Chapter 4: Cold Treatment

Asheryl POV

It's been half of a month since Sylvester got discharged, and during this month is like a hell because Loreane keeps coming here and I saw how Sylvester smiled at her presence.

I tried to talk to him but he completely ignored me everytime I approach him. I always just watched him from a distance while he was happy with her. It makes me feel that I'm just a nobody for him now.

When he fall asleep I went to his room to watched him sleeping and there are times that he say something when he slept but I can't hear it clearly all I can hear is the word I Love you but I don't know who's the person he love, after all he can't remember me. 

Next day....

I woke up and prepare our breakfast and change my clothes. After a minute I heard footsteps so I guess he's awake. I turn around and greet him.

"Good morning" I greet him with a amile

He's just nodded and sit to the chair.

And again he just ignored me like I never existed so I sat to the chair opposite to him and start eating, the whole breakfast is so quite but I didn't dare to utter any words.

 Until we finished our foods I didn't hear him talk he just finished his food and left the dinning room and he left me hanging.

I sigh.......

 I finished my food and clean the table and let the Maid wash the dishes and I go to pool to get some Air.

I sat in the edge of the pool and put my feet into the water. 

I want to approach him but I'm afraid of what will come out on his mouth. I'm afraid that he's going to say that I need to leave him. 

I stayed in the pool for a while to refresh my mind. I really don't know what to do. 

I opened my eyes when someone touch my face, I slept here while thinking what to do goshhh. I slowly open my eyes, It's him, I was shock.

"Ohhh, I don't Know I slept here" it's the only words that came out in my mouth

He looked away and stand near the deep part of the pool he didn't say anything. I also stand up and get inside the house without saying anything. I went to my room to change clothes.

I sat in my bed and feel asleep.

"No, Sylvester please don't leave me." I said while crying

"Asheryl, I've had enough of you I gave you enough time to help me to remember but what happened I still can't remember you and I want you to leave Now!" He shout at me

"No, please I beg you don't leave me I only have you" I said while pleading him not to leave me

" I said Leave" he shout again

" Nooooooo" I shout

I suddenly open my eyes. It was just a dream, I sigh in relief. I go to the mirror and look at myself I saw some tears in my eyes and I guess I'm crying because of my dream.

I sigh....

I sit again to my bed.

I ignored his cold treatment but still my heart can't ignored it, it hurts. I don't know what to do to make him remember me.

Is this really a love or obsession? Is he really able to remember me? Or I was just the one who's hoping that he will remember me in just 1 month?

My tears flow's down from my eyes thinking about him. I wish I can change what happened but I can't turn back time anymore. 

I can't help not to remember our happy moments together. Where I can still go near him, I can still hold his hands, I can still kiss him, I can still spend the night and days with him, where I can still hear him say I LOVE YOU. But in our current situation I don't think we can still do those things.

I went out to my room and go to the kitchen to get some water. I saw him sitting in the couch while reading some books he didn't even bother to look at me. I get some water in the fridge and I also get some foods. Then I go back to my room.

After eating, I took a hot bath and then Change my clothes. I left some of my books here so I got some books and read it. 

I feel dizzy so I sleep first.

When I woke up, it's already dinner time. I went out to my room and head to the kitchen. I saw the maids cooking and preparing for our dinner, I walk towards them.

"Linda, Anna can you bring my dinner to my room? Bring me some bread and milk too" I said to them

"Yes, young Lady" they both said

I went back to my room. I saw Sylvester entering the kitchen so I step aside and continue to walk I'm not even bother to look at him.

"Aren't you going to eat dinner with me?" He suddenly ask me I was shock when he talk to me so I stop but I didn't face him, I don't have courage to face him for now

"I let the maids to take my dinner to my room. Enjoy your dinner!" That's all I say and continue to walk 

"Wait" he talk again and I stop again. And again I didn't face him I don't know why but I'm really not in my mode today.

"What? Talk now so that I can go back to my room" I said to him like I'm bored

"Why are you acting like that?" He ask

I smile devilishly and face him

"You, why are you acting like that too? Am I not allowed to act this way? I'm hurt Sylvester, I am hurt. You have amnesia that's why you can't remember me and the cold treatment you did to me is not a thing that I can ignored" I replied back to him

He just stared at me and I stared at him straight to his eyes with blank expression

"I'm sorry" he said

"Don't say sorry, it makes me feel guilty. It's no one's fault, it's already happened so I just wish you'll be able to remember me " I said and turn away and continue to walk.

