CHAPTER 3: GOODBYE, MY LOVE

CHAPTER 3: GOODBYE, MY LOVE

SHANBRI POV

It's getting late at night and I've been here in the park and sitting on a bench.

After my conversation with Mrs. Villamor, I stumbled upon it.

I was just stunned and seemed to have used up all my tears because nothing was coming out of my eyes.

What will I do? I don't want to go home yet. I wanted to call Trish but she might be asleep.

Maybe tomorrow I will tell her about what happened earlier.

I let out a deep breath. Is Kenj really getting married? How about me?

I thought he loved me. I asked myself. I feel so bad right now.

Maybe Kenj's mom is right. I'm just a bad influence on him. Because of me he neglects his work.

I might even be the reason for his downfall, especially when people find out that he has a relationship with someone who is not the same status as him in life and that she used to be an intern.

I don't want Kenj's name to be tarnished. I know he has worked hard to get to where he is now in life.

I don't want to embarrass him and his mom doesn't want me.

She will only hinder us and according to her, Kenj is said to be getting married.

It's hard to fight the parents, so if we are really meant for each other, fate will take care of us, but if not, I will gladly accept our fate.

Our one year together is enough for me. I'm glad I met Kenj.

He is my first love. He was my first kiss. It was with him that I first experienced love and what it feels like to be loved.

I shouldn't have made a decision because I still don't know if what his mom told me was true.

But what if it's true? Maybe she won't lie to me.

I don't want the truth to come from Kenj anymore. I will be hurt even more if he tells me to my face that he doesn't really love me and the truth is that he is just waiting for his childhood sweetheart to get married.

It's not impossible because Kenj was really a playboy before we met, maybe I'm just stupid to believe that he can change for me.

He made me feel that he loved me, but what if he was really bored, so he left me.

I don't know what's true anymore. Should I talk to him? But I'm afraid to know the truth.

Even though I'm hurt right now, I can't be angry with Kenj. I love him very much and I can sacrifice for him.

I took a deep breath and stood up. I have made up my mind. I'm going to see Kenj and one last time I want him to feel that I love him.

I want us to have memories of each other before we part ways.

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Here I am in front of Kenj's condo door. My heart was beating so fast. I don't know if I can handle it but my decision is complete.

I rang the doorbell but after two rings, no one answered.

I was getting more and more nervous and my hands and legs were shaking.

No, I can do it. My decision is complete. I will strengthen my heart.

I know I'm rushing but I love Kenj and I hope he likes what I do.

This is what I will consider as a gift to him on our upcoming 1st anniversary.

I rang the doorbell again and this time it opened and revealed the face of the man I loved the most.

His eyes will wipe. He seems to be fast asleep.

"Babe? What are you doing here? Do you miss me? Just a while ago we were together." he simply asked.

There was a smirk on his lips as if he didn't really expect my arrival.

Because I don't always come here to his condo and he doesn't come to my apartment either.

We often meet outside. Even though our relationship was secret, we were both satisfied with it.

I'm just not sure now if what he showed me was really true.

I didn't answer him and without saying a word I grabbed him with a kiss.

He looks shocked by what I did but I don't care.

I wrapped my arm around his neck and leaned in and pressed him with a kiss again.

He didn't respond so I let go of his lips for a moment.

We were both breathless from what happened.

"Babe..." His voice was hoarse as he uttered his favorite call to me.

There was a slight surprise in his eyes, maybe he was shocked by my actions because I was not aggressive towards him before.

I didn't think any more and said my goal.

"Kenj, I want you. I'm ready," I said softly to Kenj.

He doesn't force me into this thing because he knows I don't have experience yet but I want to give myself to him now.

He seemed to understand what I meant and immediately asked me.

"Are you sure babe?" He may be having second thoughts about what to do, but my decision is complete.

"Yes, Kenj. Please take me now," I hoarsely answered him.

"Alright, don't regret this tomorrow," he promised and immediately gave me warm kisses.

Our kiss went deeper and deeper and I felt my foot lift off the floor.

Kenj carried me to his room.

He slowly laid me down and kissed my lips again.

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When I opened my eyes, Kenj's face appeared to me. He wrapped his arms around my waist and rested his head on my chest.

The events of last night came back to my mind.

Both of us were naked under the blanket.

Suddenly I felt pain in my center down there. It's true that it really hurt the first time but I don't regret it because I liked it.

I looked at the sleeping Kenj again. I feasted my eyes on his handsome face.

I will definitely miss it and I'm already sad right now.

I planted a kiss on his forehead.

"I love you Kenj. I'm sorry," I whispered to him even though I knew he wouldn't hear because he was still fast asleep.

I stood up slowly so I wouldn't wake Kenj up and picked up my clothes one by one that were scattered on the floor.

I put it on and looked at Kenj's peaceful face again.

"I've made up my mind Kenj. I hope that somehow you were happy in our relationship." My voice is weak, I don't want Kenj to wake up.

I completely turned my back on him and immediately left the condo.

That's where my tears flowed.

I kept running, I didn't want to look back because I might change my mind.I immediately hailed a taxi and told my parents' address.

Forgive me Kenj. Goodbye my love.