Chapter 11 Her Fault

One night while Colt was away on business I was out at the bar and Belle was there, much to my surprise. I’ve been hanging out at that bar for years and it was the first time I saw his wife there. She wasn’t even wearing her wedding ring… I wondered what he would’ve thought about that.

But what she was wearing was an almost non-existent dress and had a look in her eye like she was looking for a good time... Without her husband finding out... I could get on board with that.

I sat down right next to her.

“Hey, Belle, what'cha doin’ here?” I asked casually.

“Jack,” she whispered my name like a kitten purring. There was a sparkle in her eyes as she looked me up and down. She slid her hand up my chest as she leaned into me. She felt So good... I wanted to know what the rest of her felt like too.

I didn’t want to admit it to myself, but that look… It was all I needed. It was the flashing green light that let me know she wanted me just as much as I wanted her.

We got to talking and after one too many, she leaned into me and kissed me. It was hot and needy, and damn if it didn’t turn me on! I had no resistance to it. I leaned in and took control of the kiss like I’d been dreaming about for ages.

“Wanna get outta here?” she whispered.

And that was it. That was three months ago. We’ve been sneaking around ever since. We would only meet up when Colt wasn’t around. Obviously we didn’t want him to know about us.

However, Colt isn’t stupid. I know he’s been noticing she’s been pulling away from him, because he’s talked to me about it. But he didn’t know that it was me that was doing the pulling.

I can’t even begin to describe the guilt I’ve carried over the last few months. I’ve seen it weigh down my buddy, but it hasn’t stopped me or Belle. I don’t know what that makes me, exactly. I guess a really bad friend. I knew what I was doing the whole time and had no intention of changing my ways. I knew what would happen if he ever found out. But I just didn’t believe he would. He could go along being happy in his ‘happy marriage’ and I could go along… betraying him.

Even though it’s been killing me slowly, I was secretly hoping he’d never find out. I’d still be his partner and best friend and I’d still be able to sate my lust for Belle. I don't know what it was, but every time I had sex with Belle, I had this sense of smug satisfaction. I know I'm an ass!

I don’t love Belle. She’s beautiful and witty. Fun and sexy… But I don’t love her. She’s just someone… to get me through my frustration and jealousy… And secretly screw over my buddy.

But life doesn’t always turn out the way you planned it. I don’t know if it was just karma or fate that had Colt walking in on us while I was deep inside his wife… I was almost there too! But it didn’t matter because the moment he walked through the door I shriveled up like a prune.

Colt wasn’t supposed to come home for another day. Why the hell did he decide to come home on Wednesday and not Thursday like we had planned? We had it all planned out so Belle and I thought we were safe! I knew he’d been trying to text and call Belle all day, but she ignored it. She told me she would just tell him she was busy at work and he would be fine with that.

I wonder what would've happened if she actually picked up the damn phone instead of screwing my brains out... Maybe we'd have the heads up we needed? Was he calling to tell her he was coming home early? Well, I guess we'll never know now. Not that it matters anymore. What is done is done.

The look of betrayal at my deception has played prominently in my nightmares. The thing was, he looked more upset at me than at his own wife.

But then he did the one thing I really didn’t believe him capable of doing. He kicked us out! Not that I’d blame him. I’d do the same thing if I were him… But HE is better than me! Normally, he’d listen to whatever we have to say and we could clear the air… I’m not even sure what I would’ve said to him… Probably some BS about how I was sorry and we really didn’t mean for this to happen and pray he would buy it.

I know nothing I say would make it better… But if I could just get him to listen to me… Maybe I can persuade him to give me another chance... That's all I need, one more second chance!

I tried to get back into B&B’s building last night and my access was denied.

“I can’t even get in the damn building!” I grumbled at Belle.

“What do you mean?” She screeches, standing there looking dumbfounded. I swear sometimes there is nothing in that head of hers and she just expects me to come up with everything.

I point to the security lock with a blinking red light. “He blocked my access! I can’t get to the damn contract now!” I grind my teeth in frustration.

“What are we gonna do? We need to forge those damn papers Jack!” She yells at me, like I don’t know.

“This is all your fault!” I snap back. “You wanted to use Colt’s house, but we could’ve been at mine and he’d have never found out!”

“But that’s what made it fun! We were screwing him over right under his nose and he never knew!” She pouts, stomping her foot like a toddler.

“That’s what this was about? He’s your husband! Don’t you love him even a little bit?” I ask incredulously. I know I have no room to talk, but I never asked her. She married him, that must mean something to her, doesn’t it? Was she really just a gold-digger like Anna had always claimed?

She folds her arms under her huge breasts defiantly as her lower lip trembles.

“It doesn’t matter if I loved him or not…”

And I don’t know what to say. He was my best friend, but I’ve always been jealous he got everything he wanted… But maybe this time I was wrong.

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