Chapter 9

MASON'S POV

Thinking about what happened yesterday makes me want to stay in my room for the rest of the upcoming days. I was quite disappointed when she budged out of my hold.

"Ah, I need to go see Rebecca now!" She had said running towards the door. It is funny that a little part of me wanted to stop her from going and the other wanted to let her have some space. Sean is making me confused. Every moment I take in her image, I have this urge to kiss her lips and let my hands roam all over her body.

To think that I nearly slept with her. She was quick to push me away. She is lucky because if she didn't Sean would have claimed what is ours. Yes, what's ours.

I know I have been resisting the fact that we are mates. But what to do all because of this mate bond, it's becoming harder to resist her. Or the mate bond is just an excuse for what I desire. I don't know how I became like this but I know I really want her by my side. I can see that she doesn't even have a speck of trust for me. After all, I would do the same if I see her kissing and sleeping with other men. No, I would kill if that time ever comes. No one takes what's mine. I don't care even if I die protecting her. That's what I live for.

She is so fragile that at times I am worried that l will end up losing her. Charlotte, my mate.   

"Our mate!"

Sean interjected in the way growling as if preparing to fight me. I couldn't let myself fight him after all he is the reason why I awakened from my disillusion. I thought I never needed her in my life but the truth is she is my life. Even before we met she had already been mine. If not for him I wouldn't be able to kiss her and even tend to her when she is sick. I wouldn't feel this lively. If not for her I wouldn't feel these worries. The list goes on and on.

I feel disgusted by myself. The thought of holding those girls at night. Kissing them in front of Charlotte. Cursing at her and even ignoring her. Showing Evelyn to mom. All is now haunting me.

I feel scared to imagine what she will do when she realizes she is my mate. I don't have to say a werewolf. I hope she will take me as I am but what I know most is that she isn't going to make it easy.

My biggest fear is that she might leave my side. I hope she doesn't go no matter what. I used to think of her as a burden but nowadays I see myself as a burden to her. I keep stealing kisses to satisfy my desires. I keep dreaming of her in my arms. I wish to share my room with her. I want to show her to everyone. I want her to join the pack. To be in any case a member of Starrymoon pack. She is after all the Luna of this pack.

In the meantime, I am stuck in my room wondering what I am gonna say about my actions. Wondering if I can still look into her brown innocent eyes. Those that seem to drag me into the depth of all her emotions. Do I want to see what she is feeling right now? Maybe anger, detest and even sadness. I hate that I am the one that caused the whole turmoil. if only I had controlled myself.

Still, I make my way downstairs anxious about her presence.

"My baby come join us!" My mother calls indicating a seat beside Charlotte. She wasn't looking at anything as she pretended to be on her cell phone. I felt sad that she could get to this extent just to ignore me. I could hear my heart picking up as I neared the table. If she was a werewolf or close enough she would have heard it.

I take my sit just in time for breakfast. I reach for toast very eager to spread jam for her. I have gotten used to serving her food. Even if she is angry at me that doesn't stop me from doing so. I take my time spreading it all over the slice. After I was satisfied I pass it to her plate. She glances my way with that serious face she had put on when I had entered the room. I had known that she was ignoring me because when I was at the corner, I could hear her voice mingling with my mother but when she took heed of my presence she chose to be silent.

It is eating inside of me, the urge to claim her lips. To make her talk to me. To see her smile. How I love her smile. It lightens up my world. It is rare to see her smiling but it brings about something within me. Something I don't yet have knowledge to.

"My dear why are you suddenly quiet. Is there something which isn't to your taste?"

Charlotte shakes her head. I knew that my mother was trying to help.

"What did you do this time?" She asked through the mind link.

"Nothing mom it's just that yesterday I couldn't control myself and we .... almost ...."

" Almost what? Tell me."

"We almost did the deed. And she is angry at that," I replied watching her eat.

"You couldn't wait to give me grandchildren hah," she joked returning to her meal. This wasn't a joke. I can't continue letting this happen. I have to apologise but still how do I do that again. It is first time doing it. I once witnessed Steven asking for one from his mate. And at that time I thought it was silly games for children but now I understand. I understand how serious it is.

My mind began spinning for ideas. I start to recall all our moments together. Hunting from that memory she is most happiest. It is then when it hit me, the garden, the flowers, her excitement, her smile and the happiness in my heart. This is the answer to my search. I smile inwardly yelling at Sean as he played to my tune.

"Mason! Can I have a minute with you." I turned to see Marcy and beside her is her mate.

