I took a deep breath, closed my eyes and lay down on my bed, and thought about what happened because it is impossible that it will be gone just like that. Unless it turns into a zombie but the zombie is not real or maybe he is not real; I mean there is really no dead man’s body under my bed and it is all inside my head but it is impossible because I touched it and I felt it. I really did. I open my eyes again and check the time. It is almost 10:00 a.m. and Devon will be here in a minute so I need to hurry up.
I took a bath and wore my usual clothes that I am wearing going to school. The sneakers, shirt and pants, and my backpack. I let my hair dry first before I tied it while still thinking about what happened? because I can’t really get over it. I looked at myself in the mirror after I fixed my hair and took a deep breath. I looked pale and stressed. That is why I put a little make-up on my face to cover the stress. I put red matte lipstick on too so I don't look pale.
After a moment. Nana Salve is calling me, telling me that Devon is already waiting for me. That is why I put my things inside my bag and hurriedly went out of my room.
“Bye, mom,” I said and kissed my mom on her cheek
“Take care and enjoy,” She said
“Bye, Nana,” I said to Nana Salve and kissed her on her cheek too.
“Bye, you enjoy your class,” She said and I went out and left.
Devon and I were walking to school like we always do. Walking to school and walking home together. He noticed that I am quiet because of what happened and I can’t get it out of my head. I feel like I was being played by my eyes or by my brain. I recall the whole thing that happened and I am sure that I really touched the body. I felt it with my bare hand and I am sure of it that I am not dreaming or imagining because of course, who will imagine that there’s a dead body under her bed? It’s weird and gross.
“Are you alright?” Devon asked me when he noticed that I am still quiet and I am thinking something deep. It was the second time he asked if I was alright.
“Yes, I am fine” I lied
“Is there something bothering you?” He asked again. I just looked at him and didn’t answer.
“Here's chocolate… eat it so that you will have energy,” He said and he gave me a mini chocolate bar from his pocket.
“Thank you,” I said and I opened it and ate the chocolate. I put the wrapper inside my pocket and I will throw it later if I see a bin because I don’t want to just throw it everywhere.
“So, are you alright now?” He asked again and that made me laugh because the sound of him is like, eating one mini bar of chocolate can set your mood right away.
“You are so cute,” I said.
“Oh thanks, because you are so serious,” He said and he gave me a chocolate bar again and he told me to open it. Which I want to save for later since I am not a “sweet tooth” person. Sweet food, candies, and chocolate can hurt my throat easily especially if there is no water to drink. That is why if I eat sweets I see to it that I have water to wash the sweets in my throat but this time that Devon wants me to eat another chocolate. I opened the wrapper and I was surprised because I found a note inside and it was handwritten. How did he open the wrapper and put the note inside and seal it again? I read the note and I blushed when Devon wrote:
“I love you… can you be my girlfriend?”
I looked at him after reading it and he couldn't look at me. I know he is shy because of what he did. He is blushing.
“And what is the meaning of this?” I asked him while showing him the note and looking at him while he can’t look at me and he can’t answer.
“Okay, I will throw this paper away… thanks for your chocolate then,” I said. Pretending that I will throw the paper. I pretend to crumple it while looking at him because I want to see his reaction.
“No,” He said while holding my hand and looking at me face to face. He grabs me closer to him and his face almost-kisses mine.
“I know it’s crazy but… I want you to be my girlfriend,” He said. Now I am blushing and I feel like I want to scream but I stop myself.
“But I am already your girl friend,” I said
“Seriously? you’re my girlfriend now?” He asked again because he couldn't believe in what I said.
“Yes, I am your girl friend… girl and friend… girl friend” He let me go and he looked like he was dismayed by my answer and I wanted to laugh at him because he is so cute.
“I want you to be my girlfriend… More than a friend” He said which makes me laugh now. I didn’t answer because that is what I wanted too but I am scared to be hurt. I am scared that one day he will leave me because I am not ordinary. I am weird and a loser. My glow is gone since my Jayvee died and I feel so different. I feel like I am no longer connected to the world.
We didn’t notice that we are already at the school. We walk straight to the mango tree because it is not time yet and we sit on the bench and put our bags down on the ground. I never talked since he asked me to be his girlfriend and he apologized about that because he thinks that he scared me of his question.
“No, that is fine… I… I … am just scared to commit right now… because I feel like… I feel like there’s something in me that I need to figure out first” I told him and I hope he understands.
“Well let’s figure it out together,” He said, still pushing to be my boyfriend. I took a deep breath and looked at him. Maybe he doesn't understand that I am not the same anymore since the accident happened and I don’t want him to be part of me since I haven’t figured out what's going on with me. Our friendship is enough for me as of now.
