Esme I feel tired from the unrelenting workout so I decide to take a rest. I lay on the metal bed the mattress so thin I feel the metal beneath it. I lay and think about my mate I long for his touch I have not known him long yet it feels like eternity as tho are souls have wandered the plains for such a long time. I hope I can forgive me for baring the mark of another I wonder if he will still take me as his mate I pray to the moon goddess he understands that sampson marked me by force it was not by my choice. I love Perseus and was planning to build a life together it does not bother me he is a rogue I too will become a rogue to spend the rest of my days with him. I can not imagine how hard it must of been living as a rogue from such a young age losing all your family and forcefully removed from the pack you were next in line for alpha. I wonder what he is doing now I close my eyes and picture his face in great detail I fall asleep to the imagine of him it brings me comfort he is rea
~5 years ago~ High tide pack “I refuse to be second to none. Son you are not gay Mathew is not your fated mate I will never accept that you are gay you must take Lisa as your mate if you want any chance to become alpha of a pack one day we have served along side alphas for many generations we are born betas but that must change we are more than capable of the alpha title we need this, you need this” Harriet sighs “dad I am gay I have always been gay I do not understand why it is so hard for you to accept this. The moon goddess has also blessed me with Mathew confirming what we both already knew. I do not want Lisa for a mate it would not be fair to either one of us stuck in a loveless courtship. Most importantly father I also do not desire to be alpha we are beta blood for a reason it is in our blood to serve beside our alpha. Being alpha is not a dream of mine but yours I am happy with who I am” what an ungrateful child I have raised he has been given an opportunity to take the al
Most alpha ceremonies are grand events the whole pack enjoys together. extravagantly decorated event with all the finer things in life a huge buffet with wine and beer on tap celebrated with the whole pack. But under the circumstances I stand here at the werewolf council with a few people who came today as witnesses to my brother sampsons wrong doings. Three councilmen stand in front of me with a gold plated dagger “i high elder Marcus here by strip alpha sampson for the shadow crescent of his title and duties may all ties to the shadow pack be cut with this knife I hold before. I hereby from this day forth call forward alexander west to take the shadow crescent as his own and with the power of the moon goddess bestow him the new alpha” he cuts his hand so do the other two high elders they all let their blood run into a challis they hand me the knife and I do the same. I feel the power and strength of a alpha run hot through my veins it is something magical to feel my aura feels diffe
Clary I have been staying at Alexander’s and Marie’s house the past week since I sobered up and focused on training and keeping myself in the present. I took losing tiff hard but while I was caught up in my own misery I forgot about two boys who must have felt the loss more than anyone Simon and James not only did they lose their only living family member and provider but they have been placed in a home with good people but strangers none the less to them I had been visiting them once a day since the tragedy but a week ago I told myself I need to step up not only for me but for the two boys I know if it were my brother tiff would have been caring and supporting them with in a instant that is just the type of person she was. They need someone familiar around. I won’t lie it has been hard they are completely shattered they won’t eat unless I eat with them they cry a lot which is understandable so today I plan to take them out to visit the pack hospital I have arranged a vip tour throug
Esme Lonely I feel completely and utterly lonely weeks with basic human interaction is starting to drive me insane working out does not help. I crave for a conversation, fresh air, sunlight, human touch I miss my mate family and friends. I haven’t seen sampson in two days although I dislike him he is the one that put me in this predicament yet he is the only form of human interaction even if briefly and the fact I do not want to be in his presence it is still a form of human interaction. Perhaps this was part of his plan to strip me of human interaction and intimacy in the hopes I will fall straight into his arms for what it is I crave for. I can’t think like this I will not let him win I decide to meditate to ease my mind and find the inner strength I need to see me through this as i take my first inhale. As I do the dungeon door flies open “help me Esme help me” it’s a very distressed sampson his hair is dishevelled he hasn’t shaved in a while and looks as though he hasn’t had any
I look down at my ankle sampson has a hold of this is my chance to escape yet I am frozen on the spot I feel numb for the first time in my life a feel scared. Sampson has not fully recovered I could easily over power him yet I can not move paralysed with fear as it consumes me. I take i deep breath in and out I tell myself now is the time it’s now of never. As I quickly analyse my next move sampson pulls my ankle and drags me on the floor towards him. I kick him in the face when he pulls me close enough. I army crawl to get out of the cell while his momentarily distracted with his bloody nose. I’m out the cell but not for long Sampson gets hold of both ankles this time he drags me back in the cell and he uses his body to pins me down. both my hands are are above my head in his vice like grip. I knew him in the Crown Jewels and scurry out of the cell a shut the door behind me. I make a run for the main dungeon entry while sampson yells unrelenting profanities. I open the dungeon door m
When Perseus and I woke up in the clary had already left the bed thank goddess that would have been awkward as fuck. Perseus pulls me into his arms and we lay staring at each other enjoying the others embrace. Perseus gently brushes the back of his hand across my cheek then pulls me in for a kiss I welcome it I have longed for this since the moment I left here. He pulls away “I could lay like this forever” i peck his lips “so could I” we hear banging and singing in the kitchen “is this what it’s like living with clary is he always his noisey in the mornings” I laugh “actually no I don’t ever remember a time his been up before me. The boys seem to be doing him some good. That boy could burn water we should probably get up before he burns the house down” as I get up he pulls me back to his chest and gives me a kiss. I could get lost in his hazel green eyes for eternity. I stand up not letting go of his hand and pull him at of bed his unwilling to get up I wants to lay in bed with me for
I give Perseus some space for a moment to go check the boys. I can hear the excitement and yelling from down the hall. I open the door and Both the boys and Harriet are versing each other in a very animated way I’m glad the boys are adjusting well to the loss of tiff Perseus said his seen how progressive the boys have been with clary taking control. Im about to walk away when Harriet stops me. “ hey Esme did you have a minute I haven’t had a chance to really to talk to you” he puts the controller down and tells the boys to play two player for 5 minutes. We step out into the hall and shut the door to the games room. “It’s not his fault you know it doesn’t make what he done any better but you need to know his not himself” I’m confused by his statement “sorry Harriet you have lost me I do not know who or what you are talking about” no one seems to be their true self lately. “Sampson, his not himself” I drop my head almost in defeat as I whisper “I know more than anyone his not himself” H