CHAPTER NINETEEN

Kendall

Life hates me. That's all I can say. How can it love me when I tried to end the pain, and it stopped me. The world would have been a way ... better place. Just as my mother said. The universe just had to involve itself and decide against me dying. Just because it enjoys seeing me suffer. Why did Lance have to save me? He should have just let me die. At least his life would have been better. I inhaled ... then exhaled.

"How are you feeling sis?" Russell asked, interrupting my thoughts. I sat up and faced him.

"I just wanted to die. Why can't you guys just make me die?! Your life would be so much better!" I screamed fisting myself in the head.

"Don't say that! Please ... " He lowered his head and grabbed my hand. "This is all my fault Kendall. I should have never allowed this to go this far. I should never have made you marry that man. I should have been a better brother, but instead I sat around praying that maybe, just maybe things would get better. I thought that somehow L