72: Making amends for growing apart

"Marriage is meant to keep people together, not just when things are good, but particularly when they are not. That's why we take marriage vows, not wishes."

~Ngina Otiende

Zander

I feel incredibly nervous as I get down from the car and make my way to the front of the house that used to be mine and Havana's home and I wonder how the hell I got to this point.

If anyone had told me six months ago when we were getting married that we would be having this much trouble during the first few months of our marriage, I'd probably laugh and call the bluff, but here we are separated with no guarantee of ever getting back together. Such a sad turn of events.

It doesn't take long to figure it out though, I become someone else and I could argue it out with everyone else but I can't argue with myself about the truth. I turned into someone who I wasn't and it cost me, my wife, the woman I always saw forever with and now I'm a