My sight gets blurry as tears fill in my eyes, " Is everything alright? '' Arnav asks me as he runs his gaze on all faces and rests on mine.
" I'm missing my brother. " I blurt. I don't want my mother and elder brother to reply to him, indeed I want them away from my life. They two and my ex are such people on the earth whom I'll never forgive. I hate them from the core of my heart.
" Well! I've got a surprise for you and it's waiting for your attention. " He smiles and gestures at the doorway with his index finger.
I follow the direction of his finger. My lips erupt into a huge smile, " Ruu! " I squeal and rush at him. I tightly hug him. Unbelievable, but he returns it.
" How are you, Hana? " He smiles as he instantly pulls back.
We still use the name for each other. We were addicted to using the names in our childhood days whe
I put the dress in the basket. I lazily walk over the bed and plop on it. I rub my palm on my cheek and close my eyes. Oddly, I'm feeling calm. I hear the door clicking to open and weigh on the mattress. I keep my eyes close. A familiar hand brushes on my forehead. I push myself in a sitting position opening my eyes, " Do you need anything? " I ask my mother. " I know you hate me. Perhaps, it's the last time we are spending time together. " She says. I control myself not to answer, " How was your journey? " I ask what stuck on my mind first. " I enjoyed it, " She smiles. I still love her. After all, she's my mother. But I'll never forgive her and she also knows it very well, " Is something important? " I ask her. " Why don't you
I take a sip of my latte as I grab the set of my keys from the table. I head toward the garage. I don't want to cancel the wedding, I know it won't kill me but it will kill my heart, the reason for my smile, happiness. Dammit! I'm overthinking. She must have called me to discuss her conditions. Tomorrow is the Haldi ceremony, then Mehndi Ceremony and then the most awaited day of my life with my dream girl, The wedding day. I know it's a casual meeting. She'll not look at me the way I look at her, she'll not feel for me, I feel for her when I behold her. I know she loves me. I simply recall her face when she accepted it in front of me. I wanted to do more than a hug. I love the control on me but when she's around, she makes everything difficult. " Where are you going? " Karan asks, suddenly leaping between me and my car. " To see my love. " I move toward my car but he stops me.
I'm not interested in falling love again. But I've... I can feel it. I perceive only happiness around him. The problem is still there, standing between us like an immovable stone. I got over the breakup with him. I'll never call it a breakup. The breakup happens with the agreement of two people. He left me without saying a word. Cheap! That isn't enough for him, breaking my heart. He began to plant people in my life to ruin me, to get what he couldn't get. Cheapest! Arnav is different from him. He's the same as I dream my husband to be. He only knows that I have a past but he doesn't know it haunts me every night. My nightmares have made my life miserable. I can't live a life like other girls, normal and happy. My tears have dried up, but my heart is still bleeding. Arnav has made this pain disappear, I've had nightmares but he can't stay with me forever. He's going to be my husband, but I don't know, does he want a raped girl as his
I manage to push away the bad memories of the nightmare. I love my dress today. It's a yellow off-shoulder gown with real rose flower's jewellery, " Who made this? It's beautiful. I can smell roses. " I brush my fingers on the red petals of it. Hiding behind the smile, I gaze up at my friends to answer me. " Mini made it for us. '' Sippy engulfs her arms around her, " She actually takes care of us as our mother does. " " Right, " Rita hugs her too, " Our parents are here. " She says to Mini, " They will not allow me to see Guri after the Haldi Ceremony. " She pulls a face. " Don't be a jerk. It's not months and years. Tomorrow mehndi. Then the next day you and Suhana will be married ladies. " Pehu put the bracelet made of red roses around my wrist. All are wearing yellow dresses, Mini, Rita and Pehu are w
Sippy opens the curtains of my room. The sun sinks down over the city. My skin is glowing yellow and I'm smelling like roses. Sinking sun spreads orange all over, making the room glow, " Take a nap. We girls are partying tonight, only ladies. " Mini says, turning from the window, Including our mothers and mother-in-law. " She adds quickly. I was tired before. But the hot bath was really incredible. I can add it in my routine, " Here! Some fruits, juice and sandwiches if you feel hungry. " Sippy slides the tray on the nightstand. " We'll knock at your doorstep at eleven," Mini says as she grips the doorknob. Sippy steps out first and then Mini, " Call me if you need anything. " She meets my eyes for a few seconds. I nod my head and lock the door, closing it after them. My eyes are getting heavy. I walk over the mattress and plop on it, pulling the blanket to my ch
My body gets numbed when I stare down at her message. My smile fades away. The loud music, all babble, noises play in the background. It's my heartbeat that is running rapidly, knocking in my ears. Dammit! She'll be the path to my grave. Vicky jounces me by my shoulder, " What happened? " He asks. James stares down at the screen. He puts his hand on my shoulder, " Talk to her. It could be a prank. " He says. I shake my head, " I need to go. " I say over the music. I hurry toward the door of the club. I shove my hand in my pocket and take out the car's keys. She can't do this to me. I make a call on her number again, it's unreachable. I slip it back and quicken my pace. I unlock my car and get in. The passenger door opens and slams shut, taking Vicky in and James slips in the back seat, " You are looking as i
My heart was beating faster, and I hated myself for doing this to him. I'm worse for him. How could he forgive me so easily, I can see it clearly over his face that I've hurt him. But he needs to know what's he walking in. I want to be with him and push him away. When I thought about all the bad things, Which part bothered me most was unclear. My this deed to him is going to come back to haunt me in my dreams that I've hurt him. Nothing could ever happen between us. It doesn’t make sense, but that part scares me. He stares at me, my heart is beating a mile a minute. He steps back, twirling; he leaves me alone, mulling over what I did to him. I'm feeling so embarrassed right now for my doing. I never want to disappear into thin air so badly. I turn my gaze. The dress is still lying on one side of the mattress. Before my friends att
I take a deep breath and make my way through the door behind Pehu. She has overstepped the boundaries. But I can't blame her. They care for me. They are genuine with me from starting, rare people of my life. The hall which was regally decorated yesterday. It is converted into a dance floor. Dj is playing at one side of the hall, " No one told me about this, set up." I gaze around. " It is a surprise for you. You always wanna go to the club. But you never did out of fear. " Sippy says, coming from behind and putting her arm around my shoulder. " Thanks, it really feels like an actual club. " I smile, meeting my gaze with her. " Suhana! " My mother in law walks toward me, leaving her troop behind. She's wearing a red and dark green suit, Her lipstick was the brightest fluorescent pink, her Punjabi look is really amazing