LOGINChapter 55
Luca had already decided.
Damon saw it immediately.
Not because Luca said the words.
Because Damon knew him too well now.
The distance.
The silence.
The look in his eyes.
Luca was leaving.
Rainwater slid down the penthouse windows while broken glass glittered across the floor beneath the dead television screens.
The storm outside felt quieter now.
Like the world itself was listening.
“Don’t.”
Damon said it before he could stop himself.
Luca froze.
Only for a second.
Then looked away again.
“…you should hate me.”
The words sliced clean through Damon’s chest.
Because Luca sounded like he believed them.
Completely.
Damon took a step forward instinctively.
“You were manipulated.”
Luca laughed softly.
A horrible sound.
Empty.
“And your mother is still dead.”
Silence.
There it was again.
That truth neither of them could escape.
Seraphine watched both of them carefully, barely breathing.
Because this
This was the breaking point.
The moment everything either survived…
Or didn’t.
Luca bent slowly to pick up the gun he’d dropped earlier.
Not threatening.
Not dangerous.
Just automatic.
Like his body didn’t know how to exist without carrying violence.
Damon hated that.
Hated what Hale had done to him.
“I didn’t know it was her,” Luca said quietly.
Still not looking at Damon.
“I didn’t know there was a child.”
A pause.
“I didn’t know you.”
Each sentence sounded more broken than the last.
Damon’s throat tightened painfully.
Because the worst part
The absolute worst part
Was that Luca was telling the truth.
Young Luca had been nothing but a weapon following orders.
A boy shaped entirely by Hale.
A child taught that survival meant obedience.
But Damon’s memories didn’t care about logic.
They cared about blood.
And rain.
And his mother collapsing in front of him.
Damon closed his eyes briefly.
Instantly regretted it.
Because the memories came harder in darkness.
His mother’s hand trembling against his cheek.
Her voice shaking as she whispered:
“Run.”
Then gunfire.
Damon opened his eyes sharply.
Breathing uneven now.
Luca noticed immediately.
Of course he did.
Even shattered, he still noticed Damon first.
And that realization destroyed him further.
“I can’t stay here,” Luca whispered.
Damon looked at him instantly.
“No.”
Luca finally met his gaze.
And the pain there
God.
It was unbearable.
“If I stay,” Luca said hoarsely, “you’ll keep trying to forgive me.”
Damon’s chest tightened violently.
Because Luca understood him too well too.
“And eventually,” Luca continued quietly, “you’ll hate yourself for it.”
“That’s not your decision.”
Luca’s expression cracked.
“It became my decision the moment I killed her.”
Silence.
Crushing.
Seraphine stepped forward quickly.
“Luca, stop.”
But he shook his head slowly.
Already gone somewhere unreachable.
“I spent this entire time trying to protect him,” Luca whispered.
Almost to himself now.
“And I was the reason he needed protection in the first place.”
Damon moved toward him immediately.
“No.”
Luca stepped backward.
Fast.
Instinctive.
That hurt more than Damon expected.
“You don’t get to come closer right now,” Luca said quietly.
Not cruel.
Not angry.
Just… broken.
Damon stared at him.
“You think leaving fixes this?”
“No.”
A pause.
“But maybe it stops making it worse.”
Lightning flashed violently outside.
For one second the entire room turned white.
Luca looked young again in that light.
Not dangerous.
Not deadly.
Just tired.
Damon realized then
Luca had been carrying guilt his entire life without understanding why.
That instinctive need to protect Damon.
That fear of hurting him.
That constant belief he was poisonous.
Maybe some part of him had always remembered.
“You said you chose me,” Damon said quietly.
Luca flinched like the words physically hurt.
“I did.”
“Then stop deciding what I need.”
Silence.
Luca’s breathing became uneven again.
Because Damon kept doing that.
Seeing the human parts Hale failed to kill.
“You deserve better than me.”
Damon’s jaw tightened instantly.
“I’m getting really tired of hearing that.”
For the first time since the reveal
Something flickered across Luca’s face.
Painful amusement.
Gone too quickly.
“You shouldn’t love me after this.”
Damon stepped closer again.
Slowly this time.
Giving Luca room to run if he wanted.
“That’s the problem,” Damon whispered.
Luca looked at him helplessly.
“I still do.”
The confession shattered whatever control Luca had left.
His face twisted violently as he looked away.
Breathing hard now.
Fighting something inside himself.
“Don’t,” he whispered.
But Damon kept going.
Because he needed Luca to hear this.
Needed him to understand.
“I hate what happened.”
A pause.
“I hate Hale.”
Another pause.
“And part of me doesn’t know what to do with this.”
Luca closed his eyes.
Like he expected the next words to kill him.
But Damon’s voice broke instead.
“…but I can’t hate you.”
Silence.
Absolute.
Luca looked destroyed by that answer.
More than anger.
More than blame.
Because forgiveness
Even incomplete forgiveness
Was something Luca never learned how to survive.
A tear slipped down his face before he could stop it.
He looked horrified by it immediately.
Damon’s chest cracked open.
Because Luca never cried.
Not really.
Not like this.
“I don’t know how to stay after this,” Luca admitted quietly.
Damon swallowed hard.
“Then learn.”
That almost broke Luca completely.
Almost.
But in the end
The damage was bigger than the love.
At least tonight.
Luca stepped backward one final time.
And Damon knew.
Really knew.
He was losing him.
Luca looked at Damon one last time.
Eyes shattered.
Voice barely holding together.
“…I loved you before I even knew why.”
Then he walked out into the storm.
