8 months later “What are your plans for today?” Ryan asks me from across the table. We’re almost done with breakfast; she has to leave for work soon. Today is Monday so that means she won’t sleep over tonight. She has to go home after work and get fresh clothes and toiletries for the week. I have been trying to convince her to move in with me for the past month and let’s just say I am failing miserably. She needs her own space she says. My mind drifts to the day we met. I still can’t believe it’s been almost since that fateful day Ryan and I met in that office park. She has taken my breath away ever since. “Gabe?” she says when I don’t answer. She shrugs in question. “I have a long day of work and boring stuff.” I say finally and smile. She’s looking at me askance,, she can tell something is off. And she’s right something is off. But I can’t tell her that. “You okay?” She says standing from her chair and she walks to me. I push my chair back so she can sit on my lap. She ki
“Ryan, say something,” Gabriel says after a moment. My head is spinning, I feel like vomiting but I don’t think I have enough strength to do it. I look at him confused. Ramie is dead? What is going on? How can she be dead? I thought Zan was on this, I thought he was some kind of spy organization member. I haven’t heard from her in a long time. I guess I got so comfortable with Gabriel that I forgot about everything. But I didn’t think she was dead, I assumed she just... I don’t even know what I thought. “Baby?” Gabriel says and takes a step toward me. I raise my hand up to stop him from touching me. I take a step back, he stops moving and looks at my hand; he swallows hard and balls his fists. He thinks I’m rejecting him. His face looks so hurt. I feel so confused, it’s like Ramie and I were close, but I feel like I lost something. Maybe I was naive thinking everything will be fine. Or did I turn a blind eye to her plight? “I need a minute,” I say to soften the blow of the moment
It’s been 3 days since Gabe and I left Gauteng. We’re in the mountains of the Blyde Canyon. Gabriel has an incredible house here. It’s the two of us in the middle of a forest basically, there’s no cleaning or cooking staff just us and the mountains and River. The house is built on the edge of a mountain, all I need to do is look up and I can see the famous 3 Rondavels in their glory. I am so blessed to be here in this incredible place but I wish we were here under better circumstances. Not on the run from a psycho member of parliament. This all seems so unreal, to say I’m going crazy is an understatement. Every morning I wake up and come to this beautiful balcony and watch the world come alive. From here I can see the Blyde River. If I look hard enough I can see Hippos swimming, birds fishing for their breakfast. I see the beauty that is in front of me but all I feel is dread, anger, fear, confusion, and… In a nutshell, I’m furious. Ramie got me into this mess and now she’s dead le
I pull out of Ryan’s pussy and my body shivers. I missed making love to her so much, I want more of her. I want to pound into her sweet folds until I forget all my troubles but I need to figure out why she’s pissed off at me. I mean she’s acting like I’m the one that created this whole mess. But like her I was thrown into this disaster of a situation and I’m only trying to keep her safe. I should really press her to explain to me why she decided to shut me out but I’m scared she will clam up and not talk to me ever again. I’m even lucky she let me kiss her. I’ll let her let decide when she wants to open up to me but in the meantime. I’m going to make her forget all her worries with my cock. Maybe I too will be able to forget that there is a bounty on her head. I want to rip Minister Shona’s head off with my bare hands but I can’t. I need to concentrate on this beautiful woman in front of me She leans into me and kisses me. I kiss her back greedily taking all that she’s willing to
I wake to the sound of laughter. I turn to the watch on the side table on my side of the bed. It’s 9:00 am. Gabe and I made love last night to the point of exhaustion. I don’t even remember what time we fell asleep. And I didn’t hear him get out of bed either. He always has so much energy after a long night of making love. I listen carefully to the two voices beyond the bedroom door. One most definitely belongs to Gabe and the other? I want to say it’s my sister Rose’s voice but why would she be here? I hold my excitement, I don’t want o go out there and it’s no her. I would be so disappointed. It can’t be her! No one is supposed to know where we are. I get out of bed and head to the bathroom. I need to clean up before I see who’s here. If it is Rose I don’t know if I can hold in the tears I have been putting at bay. I miss her so much. I need to talk to her. I take a few minutes showering and getting through my skincare routine. I get dressed and head out of the bedroom. I walk t
“Thank you for yesterday,”I say to Gabriel as he floats us around the pool. Today we decided to take full advantage of the facilities; we’re enjoying a day in the sun. Together! I’m so much calmer now, seeing Rose and having that talk with her gave me perspective. I need to be more open with Gabriel and share with him my feelings. It won’t be easy and I might slip back into my old habits but I am more conscious and actively trying to connect with him. “You’re welcome.” He says looking at me intently. He’s giving me that look he gave me on our first date. That one terrified me but now I know what it means. It doesn’t scare me now; I look for it in his eyes to remind me I’m in the right place in his arms. He seems calmer too. He is morphing back into that in charge and in control man. I guess our talk last night, put him at peace too. He has this look in his eyes like he knows something I don’t. I want to get into his head and hear all his deepest thoughts. What is he cooking up in
Life is different, I feel different. The things I found joy in a few months ago don’t make me happy anymore. I used to love going to work; being of service to my boss would give me this sense of belonging. But now I just go through the motions of my work days and forget about it as soon as I get home. I look forward to the end of the day as soon as I get to work. There is a shift in my heart. I know it and I find myself accepting it without fear or question I never imagined I would be those people who dread going to work. I love my job, or more accurately I loved my job. Max is an amazing boss, our office is fun but I can’t seem to get back into my groove. I shake the feeling that I need to let go of this life and something greater will come to me. At first, I thought it was the stress. I told myself it will go away in a few weeks once everything settled down. I thought it was the moment and as soon as it passed I would go back to me. It’s been a month and the feeling hasn’t changed
“I just want to say that I will miss you. I can’t imagine this office running without you but I’m so happy that you’re going out there to experience something new. I wish you all the best in your new endeavors. And just so you know, if you ever want your job back. T’s always here.” Max says at my farewell party. My two-week notice is over, I’m happy about this chapter of my life. But I can’t say I’m not terrified of what’s to come next. This is me taking a leap into the unknown. Who quits a job without a plan? I don’t know how I’m going to make money when I leave here. I am shaking in my boots but I’m up for it. This is by far the craziest thing I’ve done, ever! The whole room cheers for me and I smile shyly. I have to be the centre of attention but Max insisted we host a party for my last day here. I walk around the room thanking everyone. It’s only right that I say my proper goodbyes; I worked with these people for a long time. “Thank you for everything Max, I truly appreciate yo