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73: Troubles for the heart
"Love recognizes no barriers. It jumps hurdles, leaps fences, penetrates walls to arrive at its destination full of hope."
~Maya AngelouThree weeks later
"I don't remember asking for your permissions to push this forward!" I snap at Luka, one of my board members who opposed me during the meeting. I toss my documents onto my desk before turning to her.
It started as a friendly opposition of my Christmas giveaway project at first and I thought she would move on but she keeps her mouth and instead of encouraging the other board members, she ended up causing even more division. According to her, we shouldn't push too much into the project if I was going to be in charge of it. In her words, being a mother was a great disadvantage to the project.
I tried to explain to them that the project wasn't about us gaining from
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