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"Love does not exist. It's fake. A stupid sense of hope that you might actually find someone out there. But it's a lie. No one loves, they just convince their selves that they feel something. It's all in your mind." I said with a roll of my eyes and tried to ignore the still racing of my heart. As long as I could get this guy off of my back I was fine.

"You don't believe that." Clayton growled.

"So? But love is a horrible thief; it robs us of our senses. Leaves us... broken." I said slipping into a deep thought but I blinked out of it. I glanced back at the werewolf.

He locked eyes with me his flooded with what looked like pain and said in a straining voice, "I love you. I love you so much... why can't you see that?"

Awkwardness and annoyance ran through me and I rolled my eyes, "Look I'll give you an example about how sick love is. Romeo and Juliet. A lot of people love it, but they both die and its because of love. Love killed the two. Love tears apart homes and families, leaves people heartbroken, keeps us up at night, and then when a loved one is taken by death or another... nothing but pain stays; a living Hell. Love does nothing but take from the ones unfortunate enough to fall."

I spat out the last sentence and the alpha looked at me with sad eyes.

"I'll never stop loving you." Clayton growled and I groaned.

"Were you not listening? It's all in your head." I said and he shook his head furiously.

"No. I know what I feel. Stop doubting me. I, Clayton Ravenwolf, am hopelessly in love with you. I've waited years for you and I will wait it all again if I have to." He said and I scoffed.

"I don't feel anything for you though; why waste your time?" I said and he glared at me.

"I know you feel something and so do you, so don't stand there and lie saying you feel nothing towards me." Clayton growled and I turned from him. This conversation was going nowhere.

"Goddess I'm so in love with you... I guess this is what I get for being the 'Blood Wolf.'" He said the title in bitter words. For some reason that irked me. The name made me wrinkle my nose in disgust. Yet part of me felt like comforting him?

"You bought me. I was a wolf and you bought me. Named me Alpha which was kinda ironic because I am one. You took me home. I turned one night and fought Dalton because he'd kissed you. I was an asshole but you loved me and I loved you... I still do. You let my sister turn you into a wolf. We got married. We had Kaden. There was a war and you got taken at one point and we lost our son but he's back now... we're a family again." Clayton growled and I shook my head. This couldn't be true.

"That doesn't prove anything." I spat.

"You want proof?" He said in a tight voice. I nodded.

"You told me what that bastard did to you in that van when you were fourteen." He growled out and my whole body tensed. My hands instantly started shaking and I hugged myself as my eyes squeezed shut.

"How he-he raped you." Clayton said in a broken yet angry voice. I let out a shuddering sigh as I remembered that nightmarish day.

"I wish I could've been there to protect you, but I wasn't. I should've been there for you so many times, but I wasn't... and it kills me." Clayton said in a shaking voice.

I felt his hand lay on my shoulder and I wrenched away from the contact. I hurried away from him and put out my hands in frustration and turmoil. I turned to him and shook my head.

No one knew about that... maybe he isn't lying... I don't care. I'm leaving. I glanced at the door.

"Leave me alone man. Can I go now?" I asked and my head started pounding. I winced and rubbed my temples.

"No. You're not leaving!" Clayton snarled losing his temper and the pain in my head increased. I groaned and turned away from him. I squeezed my eyes shut.

"Katy?" I heard Clayton say after a while and I felt his hands grab my waist and turn me toward him. His body brushed mine and I couldn't help but lean closer. He felt so warm.

"Why?" I breathed.

"Why what?" He said softly and I felt his breath hitch as I laid my head on his chest. I can't explain why I did it, it was more of a need almost. He slowly wrapped his arms around me.

"Why'd you kill my parents?" I asked. It was obvious he'd done it. That smell of blood had to have been theirs.

"They took you from me and changed you... They deserved their fate." Clayton growled softly not denying it at all.

"Changed me?" I questioned and Clayton pulled me flush against him. He was silent for a while so I asked a simple question, "What happened to Jaxon, I mean did y'all see him?" At the mention of my former boyfriend's name Clayton growled darkly.

"Dead." Was all he said.

"Did you-" I started and his growl cut me off.

"No. The beta." Clayton said and attempted to pull me closer which was impossible because I was already smushed against him.

"You were-are-my mate. A Luna. A wolf. We ran this pack. Even Dalton's h-" he began and I pulled away.

"Dalton's here?" I asked and Clayton nodded. I bit my lip softly and looked at my feet.

"He's mates with some man?" I inquired.

"Yes, our beta-" he began.

"Drew." I finished without realizing. We both paused. My mouth opened and shut like a fish as I tried to think of an explanation. Clayton pulled away a little.

"Katy? You remember?" He said and a pounding headache hit me again and I shrugged as I tried to fight through the pain.

"It just popped in there." I said simply pointing to my head.

"I saw things when you kissed me..." I grumbled and Clayton tightened his grip around my waist.

"What things?" He said softly. I shrugged.

"I don't know just blurry images." I said and the alpha smirked. I scowled at him suspiciously.

"Can I try something?" He asked and I tilted my head to the side in questioning. Before I could object he leaned down and his lips pressed against my neck. I felt my breath hitch as he kissed the sensitive skin and my stomach churned.

"What are you-" My question was cut off by my own gasp as Clayton nipped at my neck and a weird feeling crept over me. My body tingled with sparks and I held back a moan as he growled and pulled me roughly against him.