Chapter 103The worst part?Neither was anyone else.Because the second Damon placed his hand behind Luca's chairThe entire room noticed.Every.Single.Person.Adrian noticed.Nova noticed.Seraphine noticed.Mira nearly dropped her drink.Cassian looked moments away from ascending into a higher plane of existence from pure entertainment.And LucaLuca definitely noticed.A faint tension appeared in his shoulders.Not discomfort.Awareness.Dangerous awareness.Adrian looked between them.Then slowly smiled.Ah.That kind of smile.The kind that said:I understand what's happening here.Damon immediately disliked him more.Which was impressive.Because he already disliked him a lot."So," Adrian said casually.Looking directly at Damon."How long have you two been together?"Silence.Catastrophic silence.The room froze.Someone in the corner actually choked.Cassian.Obviously.Luca blinked.Damon stared.Adrian frowned."What?"Nova covered her face."Oh my God."Seraphine immedia
Chapter 102Damon was running out of excuses.At first, he blamed stress.Then survival instincts.Then trauma.Then proximity.Now?Now he was simply lying to himself.Because there was only one reason his attention kept finding Luca.Only one reason his eyes searched every room until they landed on him.Only one reason jealousy burned every time someone else occupied Luca's time.And Damon was getting tired of pretending otherwise.The problem was Admitting it made everything real.And real things could be lost.That thought lingered with him throughout the next few days.The safehouse became strangely routine.Morning briefings.Research.Planning.Training.Normality.Or whatever passed for normal among a group of deeply damaged survivors.Unfortunately, routine also meant Damon and Luca spent more time together.Which helped absolutely no one.Especially Damon.The training area behind the safehouse had once been part of an old vineyard.Now it served as a makeshift practice fie
Chapter 101The mission file stayed hidden.Locked away.Buried beneath years of guilt and fear.But secrets had a way of breathing.Waiting.Patiently.Luca knew that better than anyone.Which was why every time Damon smiled at himEvery time Damon stood too closeEvery time Damon looked at him like he was something worth protectingThe guilt became harder to ignore.Because Damon didn't know.And Luca didn't know how to tell him.Or if he ever could.The next morning brought another briefing.Unfortunately.Because briefings meant people.And people meant Nova.Which meant Damon spent most of the meeting in a bad mood.A fact everyone noticed.Especially Cassian."You're pouting.""I'm not.""You absolutely are."Damon glared at him.Cassian looked delighted.Across the table, Nova casually stole a grape from Luca's plate.Damon's eye twitched.Immediately.Instantly.Luca noticed.Again.The tiny smile returned.Again.Traitor.Absolute traitor.Nova looked between them.Then grinn
Chapter 100He was jealous because he didn't want anyone else's.The realization should have alarmed Damon.InsteadIt settled into his chest with terrifying certainty.And that was somehow worse.The next morning began with shouting.Not unusual.What was unusual was that the shouting came from the roof.Again."WHY ARE YOU UP THERE?"Seraphine yelled from the yard.Cassian sat on the edge of the safehouse roof eating an apple."Fresh air.""YOU HAVE INTERNAL STITCHES.""They're internal.""That doesn't help!""It helps me."Damon stepped outside with a cup of coffee.Luca appeared beside him seconds later.Neither acknowledged the fact that they'd left the house at exactly the same time.Cassian immediately noticed.Of course he did.The recovering menace pointed his apple at them."There they are."Damon sighed."No.""Yes.""No."Luca looked toward the horizon.Pretending not to hear.Coward.A vehicle engine sounded from the road below.Everyone froze instantly.Instinct taking o
Chapter 99Someone Damon was beginning to think of as his.The realization followed him for the rest of the night.Like a shadow.Like a threat.Like a promise.And Damon hated it.Mostly because he didn't hate it enough.The dinner disaster eventually ended after Mira received approximately six conflicting explanations of what jealousy meant.None of them helpful.Especially Cassian's."Imagine someone stealing your favorite blanket.""That's not what jealousy is.""It absolutely is.""No.""Emotionally speaking, yes."Seraphine had eventually thrown a bread roll at him.Which improved nothing.Now the house was quiet.Mostly.Cassian was still arguing with Hale somewhere upstairs.Nobody knew why.Not even Hale.Damon stepped onto the back porch hoping for peace.Instead he found Luca already there.Of course.Luca sat on the wooden railing overlooking the dark vineyards.Moonlight silvered his hair.The night breeze shifted softly around him.And for one dangerous momentDamon simp
Chapter 98Luca didn’t want the moment to end.Which was exactly why it did.Because the universe clearly enjoyed tormenting him.“ARE THEY FINALLY KISSING?”Cassian’s voice echoed from somewhere inside the safehouse.A crash followed.Then Seraphine shouted:“GET BACK IN BED!”“TYRANNY!”“YOU HAVE THREE STITCHES LEFT HOLDING YOU TOGETHER!”“THAT SOUNDS LIKE A YOU PROBLEM!”Luca closed his eyes.Damon laughed beside him.And that laughThat stupid, warm laughMade Luca forget every terrible thing for half a second.Dangerous.Very dangerous.The next morning was worse.Because now Luca was aware of Damon.Painfully aware.Every glance.Every smile.Every time Damon stood too close.It was unbearable.The safehouse kitchen wasn’t particularly large.Yet somehow Damon always ended up beside him.Reaching over his shoulder.Brushing past him.Occupying entirely too much space.Luca was beginning to suspect it was intentional.“Coffee?”Damon asked.Luca accepted the mug.Their fingers br