"Sure," I replied making my way to them. I could see that her mate gave a so not good attitude torwards her. That I so remember well. That which is costing me a lot.

"Hey."

"Mason I am coming from the pack grounds, I heard there are rogues attacking at the boarder."

"What?" I realised I had shouted and Charlotte is scared because of this.

"Sorry let's take it somewhere else." I said leading them outside.

"So how did this happen. Where were the pack warriors and Steven where is he right now?"

I could see her shaking. I felt sorry. My emotions are a poison to everyone. I hope my mate isn't seeing this side of me.

"Sorry sis I will take it from here." I shouted at a distance as I head torwards the boarder. I let my wolf free as we stride torwards where the fight is taking place.

"Kill every single soul!" I ordered through the mindlink. Just after this a fierce fight broke out. I could see my warriors tearing through the rogues' filthy necks. Their blood splattering on the ground. I could see lifeless wolf bodies on the ground. Some part in me felt sad for their mates who were waiting for their return but I have to protect my pack and definitely my mate and family. Right at this point a rogue sneaked behind my back. He launched his body at me. I could see that he was strong and by the look of his physique. I stayed still looking forward to what he was about to do.

When he was about to bring his teeth near my body, I jabbed him on his stomach and sent him flying and falling with a thud at a distance. He growled as if preparing to fight back. I was concentrated on him that I didn't notice one of his warrior grabbing my leg and biting in. When I turned to fight, the leader took the chance to pin me again. When is he going to get tired of this silly act. Didn't he see he had done it not long after sending him flying where he was laying a second ago.

"Mason where are you?" I hear my mother ask through mind link. I began to feel this feeling inside me that had to do with Charlotte. It is strong.

"Here at the boarder mom I am busy fighting. Is Charlotte okay?"

"She is crying with pain right now. So I thought you were hooking up with another girl again like last time"

That hit me like a lightning bolt. She had been affected. That day when I slept with Evelyn. I couldn't believe what I had done. If she knows of this will Charlotte forgive me.

"No mom I am telling the truth, right now I am pinned by a rogue leader. How come she is feeling this way mom. I am worried I will be there in an instant."

I cut off the mind link. I could feel power flowing in my veins and my vision blaring. I bite his neck and his blood tasted so horrible. He fell on the ground like the others. I looked around to check if any of my pack members had been lost. And to my relief all were standing.

Charlotte discomfort hit me. I start to run torwards the pack house.

"Steve finish up here," I ordered him as I ran on my paws. I increased speed too eager to get to her side. Not putting in thought one of my injured leg. I couldn't feel the pain as worry for her drowned every trace of it. I reached the house, seeing my mother walking back and forth.

"Mom!" I shouted.

"Mason come come."

The look on her face scared me. What was waiting for me through these doors. When we entered her room, I felt my heart beating with full speed. There she was, lying her hand clutching her stomach. I saw tears flowing on her two cheeks.

"I am going out for a moment," Mom announced. I made my way to her bed. I slid my hand in hers and wiped her tears. She had her eyes opened and when her brown eyes met mine, she smiled that smile.

"Are you feeling better," I asked her. She nodded looking at my hand holding hers. I wondered what had happened.

"Thanks for coming," she says trying very hard to bring out her words.

"You do not need to thank me after all its my duty to protect you always.What happened?"

"I don't know, it just happened ten minutes after you went out. I had it in town but this time it hurt more. It was as if my stomach was opening up."

"Don't worry it's going to be fine."

"By the way why do you reek of blood and you have some on your right foot." I looked downwards to see I had blood for sure. It had happened when that rogue had bitten it and luckily I had healed. It comes in handy being a werewolf. I had forgotten she needed my answer. I can't disappoint her again after all she is talking with me once again.

"I injured my foot when coming here. I think I stepped on something maybe a thorn on my way here." I am quite guilty that I am lying in her face.

"Are you sure weren't you fighting it's okay you can tell me." I pretty much panicked but got too amused when she offered to hear my story.

"Tell you what my little one."

"That.... you ... somewhat a soldier did I guess right."

"Humh.."

I started laughing, I didn't intend to but that made me laugh.

"Stop laughing it's embarrassing." She yelled making a sad baby face. How I love this woman. What? I love her?

So that's what I have been feeling all along.

"Mr don't want a mate now love one how funny."

Sean smirked.

"What's wrong you were so in thought?"

"Nothing much just thinking of you my little one."

"Me? You're crazy."

"Don't mind to be if it's all for you."

Yes if it's all for you after all I love you. My little one. My one and only mate.