6 - Sydney

"So, what do you do for fun around here?" I ask, trying to lightedn the mood. It's been a long day, and the atmosphere has gotten a bit heavy for me. I should be exhausted and ready for bed, but I'm not.

Axel studies me for a minute, before he smirks and stands up. He walks over to the wood armoire in the corner and opens the doors at the top, and there sits a TV. It's older, but  it still looks out of place in the cabin.

Then he opens the drawers at the bottom, and there are rows and rows of DVDS

I watch DVD's while I work," he says.

I stand and check out his DVD collection. Lots of action movies, mountain men, historic documentaries and comedy mixed in with the classics. He has many complete TV shows as well.

"What do you work on?" I ask, turning back to him.

"Normally, stuff I can sell in town. There's a shop that sells my things on consignment. Once a month or so, I go to town, drop things off, and then meet up with a few friends to make a day of it. After this storm passes, we'll be planning a day to get together."

"Planning? Like on the phone?"

"No, Little One. There's no service out here. I use the radio." He nods to the corner where his desk is.

"What about in an emergency?" I wonder what would happen to him all alone up here.

I know that's the price you pay living here, but the thought of him needing help and not getting it doesn't sit right with me either.

"I've learned how to handle things myself, but if I needed to, I could radio to my friend Phoenix and he has phone service, Wi-Fi and other stuff."

Such a different way of life up here, a much simpler one. One that recently holds a lot of appeal. O love being unplugged and not bothered by my phone.

Would Stephen be blowing it up, demanding I get my stuff out of the apartment? Does he even realize I'm missing? Would Stephen's dad start calling in a few days, when I miss work? The thought of not having to worry about those calls tempts me much more than I thought it would.

"What do you see at that shop?"

He gently takes my hand in his and stares at it for a moment, before leading me to a large cabinet by the kitchen.

"Jerky. Mostly, deer jerky and some others, depending on what I can hunt.  Also, I sell the furs in town, as there's always a market for them." He opens the cabinet to show me bags and bags of jerky all unlabeled.

"Do you label them?"

"No, I mark the type and date I made them, and the guy at the shop labels them. He uses his own brand. It's easier than me trying to handle the printing and all that." He closes the door and still holding my hand, leads me to a cabinet by hi desk.

"I also make hand carved knives. These are what I normally work on at night while I watch TV."

I pull one from the cabinet and the handle is wood carving of a bear in the forest with some trees and a river.

"Axel, these are beautiful!! They must take so much time to make."

"I can make maybe 4 or 4 a month, and then more in the winter, when I'm snowed in. They sell for a pretty nice price in town."

This giant of a man made these delicate knives with the beautiful intricate carvings. For sure, the time and details that it takes to make these, proves he's patient. Just like I've known he is in the few hours I've spent with him.

"Would you like to watch TV?" he asks, leading me back to the couch.

"Yes, I would, something funny." I sit on the couch and watch him hunt for the DVD he had in mind. He gets the TV going and then sits on the opposite end.

I watch him, as the opening credits of the movie start up, and when he catches me watching him, he gets slightly nervous.

"What is it?" he asks in that deep, gravelly tone I've come to know. 

"Why do you live out here alone?" I go for broke.

More than likely, he won't tell me, but I figure I have to ask, I have this need to know all about him, even if I can't explain exactly why.

He shifts in his seat, clearly uncomfortable wit hthe subject, but he doesn't look like he's going to shut me down. He looks thoughtful, like he's choosing his words carefully.

"With my size, it's just easier." he finally says, but he won't look at me, when he does.

"Easier for whom?" I ask.

That's when he finally looks at me. His expression says it all. It's easier for the outside world, if he hides away. I can only imagine what he has gone through, before movig out here, but I won't pry tonight.

That's when I decided how I can repay his kindness. I can show him that what others think doesn't matter.

"People are cuel to what they don't understand, or what scares them. That's their problem." I say softly and watch his adam's apple bob, as he tries to hide the emotion.

I scoot over to his side and bring the blanket on the back of the couch with me. Snuggling up to his side, I want ot see if he pushes me away. Hi body tenses, but he doesn't move.

"Sorry, yolu are nice and warm," I tell him.

It's the truth. Between the heat from the fireplace and being near him, the day is fanally catching up with me, and I"m having a hard time keeping my eyes open.

I'm really glad I met you, My Giant. I think, as I drift off to sleep.

