Chapter 10 Screwed!

Jack’s POV

Screwed. That is the exact word that describes my situation right now. Yes, I screwed his wife and he had every reason to screw me over after that. I admit I’m an ass! I totally deserve what I got. I just never expected it to happen!

Belle and I never thought we’d get caught! We’d been so damn careful the whole time. Never touching or talking anymore than normal while Colt was around. We were playing it casual, and then it all came crashing down in one moment.

I mean we weren't completely brainless. We knew exactly what would happen if Colt ever found out. We just thought we were beyond touching, I guess. No one seemed to notice, so we were good.

I don’t even really know why I did this to my best friend other than the fact I’ve been jealous of the guy since we met. I don’t like to think of myself as a ’bad guy.’ I just wanted what he had… What he always seems to have! It’s not fair! Why can’t I just have what I want for once?

I mean really, is it so bad that I just wanted to one up the guy for once? He didn't even have to know about it! As long as I got the satisfaction of knowing I could sleep with his wife... It wasn't even like I wanted her love either. I just wanted to screw her body!

Colt is the kinda guy who would give you the shirt off his back if he thought you needed it. He’s been that guy over and over again throughout my life. He’d help me up when I’m down. He is genuine and kind… Not to mention a freaking genius! He’s a good guy…

I’m not.

How do I explain the bitter resentment that my friend got everything he ever wanted growing up and I had to work for every damn thing I had? I feel like I’ve been living in his shadow this whole time. I never got the spotlight on me, it was always him.

I don’t blame Colt for this. He’s helped me out so many times, and I guess I just expected him to keep handing me bailouts. Because that’s just who he is. Never has he ever cut me off like this. Never has he looked at me with so much anger… And he has every right to be angry. I know that! I’m not stupid.

But seriously, where the hell does that leave me? Sure I've got some savings packed away, enough to get by for a while. But B&B was what I know! How am I supposed to find a new job with Colt as my only reference? I'm sure he will tell any future employers what went down.

I admire the guy and I care for him. The guy is the closest thing I have to a brother… But it didn’t stop the jealousy. The envy burned deep in my gut. Every time he got something I wanted and I didn’t. Was that his fault? No. Did it matter? Nope! The bitterness just grew and grew… But I got pretty good at hiding it.

I remember the day back in our senior year in high school he came up with this brilliant plan to start our own home security business. He had it all planned out. He said I’d be his partner as long as we never screwed each other over… That was all he ever asked of me.

And I screwed it up by lusting after his wife. I knew better than to betray him like that, and yet… It still didn’t stop me… I guess I just wanted one thing… One thing he had, and it had to be her…

It’s not completely my fault… It’s hers too!

Actually, it should be mostly her fault! After all, she is his wife! I’m just the business partner! I could lust after her from afar and never have touched her… I don’t even know if I ever would’ve touched her if it hadn’t been for that one night a few months ago… If it wasn’t for her, I could’ve just gone on pretending everything was cool… So, yeah. It’s mostly her fault.