MasukHe nodded at Mac now, and walked over to the other man. Shane MacIntyre was hands-down the best neurologist that Sam had ever had the priviledge of working with, and although he had left the hospital to start his own private consulting practice – meaning that the man was rolling in cash, all his former colleagues presumed – he was still on-call for really bad cases that rolled into the E.R. Sarah Matthews had no idea how lucky she was that Mac had been among the first to see her after her brutal attack (Sam wasn’t sure where the connection lay, exactly, but based on his observations, it looked like Jax was Sarah’s boyfriend, and Mac was Jax’s friend), and Sam thanked every star twinkling above that Mac had been the one to bring her in. He’d started things up long before Sarah had hit the E.R., and that early care and intervention may have made all the difference for Sarah Matthews.
Or – based on her CT scans – maybe not. Maybe no matter what any of them did, there was not going to be any hope for this young woman.
God, Sam hated being the bearer of bad news.
Mac got to his feet, and King glanced up sharply. They all shot looks down the hall at Jax and Annie, but they were still totally absorbed in their conversation, but no way they would be for much longer. They had to talk, and fast.
“And?” Mac said brusquely, gesturing at the scans in Sam’s hand. “How bad?”
“Bad.” Sam gave Mac the x-rays, and Mac held them to the light, squinted, sighed. “You see it?”
“Fucking hell. Yeah.”
“Don’t say bad words,” Noah reproved him. “Sarah says that swearing is bad.”
“Sorry, Noah,” Mac said, giving him his trademark quirky grin. “Wanna wash my mouth out with soap?”
“Why would I do that?” Noah asked, clearly perplexed, as he clearly always was when he took things absolutely literally. “I like you, and soap doesn’t taste good.” He then returned his attention to his baseball cards and exited the conversation completely.
“See what?” King asked gesturing at the scans, keeping his voice low and his tone unconcerned for Noah’s sake, but trying to get the conversation back on track. “Anything very interesting?”
“Unfortunately, yes.” Mac handed the x-rays back to Sam. “Not overly surprising, considering everything, but… it’s a bad case, man. We’re going have to dig in and dig deep, for everyone’s sake. They’re going to need support. Trust me.”
“Whatever they need, they got it.” King’s voice was still warm, but his gray eyes were slate and steel. “All of ‘em.”
“Heads up,” Mac said suddenly. “Mother headed this way, and she’s on the warpath.”
“I’ll stay here,” King said, his tone jovial. “Noah? Want me to quiz you on your cards some more?”
“Yes,” Noah said. “Ask me about the players’ eye color.”
“Deal.” King nodded at Mac and Sam slightly. “Good luck.”
“I don’t need luck!” Noah said. “I just need my memory.”
“What’s her name?” Sam muttered under his breath as he and Mac hurried down the hall to meet Jax and the woman half-way. “Sarah’s Mom?”
“Annie,” Mac breathed back, close on his heels. “Annie Matthews.”
“Annie Matthews?” Sam said politely when they’d all reached each other.
“Yes.” She was tense and trembling, but her voice was steady. Her face was drawn and pinched, but it had a lovely curve to the cheekbones, a sensual curve to the lips. Sam saw her hands clasped tightly together, and was surprised by the sudden urge to gently take one. He refocused his thoughts, trying not to notice how beautiful and clear Annie’s blue eyes were. He sought refuge in the pedantic and familiar.
“I’m Doctor Sam Innis.”
“How’s Sarah?” she asked immediately.
Sam paused, feeling Jax’s dark green eyes boring a hole in his face, even as he kept his attention on Annie. “Mrs. Matthews, it’s very bad news.” He started to move back to the sofa that she and Jax had just abandoned. “Do you want to sit down?”
“No.” She practically spat out the word, then right away, as if she regretted her harsh tone, she softened a bit. “Tell me, please.”
Sam nodded, then launched into sentences and sentiments that he’d rattled off a hundred times, a thousand times – far, far too many times:
“She has a very serious head injury, I’m afraid, and it’s caused her brain to swell. This swelling is pushing down on Sarah’s brain stem, specifically on her RAS – the Reticular Activating System.”
Jax and Annie stared at him, utterly clueless and silent. Beside Sam, Mac sighed deeply. He knew what this meant, of course; God, did he ever. He knew that it meant that Sarah’s life was hanging in a delicate balance – far more delicate than Sam wanted Annie to know right this minute. After all, there was still a hope – slim, but it existed – that things might have turned around a bit by the morning.
“What does that mean?” Annie asked Mac and Sam, those incredible eyes wide with confusion. “What’s a rectangular what's-it system?”
“The RAS is responsible for awareness in the brain,” Mac said, and Sam happily acquiesced to the other man’s superior knowledge about anything to do with the human brain. “When it’s compromised or damaged, a person is rendered unconscious. And when it’s being pushed on – like when a person’s brain is severely swollen – then the person can’t wake up.”