He suddenly grab my hand. I face him again with blank expression.

"Let go of me Sylvester, I'm tired" I said to him. I said I'M TIRED with double meaning.

Soon, I will leave him and that's for the better.

"Your going to eat dinner with wether you like it or not" he said looking at my eyes. Why is he acting like this in all of a sudden. He's already enjoy the presence of Loreane so why bother me?

"Go eat with yourself" I said and I get his hands off of me. He resist but I tired to get his hands off. 

He stared at me but I don't care

"Linda, Anna bring my dinner in my room in 5 minutes" I said to them

"Yes, Young Lady" they both said

I went back to my room and left him hanging.

I sat to my bed and thinking something. I don't want to finish this 1 month I need to leave him. I don't want to be like this anymore, I don't want to chase him anymore, 

I'll let him remember alone, did he really can remember me? Did he really want to remember me? Well, it's not my problem anymore I've had enough with him. Even, if it's breaking my heart

I sigh

I tried my very best for him to remember me but I failed. How can I help him to remember me when he always spend time with Loreane and now he suddenly act like that. It's hurting me whenever Loreane is around him and I felt jealous because she can make him smile, she can see the smile that I can no longer see, she can hold his hands and she can spend time with him. While me, I'm here waiting for him to remember me and him don't care about me like I've never existed.

I feel my tears running down again, I thought I could ignored this but I really can't. 

Why did this thing happened? Did I do something Terrible that I was punished by this? Tears flows to my cheeks and I sobbed. 

I get up and  get the blue box and put my ring and bracelet there. He gave me that ring when he proposed to me years ago and he gave me that bracelet when we went to his favorite place the day before the accident happened.

I put all of our memories together in this box, our pictures together and etc. I also place in this box all of the stuff the gave to me. It's time to give it back to him.

I put the box back to it's place and I lay down in my bed.

Later, I heard some knocked on my door I guess it's my dinner.

I Open the door and I was shock.

"What are you doing here? Why did you not let Linda and Anna to bring my dinner here" I ask calmly with no expression

"I want to bring it you" he said

"I lost my appetite so bring it back" I said while closing the door but he block it

"You need to eat, you didn't eat lunch earlier so eat it" he said 

What's wrong with him? He is so strange lately, He's acting like this again It's weird. If the person didn't remember you did they act like this? Well, I'm happy that he did this but the pain covered my heart for now.

"You don't care so please take it back" I said

"Eat it weather you like it or not" he said and then he get inside my room.

What the.........

"I said I'm not going to eat so take it back and get out of my room now!!" I shout in anger

He didn't listen to me. He grab my hand and make me sit in his lap. What is he doing? Is he crazy?

I tried to let go but he hold me so tight. He starting feeding me with the food. Ahh, I hate it he's being sweet all of the sudden. 

This is why I couldn't let him go cause when I decided to let go he's being so sweet and caring. I hate him being like that.

I eat the food he feed and I felt like crying. I felt pain inside my chest. This past months he's so cold to me he didn't even talk to me and now he's acting this way he's being so sweet.

He feed me until I finished the food. He wipe my lips with his hands and hug me.

I was shock again

"I'm sorry of being cold to you this past months. I was just thinking about something and you know that I can't still remember you" he said with a low voice

'Im out of words so I didn't talk back

"I know your angry and I'm sorry" he said and kiss my forehead

"it's ok" I finally talk to him

He stared at me. Second later, his lips met my lips. He kissed me and I kissed him back. I miss his lips, I miss his kiss.

We kissed passionately until we're out of breath but he didn't stop. He kissed me deeper and deeper. 

He lay me down in my bed and look at my eyes

"I want you Asheryl" he said with a sweet voice

"I want you too" I reply

He kissed me again, deeper and deeper.

And then that night I offer myself to the man I love. Even If he can't remember me, I still love him, even if it's hurt a lot. I don't know what will happen next after this but I wanna enjoy this moment as I don't know If I had a chance to be with him again.