exactly like his hands against my skin two nights ago. I yank my hand back almost immediately. “Nice to meet you too, Mr. Clayton,” I manage somehow.
My voice sounds steady. Miraculously steady considering internally I’m seconds away from losing my damn mind.
Kelvin’s eyes stay on mine a second too long. And suddenly the memory of his mouth against mine hits me so hard I almost feel physically sick.
He remembers too. I can see it. Every second of it. He turns calmly back toward my father like he didn’t spend the night inside me less than forty-eight hours ago. “Shall we continue our discussion, Joseph?”
Dad nods immediately, completely unaware. Austin still stands close beside me while my entire body feels locked in panic.
I can’t breathe properly. Can’t think properly. This can’t be real. I glance toward Kelvin again accidentally. Big mistake. Because he’s already looking at me, not enough for anybody else to notice and somehow that’s worse.
Because beneath all that calm control, I can see it now. He’s just as shaken as I am. The realization should make me feel better. Instead it terrifies me even more. And I realize with slowly dawning horror: This is only the beginning.
KELVIN’S POVThe city looks calm from up here. Glass buildings, steady traffic, everything moving the way it’s supposed to, cars sliding through intersections, people crossing streets like nothing ever breaks, like everything always fits into place if you follow the lines.I should feel the same. I don’t. I stand near the window, one hand in my pocket, my gaze fixed on the streets below like that’s enough to settle what’s already shifting inside me, like distance will make it smaller, easier, manageable.It isn’t. I’ve handled worse than this. Bigger deals, bigger risks, situations that could’ve cost me millions if I got them wrong, decisions that affected entire companies, entire lives, and I didn’t hesitate, didn’t second guess, didn’t lose control.But this shouldn’t even be a problem. It should be simple. The door opens behind me. I don’t turn immediately. I don’t need to. I already know it’s her.The air changes. Subtle, but there, like something shifts without sound, like the ro
SANDRA’S POV The sunlight floods the dining room, spilling across the table and marble floor like everything is normal but the weight in my chest refuses to move.Breakfast sits untouched in front of me, toast, eggs, coffee already growing cold. Across from me, Dad flips through a stack of documents, calm and focused, reading contracts like this is just another ordinary morning.“Eat,” he says without looking up. “I’m not hungry.”“You didn’t eat last night either.” I shrug slightly, keeping my eyes on the table. “I’m fine.”He pauses, that alone is enough to make me look up because my dad rarely pauses over anything. Work always keeps moving with him, now he’s really watching me. “You don’t look fine.”Silence stretches between us, the ticking clock in the kitchen suddenly feels louder than before. I force a small smile, the kind that doesn’t reach anywhere real. “Just tired.”His eyes stay on me longer this time, he knows something is off but he doesn’t push. He never does ever si
SANDRA’S POVThe morning air is cooler than I expect. It hits my skin the second I step outside the hotel, sharp enough to wake me properly this time, not like the slow, blurry waking inside that room.This is real, Cars move past me. People walk by carrying coffee cups and talking about normal things while my entire life feels like it cracked open overnight.I pull my jacket tighter around me and walk. No destination at first, just movement, just distance.Distance from Austin. From Pamela. From the hotel room. From him.My phone buzzes in my hand. I don’t look at it. I already know who it is. Austin. Again. I stop at the side of the road, exhaling slowly, my fingers tightening slightly around the phone before I finally glance down.Austin Calling……I decline it immediately. The screen lights up again. This time a message. *Babe, where are you? Let’s met.*Another message comes in before I can even lock the screen. * Stop ignoring me. We need to talk.*Something cold settles deeper in
KELVIN’S POV I shouldn’t be here. I should be home dealing with Austin instead of hiding in a hotel room with expensive whiskey and thoughts I’ve been avoiding for months now.But instead, here I am. The Sterling. Room 206. A place where nobody knows me, where I can sit in silence for one night and pretend I’m not Kelvin Clayton for a few hours.Not the billionaire everybody expects things from. Not the father constantly hearing rumors about his son and pretending none of it bothers him.Not the man whose wife’s been dead for fifteen years and he still can’t move on, still wakes up some nights expecting her beside him, still carries something heavy that never really leaves. Just…… a man sitting alone in a quiet room trying not to think too much. I pour another drink, watching the amber liquid settle while ice clinks softly against the glass.Everything in my life usually stays controlled. Tonight doesn’t feel controlled at all. Then I hear the door open.My head lifts immediately, c
SANDRA’S POVI book a room at the front desk without really thinking about it, my fingers tightening around my credit card while the concierge types something into the computer.“Room 206, Miss Nicholson. Enjoy your stay.” I take the key card and head straight toward the bar before I can think too hard about anything else.The hotel bar is quiet, dim lights reflecting softly against dark glass walls while low jazz hums through the speakers. A few people sit scattered around the room, businessmen in suits pretending they’re not exhausted.I slide onto a stool and stare at the bottles lined behind the counter. “What can I get you?” the bartender asks. “Something strong,” I say, my voice flat. “Actually…..make it a double.”He nods and pours. I drink it fast. Too fast. The burn helps. Not enough, but it helps. Another. Then another. The edges start to blur. Not enough to lose control. Just enough to take the edge off.I don’t know how long I sit there, long enough that the bartender sta
SANDRA’S POVThe door slams behind me harder than I expect, the sound echoing down the hallway like a gunshot.I keep walking fast anyway. If I stop, even for a second, I know I’ll lose it completely.My legs feel weird beneath me, stiff and heavy at the same time, like my body is moving without waiting for my brain to catch up. My ears are still ringing from everything that happened upstairs.Pamela. Austin. The bed. I press the elevator button harder than necessary, breathing unevenly as silence closes around me. The hallway suddenly feels too small, too quiet, like the walls are moving closer every second I stand there.The elevator doors slide open. I step inside quickly and the second they close, I’m alone with my reflection.I look awful. My mascara’s smudged beneath my eyes, my lips trembling slightly no matter how hard I press them together. I stare at myself in the mirror and barely recognize the girl staring back at me.A few hours ago, I was happy. That memory hits hard eno