Sam tucked Cindy into bed, kissed her on the top of her head. She'd slept through visiting the babies, which would annoy her greatly in the morning, he knew. But she was exhausted, and so he'd just make sure that she got to the hospital early the next day.He went out to the living room, saw Annie starting to peel the packing tape off the boxes. He quickly went over to her, took her hands."Nah, honey. Wait until the morning, OK?""Oh, I'm not ready to go to sleep," she told him. "I'm way too keyed up from meeting my beautiful grandbabies. I'll be up for a while.""Good."She cocked her head at him. "Good?""Yes, princess. Good.""Why good?""Because I want to talk to you.""Oh." She blinked up at him, a bit puzzled. "Um... OK."Without a word, without letting go of her hands, Sam slowly sank to his knees on the floor in front of her. Annie gasped and he smiled. They were both disheveled and dusty, and they were surrounded by towering piles of cardboard boxes, and he knew that his hai
Five hours later, the hospital waiting room was packed with Jax and Sarah's anxious friends and family. Jax had come out of the delivery room an hour earlier and told everyone that Sarah's doctor had decided that she needed a Caesarian after all. He'd been worried and distracted, and everyone had offered their words of support. He'd nodded, then dashed back to his wife.King turned to Sam now. “Shouldn't it be done?"“If everything went fine, then yes." Sam cuddled a sleeping Cindy closer as she sighed and moved around a bit. He dropped his voice. “They'll have to check the babies, then Sarah and Jax will get time alone with them. The doctor will want Sarah to have skin-to-skin time, maybe try feeding them. I say give it another hour."“Can we ask?" Curtis growled, his large hand on Tessa's stomach. She was due in three months, and she was watching all of this unfold with barely-restrained panic. Curtis knew that his wife was suddenly imagining all kinds of complications with her own
One year later Annie held the front door of Sam's house and stood aside, trying to flatten herself against the wall as much as humanly possible. Sam, Noah, Mac, and Jax staggered past, loaded down with boxes of her stuff. They were closely followed by Sarah, who waddled as quickly as her protruding stomach allowed.“OK, sweetie?” Annie asked her daughter as she shut the door against the pouring rain. “You need something?"“The bathroom," Sarah grumbled. “Again. Jesus, being pregnant means peeing twenty-three hours a day, doesn't it?"“Sure does," Jax said to his wife, setting down the boxes. “I think you've admired the inside of every bathroom in Denver.”Sarah's glare almost knocked him over backwards. “This is all your fault," she hissed at him as she toddled to the bathroom. “You're the one who wanted twins. 'It'll be fun to have two at once', you said. 'One pregnancy, two babies', you said. Well, the last time I checked, Hamill, you weren't the one who had to carry them around
Annie took a shaky breath, but said nothing.“If you can't be a Mom to my daughter, I understand. I promise you, I do, and it's OK. It doesn't change a damn thing for me though, princess, because I want you in my life, in my bed. You could live in your house, and I'd live with Cindy in mine, and we'd see each other whenever you wanted. I could arrange for a babysitter overnight and stay with you, or you could come stay with me. I'm good either way. I can tell you that you'd be the only woman in my life, that I'd be with nobody but you... we'd be together in every way that mattered, but you wouldn't have to take on any responsibilities. You'd still be free.”Tears were rolling down her cheeks now. Sam's face tightened and he brushed them away.“Why are you crying?” he asked softly. “Why are you sad?”“Oh, Sam. I'm not sad.”“No?”“No.” She shook her head, managed a tiny smile. “I want to be there for both of you. I want to help raise that strong, beautiful little girl.”“You do?” Sam s
“How is Cindy doing?” she asked. “Is she sleeping through the night yet?”“Yes,” he replied, and she heard the relief in his voice. “No more nightmares.”“Oh, thank God.” Annie hesitated. “Is she still talking about her Mom?”“Yes. Not every day, but a few times a week, for sure. Not so much asking where Kathleen is or why she left, though. Now it’s more stuff like, ‘Mommy loved this TV show’ or ‘Mommy used to make me this sandwich’.”“It sounds like she’s got Kathleen in the past. Like she died and Cindy’s remembering her.”“I know. I talked to the therapist about it, and she said that’s a healthy response, at least for now. It gives Cindy some distance to process what happened, and to gain some perspective on her current reality. Soon enough, she’ll realize that Kathleen is still out there somewhere, and that’s when I expect she’ll start asking questions again.”“What does the therapist say about them having a relationship?”“She says that in her experience, mothers who abandon thei
Sam watched Annie walk away from Noah, walk across the dance floor. Walk over to him. She looked so beautiful in that pale pink dress, the shade just soft enough to complement and not clash with her hair. Her makeup was subtle and elegant, her hair was framing her heart-shaped face, and she was moving with a regal grace that stole his breath.His princess.Dear God, how he’d missed her.And suddenly there she was in front of him, a bit taller than usual in higher heels than she’d ever worn with him before, but still looking up at him. He grappled for the words to begin this conversation, and she seemed to know that he needed a few seconds, because she just stood there and waited.It occurred to Sam just how much waiting Annie had done for him. Oh, five weeks wasn’t forever, that was true, but it wasn’t about the time, was it? It was about the intensity of events that had unfolded, the avalanche of things that had washed down and over them, and most of all, about the pain of just not k