“I love you so much and let me prove it to you to the next level”
“Devon”
“I know that you love me too” and I remain silent because he is right. He looked me in the eye and he told me to look into his eye. So that is what I do and now we were looking eye to eye.
“Tell me that you are not in love with me while looking into my eyes and I will stop,” He said and I looked into his eyes but I can’t tell him that I don’t love him because I do love him. I looked away and avoided his eyes but he held my chin. That made my heart beat fast and he made me look at him again.
“Do it” He dared. “And I will stop,” He whispered. I feel like I want to cry while looking into his eyes because I don’t know if I will be happy that he loves me or I will be sad because he is offering it to me at the wrong time but when is the perfect time? There is no perfect time for love. It will come if it will come.
“Once you say it… it’s done… I will stop and we will remain as friends” He said but I can’t. It’s hard and that makes me uneasy.
“Say it” He said and now he is pressuring me.
I shook my head and told him I am sorry and I grabbed my bag because I want to go now and leave him for making me uneasy but he grabbed my hand and pulled me that made me sit again beside him, and he suddenly kissed me on my lips and wrapped his arms around me as he will never let me go whatever happens. I dropped my bag back on the ground because I was surprised by his kiss. I didn’t expect that he would kiss me torridly on my lips. I can’t refuse his kiss that is why I kissed him back unexpectedly. His soft, sweet lips tell me that everything will be fine because he is here with me now and his warm embrace tells me that I don’t need to be scared because he will protect me. The kiss that says it all and now I cannot deny that I want to be his girlfriend.
“See? you love me too,” He said. After we kiss.
“I do… but I am not yet ready,” I said and I still feel uneasy because I don’t know if I still need to stop it or just let it go. I know myself and everything that is happening to me right now. I am scared that I will hurt him in the end because I feel like I am not the same as I was before. I don’t want our friendship to be ruined. He matters to me.
“Why?” He asked,
“I am not the right girl for you” He looked at me like he was not satisfied with my answer, because he knows the truth and he can feel it.
“Because I love you so much that it makes me scared to lose you… that someday you will leave me because I am weird… I am not an ordinary person…and I don’t feel the same since the accident happened… I feel like half of me is gone… I feel like I am no longer connected to the world” I told him because I want him to understand why I don’t want to be his girlfriend but he laughed at my reason and looked at me after he laughed at what I said.
“The ‘not ordinary person’ is for the ‘not ordinary love’ and you are not going to lose me for that… because I love you accidentally, and half of me is gone because it is with you now… and I am ready to be weird with you,” He told me while looking into my eyes.
I don’t know what to say because I feel a butterfly in my stomach that makes me blush again and I can’t deny it now.
“So… Can you be my girlfriend?” He asked me and he held my hand and looked into my eyes again. I took a deep breath and answered “Yes”
“Yes!” He shouted in an instant that the whole campus could hear because of his joy when he heard my answer and said YES to him and now I am officially his girlfriend. He grabbed me near to him and kissed me on my lips again.
“You will never regret being my girlfriend,” He told me sincerely, which made me smile.
I know that I love Devon and I am just denying it because I am still thinking about Jayvee and I know it would be unfair to Devon if I am still thinking of Jayvee. That is why I can’t commit to Devon but now I can’t say ‘no’ to him even though I tried to stop my feelings for him. He said he loves me so much and he is ready to be weird with me but until when? I hope he knows what he is saying because I don’t want our friendship to go to waste if he will just leave me at the end because he can’t take me anymore.
He hugged me and I hugged him back when I suddenly saw Jayvee standing behind Devon while I was hugging him. He is smiling at me. Showing me that he is happy for me now. He is still wearing the same clothes that he was wearing before the accident and it seems that it is fine with him if I will have a new boyfriend, a new love. My tears suddenly fell from my eyes and I closed my eyes because I suddenly missed him. He is the last man that I hugged before Devon and when I opened my eyes again. He is gone.
I didn’t expect that I would be Devon’s girlfriend in an instant because being in a relationship is not in my plan yet, especially with him. I need to fix my life first. I need to fix myself but I am already his girlfriend and I know I will break his heart if I break up with him and I don’t want that to happen because I will be hurt too. I don’t want to see him hurting especially if I am the one who is causing him pain because I will be hurt more if I hurt him but since I am already his girlfriend. I will let it be the way he wanted it to be. I will go with the flow even though I know that only dead men go with the flow. I will still do it because I know loving him is not a mistake and besides, I have Jayvee’s approval so I have nothing to worry about.Since I am already his girlfriend. I decided to tell him about what happened but skipped the part where I saw th
We decided to go to Luna and asked for help again from her about the dead man that I thought was under my bed. That is why I message my mom that they don’t need to wait for me for dinner because I will be a little late. I told her that she doesn't need to worry because I will just go to a friend’s house and I will never leave the subdivision. I also told her I am safe because I am with Devon and told her the good news that Devon and I are officially boyfriend and girlfriend now and she replied. “Congratulations” Because I know how she wants me to move on about Jayvee’s death. That is why she is in favor of me having a boyfriend again.Ding dong!Ding dong!
