Mag-log inErsa
A soft knock at the door pulled me from my thoughts. Rose stepped inside, her usual cheerful energy in full force. “How was it, ma’am?” she asked brightly, expecting me to share her excitement.
All I wanted was for this to be over. I sat up and asked instead, “Are we allowed to speak with people from town?”
“Yes, you may. Would you like me to fetch someone for you?”
I wanted to say yes, but the thought that Conan might already be paired with Deni stopped me. I couldn’t impose.
“I’ll think about it,” I said, shaking my head.
“You should be more cheerful, ma’am! You’re going to meet the Alpha tonight!”
Those words lifted my spirits a little. I had never met the Alpha of our pack. I wasn’t interested in him romantically, but as the youngest leader named Alpha, it was a great honor.
“Ma’am, is that excitement I see?” Rose teased, poking my sides.
“I’m only looking forward to meeting the Alpha because of his achievements,” I replied, catching her finger in the process.
Well, if I was being honest, aside from the fact that he was the youngest Alpha and had kept our pack wealthy, I didn’t really know anything else about him.
“And I told you to call me Ersa,” I said, pushing her finger away.
Rose huffed dramatically. “If I’m being honest, Ersa… you’re beautiful, but your personality is far too bland! There’s no way the Alpha would even notice you.” She sighed, as if the idea pained her.
I chuckled. “Bland is healthier, Rose. If that’s what it takes for the Alpha not to notice me, then I’d rather stay bland.”
After all, I preferred to stay in the background, not the one being saved—or the one doing the saving.
Rose groaned and flopped onto the bed beside me. “But I need you to win. If you do, you’ll have me as your attendant, and that means less work for me.”
I laughed and lay down beside her. “Then you should have bet on Seraph or Lyanna. They’re much better choices.”
With both hands, she grabbed my cheeks and squeezed them. “That’s it! Just use that smile and you’ll surely captivate the Alpha.” She released me and stood up.
“I better find a sexy dress this instant!” she added, striding toward the closet.
I made a note to myself—smiling was definitely a big no.
When dinner came, Rose made me wear what she called “a black mermaid strapless satin dress with a slit.”
“Ersa!” Seraphine exclaimed the moment I stepped into the grand dining room, chandeliers sparkling above us. She was wearing a red dress that perfectly matched her bold, lively personality.
“You look beautiful, Seraph,” I said with a small smile.
“Gosh! If you were a ‘he,’ I’d have pounced on you for that compliment!” she teased, pretending to be shy. “Anyway… you look prettier.”
"Thank you." I sighed. “Do we really have to dress this nicely?”
“Of course! Think of it as a full-course meal, and we are the main dish served to the Alpha. We have to look the part,” she said, practically bouncing with excitement. “I wonder how tasty the Alpha is, though,” she added with a wink.
I couldn’t match her energy. Rose had been right—I was far too bland compared to these stunning women.
Then Seraph tugged me toward a chair. “Here, sit beside the Alpha,” she instructed with a playful shove.
“Why?” I asked.
“Come on! Obviously, he’ll look at me first—I’m the hottest here. Consider it giving you a little advantage,” she said, laughing.
In front of me sat Lyanna, and beside her was Everine. This time, the space between them was gone—it was clear both were angling for the Alpha’s attention.
“He’s here, oh my goddess!” Seraph squealed, practically vibrating with excitement.
We all stood as the double doors opened. I, however, kept my head lowered, fingers clutching my dress. No smiling. No talking. No eye contact.
I repeated the mantra in my mind: don’t get the Alpha’s attention. Not for even a second.
I heard the sound of footsteps beside me. The Alpha walked toward the head of the long table but stopped midway.
“Is that how you greet your Alpha, Soltharic?” His deep voice was calm, yet commanding, right beside me.
“I apologize,” I said, forcing an excuse. “I just deemed myself unworthy to look directly at you.” I raised my head and realized I had been holding my breath.
Something inside me whispered a single word: Mate.
There he was, tall and impossibly handsome, his mischievous smile sending a jolt straight through my chest.
The Alpha we were supposed to compete for… was my mate?