***

Axel

I'm really glad I met you, My Giant.

Those are the words she mumbled, as she drifted off to sleep. I shift to move my arm, so she's lying against my side, and I wrap my arm around her, holding her close.

I enjoy having her snuggled up to me, and I love that she's so comfortable that she drifted off so fast, and we didn't even get ten minutes into the movie.

This is much earlier than I normally go to sleep, so I settle in to watch one of favorite movies, but I can't seem to concentrate on anything, other than Sydney nestled into me.

I know I should take her to bed, and then finish the movie, but I want this time with her cuddled against me, because who knows, when I'll get it again.

She's so tiny in my arms, and the differences between us are noticeable. Her skin is so soft, smooth, and pale next to my tan and rough skin from all the manual labor I do out here.

Her skin is almost blemish free, other than the cuts from earlier today. Though, I hate them marring her skin. My skin is full of scars and bruises. I never cared much before, but now, I wonder if an angel like this could stand to be around a beast like me.

I lean my head on the back of the couch and stare up at the ceiling, a ceiling built by myself wit hthe help of my friend, Phoenix. Heck, I built the whole cabin. Some days, I still can't believe I did it.

How have I gone from craving time alone to wanting her to fill every corner of my cabin? In jsut a few hours, she has turned my life upside down, and I don't think I could ever go back.

When I look into the days to come, I see her here, helping prep for winter. I can picture her snuggled on this couch, reading next to the fire, when we are snowed in, or coming home from a long day to find her cooking dinner in the kitchen. Or I can imagine a time where we sit down and eat dinner together every night.

When i look up at the TV again, the movie is over, and my Little One is still asleep. I gently pick her up to carry her to bed. Then, she snuggles into me, and my heart races, yelling at me that she's mine, she's comfortable with me, and this could work.

In the hallway, I waver. I had every intention of putting her in one of the guest rooms, letting her have her own bed, her own space, her own bathroom. But now, the thought of her sleeping across the hallway doesn't sit well with me.

Hesitating a moment, I turn into my room and lay her down on my bed. I pull the covers over her and lightly bruch some hair out of her face. She's so beautiful.

Then, I drag myself away to go check on the house. Going around, I check the locks on the doors, the fire in the fireplace, and make sure all the windows are secure with this storm coming through tonight. Anything out of place, I put away. I fold up the blanket Sydney was using on the couch, switch the clothes into the drier, and then head to the bathroom to get ready for bed.

When I get to my room, I don't even turn the light on, because I don't want to chance waking her, and find myself moving through my bedtime routine much faster than normal, because I want to get back to her.

Oce done and standing back by the bed, I hesitate again. Normally, I sleep in my boxer briefs, but with my Little One in bed with me her first night here, I don't want to scare her. It's probably best, if I sleep in my sweatpants as uncomfortable as they might be.

As I carefully climb into bed, it's like she can sense me near, as she curls up to my side in her sleep. Lifting my arm, she moves her head to my shoulder, and I wrap my arm around her back.

'She's only doing this to stay warm,' I tell myself. That's the whole reason I brought her to my bed, so she can stay warm. She isn't used to living in a cabin out here in a strange place. If she woke up alone and cold in the middle of the night, I didn't want her to get scared.

Gently rubbing her back, I tr to relax. Then, I rerun the day over in my head, beginning with her finding me in the river. When I had my first glimpse of her, something about her called to me. There was n o hesitation or question that I'd bring her back to the cabin. Though, I never expected to be here tonight. Like this.

The more time I spend with her, the more time I crave. I love having her in my space, her scent in my room, and her in my arms.

There's enough light filling the room for me to see the clock on my nights stand, and I've been lying in bed with her for 3 hours now, and I'm still wide awake. I can't get enough of watching her sleep, and making sure she's okay.

When the thunder boombs from outside, her body tenses in her sleep. I pull her closer to me, an she starts to relax, but then she moves again, and her head turns up to look at me.

Our eyes meet and neither of us moves, as something passes between us. An understanding that I'll keep her safe. I hope she feels this too, because the longer she looks at me, the deeper she's digging herself into my heart.

Finally she breaks the spell and snuggles back into me, mumbling about how safe she feels.

Only once she's back asleep, am I able to fall asleep myself. If only I had an idea of how I'd be woken up that next morning, I may not have fallen asleep at all.