"They're hot, huh?" she whispered into my ear. The way the heat hit my skin and the words blew a cool breeze across my neck sent a shiver down my spine. My senses were heightened, and my body was raw in the most intimate way. Roller derby caused my insides to purr the way my Camaro did-and I was in love. My eyes followed the Jammer in black, I think Roxie said her name was Aerial, but it didn't matter-all I knew was little girls needed to aspire to this, not boys with bank accounts. The night with the derby girls was over sooner than I had wanted it to be. I felt like I'd been inducted into a secret society, and I never wanted to leave. Roxie assured me I could find videos of previous bouts, things fans had put together, if I wanted to keep up with them, and offered to bring me back anytime I wanted to come. I eagerly told her to get me a schedule so we could make plans. I had to have more. My body was hyped up on adrenaline, amped, ready to go. Roxie seemed just as ignited, b
Nervously, I swallowed the fear down and curled up at her side. She wrapped her arm around me and slid down, so we were face to face. I couldn't recall a time I'd ever been this close to a woman, and I could feel my heart pounding, but the excitement that normally filled me and overrode my anxiety when I was body deep with a man wasn't there. Staring into her eyes, I witnessed her admiration. I'd observed that same gaze time after time just before hooking up with a guy. And when she leaned in, she hesitated for a fraction of a second, and I closed my eyes. Her lips met mine, they were soft and supple. Without sight, the kiss was no different than hundreds of others I'd experienced in my adult life. She gently turned and gradually opened her mouth. I followed her lead, and our tongues met in a gentle exchange. With each swipe, my mind drifted further from the reality that I was French kissing a woman and focused on the sensation alone. My hands drifted from the safety of her jean-cla
Even though I'd managed to salvage a friendship with Roxie, I hadn't been able to get the sight of her Little Debbie out of my mind. The whole way home, I kept having labia flashbacks. I had a new respect for anyone who loved to taste test the fish in tuna town. I'd never studied my tunnel of love, but by the time I pulled into the garage, I was on a mission.My feet beelined for the bedroom, where I quickly divested myself of my clothing and hauled ass into the bathroom. I climbed onto the vanity, between the two sinks, and brought my feet up onto the counter. There wasn't a lot of space with my crap in the way, so one foot pushed stuff to the left, and the other foot moved junk to the right, leaving me spread eagle on the granite. All I had to do was lift my line of sight, and Pandora's box would be wide open. I counted down in my head from three, determined to look on one, but failed. I tried to psych myself into it, pump myself up, generate excitement about having knowledge of my
One of the guys I'd met the day before, whose name I couldn't remember, greeted us at the door. "Hey, Giselle." He smiled warmly at me before noticing the two bombshells behind me. "Who are your friends?""Veronica and Trish." Before he could remind me of his name, or I had to admit I couldn't remember it, Beck came bounding into the foyer in nothing other than a skimpy, string bikini. She would have done just as well to wear pasties and a pad, it would have provided more coverage."Giselle! You brought friends." Beck was a ray of sunshine today. I could only assume it meant things were going well with Stella. She stopped just in front of the guy, but close enough to lean in for a friendly side kiss on the cheek.With the introductions completed-thankfully Beck introduced Mark-we made our way out back. There was music playing through the speakers, the outdoor kitchen had a chef working in front of it, and people mingled around the edge with drinks. I felt sorry for the hired h
His need to protect me from the ball grew tiresome. Even his friends told him to give it a rest. But when his role-playing as big brother continued, Parker dragged me under the net to join his team. Just before I'd switched sides, a massive hand wrapped around my ankle, tugging backward, and my body became a rope in a game of tug-o-war. What neither side seemed to realize was in the midst of their back and forth, I wasn't getting air, and water filled my mouth faster than I could get rid of it. My feet and arms flailed in an effort to escape, and when my foot made contact with something hard, Collier's hold on my leg released. I jerked out of Parker's hands and coughed my way over to the side of the pool. I hoisted myself out and sat by the side, trying to catch a full breath, but I was pissed. This whole thing had been a bad idea, and I should have stayed home. I ignored the guys in the pool and told them I was fine before stomping over to my friends and plopping down in the cha
None of them had been better than either of my previous dates. Arielle-pronounced Airy-Elle, not Ariel, which she had to remind me no less than fifteen times in twelve minutes-didn't make it past coffee. We'd met at a locally owned café after work on Wednesday. My day had been boring, but I would have welcomed the monotony back in a heartbeat to escape that girl's crazy. Within minutes, she had pulled two little pink, bear-shaped pills from her pocket and offered me a good time. I wasn't stupid enough to try ecstasy in my twenties, I sure as hell wasn't doing it in my late-thirties-I didn't care how desperate I was or how "great it made the sex." Airy-Elle wouldn't be making the friend zone, she was lucky I didn't have her committed. But no matter how hard I tried to close down the conversation, end the date, she wasn't having it. I managed to escape to the bathroom but couldn't bring myself to listen to Ronnie's "I told you so" if I called her to rescue me. Instead, I opted to push
The next day when I showed up at Beck's, I pulled in behind Collier's Porsche. He answered the door in nothing but a pair of shorts hung low on his hips. "What are you doing here?" he asked."I'm meeting Beck here at two." I glanced at my watch, realizing I was a couple minutes early."She's not here yet. Come on in. I was just watching TV.""Why do you park in the driveway?" My mind hopped from rabbit trail to rabbit trail if it wasn't occupied.He shrugged. "It's easier to get to there.""Aren't you worried about it getting damaged by the weather? Someone stealing it? Egging it?" I gave him an evil grin at that last suggestion."It's just a car, but if I find egg shells, I'll know who to question.""That car costs more than most people's houses." I followed him inside."Meaning what?""That you should care more about what happens to it.""Why? It's not like I'm going to get rid of it if it gets scratched or has a ding."I couldn't figure out his angle. "So wh
My dating debacles seemed to bring all the women in my life together. Somehow, through no fault of my own, Veronica, Trish, Beck, Stella, and Roxie had all formed an alliance against my sexuality. One would think lesbians would welcome other women into their tribe, encourage them to explore the nether lips, embrace the love of estrogen-not my friends. The more time I spent with them, the closer we all became, which was great, except they'd united in a plight to return me to the heterosexual dating pool. I felt cheated, unwanted. I threatened to call the LGBTQ Human Alliance about their discrimination, to which they all found great humor. As the weeks went by, I quit discussing my dating gaffes with any of them. There was no point-they just made fun of me. It hadn't mattered who I'd gone out with-and at this point, there had been a plethora of female companions-I couldn't get past the first kiss. The instant the foreplay got to be too much, I totally flaked out. I couldn't get past t