ErsaI kept pacing back and forth, just a few anxious steps away from the Alpha’s study. I had decided to visit him the moment I felt recovered enough to walk; I had to talk to him.Where should I begin? Thanking him, of course, but then how was I supposed to open the subject of my elimination? I rehearsed the words in my head.I couldn't stay idle for long. With a deep breath, I took one last step toward the door when it suddenly burst open. A slightly furious-looking Alpha came barreling out.He immediately began massaging his temples, radiating palpable frustration. He glared at the precise spot where I was standing. “Just knock, Soltharic.”“Pardon?” I stammered, completely startled."How do you expect me to work when your frantic, nervous scent has been assaulting my study for two hours straight?"I froze. I couldn't speak for a moment. I had never felt so utterly embarrassed and stupid at the same time. Right. The scent.“R-right. I wanted to speak with you,” I managed, still re
ErsaMy vision started blurry at first, until my surroundings finally swam into focus. I was in my own room.“You’re awake.” The voice came from beside me—the Alpha.“I have to admit, I can't say you're predictable, Soltharic.” He gave me a faint, almost weak smile."I didn't realize how desperately you wanted out. I respect your courage. For that bravery, I won't hesitate. I will grant your elimination." He offered the words with a slow smile.But why did he sound so melancholic? Why was he looking at me as if he didn't want to let me go? How was I supposed to react to that deep conflict in his gaze?Say yes. Just say yes, and it would end, Ersa.“I—”“Alpha.” It was the Beta who entered, his presence cutting sharply through the tension. “Alpha Ynovar has arrived.”"Right." He stood, already moving toward the door. "You need rest. I've disturbed you enough. I expect to discuss your elimination once you've regained your strength."Both men left the room, and I was left staring at the
ErsaI admit to myself that I was often a pushover, easily swayed, but never to this shocking extent. Yet, standing here, I couldn't abandon this opportunity for immediate freedom.“I never thought Ersa wanted to be the Luna that badly,” I heard Everine comment from the sideline.“Eh? Isn’t it more like she wants to get eliminated?” Seraph clarified, her laughter carrying a tone that suggested she understood the true, cynical reason behind my acceptance.Now, standing in front of what Madame Koraline had called the Vertical Ascent, I desperately wanted to wave my white flag. But I didn't. I forced myself to stand my ground as one of the Alpha’s soldiers signaled, “Go!”“You should withdraw, Soltharic,” he said, his voice dropping just low enough that it sounded genuinely worried to my ears. Why was he acting all casual now? For the past few days, it was as if I didn't even exist. No, I'm not feeling bitter.“I won’t, but you better keep your word,” I shot back.I quickly took a deep b
ErsaFive days later, Madame Koraline met us, instructing us in advance to wear clothing suitable for rigorous physical activities.“Today, we test control and endurance,” she announced with the same effortless, unreadable ease she had when she first introduced herself. “Catch.”In a blur, she simultaneously threw an object at each of the four of us. Instinctively, my hands shot up and closed over the soft, fragile surface.“An egg?” Seraph commented, inspecting the item we all held. “Shit.” She added, and I saw a small crack form on the shell in her hand, though it was tiny enough not to let the contents leak out.“It’s raw,” Madame Koraline informed us, a slight lift to one eyebrow.“Just how I like it,” Seraph replied with a confident wink. I couldn't help but shake my head, smiling slightly at her typical flippancy.Our Prefect didn't even bother wasting her breath scolding Seraph. She simply continued with her explanation.“Your mandate is deceptively simple: Do not let the egg c
Ersa“Ersa! Warming up already?” Seraph said from behind me. When I turned to look, she was wearing some kind of peculiar cloth.“Yes. That’s… new,” I replied, commenting on her outfit.“Oh, you noticed? I bought it from the human world last year. It’s called a hoodie.” She stood beside me and fell into a loose, energetic stretch. "Did you know even bikinis came from them? They’re absolute geniuses. Honestly, their creativity is phenomenal—if only they weren't our prey.”“Ugh, speaking of the human world, I really wanted to go this year. Unfortunately, no one has a say in Alpha Ynovar’s decision,”I started jogging, circling the mansion, and Seraph fell easily into step beside me. “Alpha Ynovar?” I asked. That name is exactly like our Alpha’s.“Yeah. The strongest known living Alpha. He’s like a century old! I heard his mate is one of them—a Vampire. The Princess, even!” Seraph informed me, her eyes bright with the excitement of pure gossip.“The Vampire Princess?” I admitted, the inf
ErsaYesterday was a shock for everyone; it was certainly the first I'd ever heard of the Fading.Fortunately, the morning brought better news: Lyanna had recovered. It seemed her affliction occurred only just before the full moon. Still, she wasn't accepting any visitors yet.As I headed toward the open field for a run, I unexpectedly collided with the Alpha. In a mansion this vast, the odds of running into him were astronomical—yet here he was. I didn't know how to face him yet.“I—” I stammered, but he cut me off.“Good day to you, Ms. Soltharic.” He gave me a single, flat glance and walked straight past me.What was up with him? I thought, instantly pouting.But what did I expect? I quickly corrected myself. He was just a male driven by primal instincts. If it had been any other woman in my position, he would have done the exact same thing, wouldn't he? I was just a convenient vessel for a momentary impulse.I shook my head, frustrated by the truth. I was thinking ill of the Alpha