I fall and fall and fall and I keep on falling and falling until my back hits the floor but I don’t feel any pain. I wasn’t hurt. I looked around and I knew I was in a different house. The house is simple. All the walls were painted white and there’s no picture frames hanging. Only a big wall clock and I can hear the ticking of it. I can hear the sound of it every time the hands of the wall clock move. I looked around again to find anything but I couldn't find anything. Except for the mini table with a flower at the center. The house is so plain and nothing special. I found a door and I tried to open it but I couldn’t open it. I heard voices talking at the open door at the corner. I went there to see who was there and I found a woman who is the same age as mine with a man who I think is the same age as Devon. They are watching T.V. with a boy sitting in between them which I think is eight years old. I watched with them when the
Devon walked me home. I didn’t know that it was already midnight. The street is quiet and the neighbors are already sleeping. I feel so tired and my head is aching and until now I still can’t believe what I saw. I feel like I time travel to the past because I see what happened to them and why can’t they rest in peace until now. We reached home and the lights are already off and the door is closed but I know it is not locked because I am not yet home. I slowly opened it and looked inside. I am right they are already sleeping now. I looked at Devon who was waiting for me to kiss him goodnight but I feel like I don’t want him to go home because until now I can still see horrible scenes in my head that make me scared.“Can you stay with me even for one night?” I asked him. I want him to sleep beside me because I am scared.
Starting from that day, we want to look for an answer to my question about the girl. Things changed and I feel like I am not alone anymore. Not because I have Devon but I feel like there is someone who is always following and watching me. I feel like we opened a door from the past even though it was already three days ago. It is still fresh in my head and in my heart. The cries of the Olson and the girl; I heard it every night or even when I am alone in a silent room. The eerie sound of the car crash irritates my ears. The whisper of the mother that keeps on whispering in my ears and the laughter of the rapist while they are raping the child before they killed her. Makes me sleepless and restless. I feel like it will break my sanity if I do not solve her case as soon as possible.I stood up and took the incense from my cabinet that Luna gave me. I lit it up to calm my head even for a while an
WE REMAIN SILENT. I am waiting for him because I know what he means and I feel nervous, excited and I can’t explain. I have this euphoric feeling because his sweet but flirty stare makes me sexy. The whole room feels hot and steamy. My sweat is coming out one by one. I can’t look at him directly because I feel uneasy and excited at the same time. He didn’t say a word but his silence and the way he stared at me says it all. I noticed that I was facing him with my panties showing up. That is why I immediately closed my legs, which makes him laugh and shake his head. He continued staring at me because he knows that I am melting by his stare. I am getting high because of MJ and I know he is high too. I can see it in his eyes that energize me by his stare. He makes me feel sexy, he makes me feel horny, he makes me wet but I need to hold it because I know this is not the right time. The smell of MJ filled the room and he stood up to lock t
After what we did, now it’s time to focus on our project. We need to research our subject and document it. We went to Luna’s house because we wanted to do it there. We want to ask Luna’s help with our subject. I know it would be easy for her because she is an expert in connecting to the dead. We brought our cellphones, laptop, pen, papers, and anything that would help us in our research.“Yes?” She asked when she opened the gate.“Oh the love birds,” She said and she was surprised to see us because she didn’t expect that we would come.“Can you help us… again?” Devon asked but she just looked at us and “Please” Devon begged.“
Our gorgeous friend Luna, let us borrow her car. Good thing that her car is orange and I don’t have a fear of riding in it. I didn’t know that Devon could drive. He cannot just drive me crazy but he can drive a car too and he will be more handsome because of that. We prepare the things that we need and I bring cash for the gas. I sat in the passenger’s seat. I buckle up and Devon does the same too. He turned on the engine and he turned on the radio too. The song matches us. A beautiful song by Stephen Speaks, “Passenger’s seat”. He started driving and he started singing too. It became more beautiful when he started singing it. I didn’t know that he had such an amazing voice. His voice is so relaxing when he sings. I close my eyes while facing the window when I suddenly remember Jayvee.