Chapter 53

I am currently sitting in front of my mother's coffin. I was stunned and my tears just kept falling. I can't feel anything but pain, I'm losing hope to live. I just stayed there in front while looking at where Mom lay.

I can't explain the pain I'm feeling right now, I'm sorry. I blame myself a lot for losing my mother. If I had informed my husband about what was happening to me earlier, he would not have had a heart attack. I don't know what happened between Emery and her but I know that he is the reason why my mother disappeared. Ethan told me that Ate Loling saw Emery and mom talking outside the gate, when she came back she was surprised to see mom lying on the floor and Emery was gone.

If I had just gone home, if I had just given up and accepted that my husband and I really had no hope, I could have avoided what happened. I didn't even tell him that I loved him so much before God took him. It hurts to think that he is gone. Repentance is really in the end.

"Dahlia," Ethan called