VERA’S POV
“No. I wanted to teach you how painful it was when a man uses you merely for sexual pleasure, with no feelings attached. That’s what that kiss was, purely physical, zero feelings.”…
I bit my lip at the memory of his words. I guess I deserved that. I had wanted to know what it felt like to be one of Nathan’s girls, and now I did.
Nathan had come back to check how I was doing a while later, and maybe, my senses had come back then, because I apologized for kissing him, and thanked him for taking care of me at the party.
My heart had been thudding against my chest as I spoke, and a hidden corner buried deep in my heart had hoped our kiss would open up a conversation about feelings, that I would be bold enough to tell him about my crush on him, how afraid I had been to speak up, and maybe – just maybe, he would tell me he felt the same way. But Nathan’s eyes had become unreadable as he dropped the bombshell about our entire making out being purely physical for him. It wasn’t for me – it meant everything to me, I wanted to tell him, but I simply nodded, and we both agreed it should never happen again.
I got up on my feet, pushing the dark musings off my mind, and went to find my best friend. Nathan was still the best friend I had, and the only other person apart from Rachel I had in the world.
My parents had died when I was seven, or there about, I don’t remember them much, but my older brother, Jason, older than me with five years had refused to let us go into the orphanage. He had insisted we go to an old woman who lived on the other side of town, and ask her to pretend to be our granny. He had also been saving money, so that when he turned eighteen, he applied to be my legal guardian, then we both moved to Florida.
Jason had met Nate, and they both became best of friends – something about Jason saving Nate’s life, then they both teamed up to make my life a misery, scaring away any boy that so much as looked my way.
I had not been very angry then, because I had a mad crush on Nathan, from the first day I saw him with his jet black hair, chiseled face, full generous and yet firm lips, and midnight blue eyes. He was the stuff Disney romance movies were made up, and yet the tattoos that crisscrossed his arms gave him more of an edge than any Disney story could give him. I also noticed immediately how he much he was feared around town by grown men and boys alike, and it only made me more obsessed with him.
I had hid my obsession with Nathan though. At first, it would have only made Jason angry, then Jason had died, and Nathan got it into his head that it was his responsibility to take care of me – I hated him for that. Why didn’t he just see me like his equal, like other girls? At least, I would have had a fighting chance, a chance to make him fall in love with me. But instead, whenever he looked at me, all he probably saw was Jason’s little thirteen year old sister – but I was not that girl anymore. I was eighteen now, I was a grown woman!
I caught sight of the mirror on my way out of the room, and I winced. I looked like a crazy zombie. My dark hair was in disarray – and not the sexy kind of disarray like they show in the movies, it looked simply – awful. Nate’s shirt was rumpled, and my eyes made it obvious that I had been crying. My lips – my mouth was another thing I did not want to think about. I felt a hot blush creep up my cheeks as I thought about the reason for the swell in my lips – well that, at least was something.
Nathan was no where to be found, and I didn’t want to call out to him, because my throat felt hoarse, so I just kept ambling around his mansion, looking for him.
I heard the low baritone of his voice behind a closed door, the door leading to the kitchen, and without thinking, I pressed my head against the door.
“That’s not a problem man. The products were stolen, but I’d find out who, or I’d replace them –” He drew on a sharp breath “Do I need to remind you who you’re talking to – no you shut the fuck up! You paid for products, and they would be delivered at the said time.”
I heard the click of the phone, and knew the other person had hung up. Confused, I was about to open the door and ask him what all that was about. What did he mean by ‘products,’ when he picked another call. This time, it was anger, not confusion I felt as I listened to my best friend tell his junkie of a mother that he’d try to pay off yet another huge debt he had accumulated.
When I opened the door and stepped in, Nate’s head was bent a little, and he was absently flickering his phone. He raised his head, and the dark blue eyes gave me a once over. When he spoke, his voice sounded tired. “Vera – do you want me to drop you off at your place –”
I shook my head and stepped further into the room. Pressing myself against him, I wrapped him in a tight embrace. “It’s okay. I’ve got you.”
He tried to push me away at first, but I only tightened my arms around him. “I’ve got you Nathan – I’m you’re best friend remember? And we’re each all we’ve got.” He let go then, and tears pricked my eyes as his body finally relaxed into mine.
His voice was low, and still sounded tired. “Thank you Vee – and I’m sorry for ruining your social life – I guess you can have a boyfriend if you want – but only one?” He raised his head then to stare at me, and a bit of the old annoying Nathan was back.
I rolled my eyes. “Yeah – since I’ve not seen one gut that’d be stupid enough to ask me to be his girlfriend, I’d just go get four –”
A look of intimidating anger entered his eyes, and Nathan got to his feet. His hands still remained around me, making me understand the anger was not directed against me, even if it was directed at me.
“Vee, the best decision a man – a boy, any male would ever make would be to offer you a place in his life.” His eyes searched mine, and something in his expression made me blush and look away in shyness. “You’re the most beautiful woman I’ve ever met, and it’s not just physical beauty, your inner beauty radiates, your kindness, innocence – your sweetness. Don’t let anyone ever tell you that you don’t deserve the best, because you do – damn! No man in this world is good enough for you. So stuck that into your head, and stop this self depreciating humor, it’s not funny anyways.”
I nodded and was silent as he found his keys, then we got in his car and drove off. I don’t think I would have been able to speak even if I wanted to. My throat felt too tight with emotion, and I think my cheeks were very red. You’re the one I want Nate, I wanted to tell him, but of course, I held my tongue.
Nate had probably chucked our kiss down as me merely experimenting what it felt like to be kissed – he said there had been no feelings attached. How would he feel if I told him I had been dreaming of that kiss since I was thirteen!
I sighed and drew in a long breath. I could never let Nathan find out about my feelings for him. Maybe now he felt I should have a boyfriend, it was better for me to get one – at least, if I had a boyfriend, it would be more difficult for him to guess my feelings for him.
There was also the issue of the phone call I overheard. What ‘products’ was he referring to? I couldn’t shake off the feeling there was something fishy somewhere, and I was going to get to the bottom of it.
VERA'S POV I looked at Nathan's polo on the bed. I liked wearing it, but I couldn't wear it home. So, I searched around for my dress. Where had I dropped it when I … Heat rose in my cheeks as I remembered I hadn't removed my clothes by myself. It would be the lecherous son of a bitch that drugged my drinks. What would I wear home now? Right at that moment, the door opened and Nathan walked in, or tried to anyway. But he froze when he saw me naked, apologized and walked out coolly. In that split second where he realized I was naked, my mind kept screaming at me to jump at him and see his reaction. Perhaps….just perhaps, he would forget... But I couldn't gather my courage for it. I sighed when the door closed after him. That would have been the most stupid decision of the year, and I've made very stupid decisions, like kissing Nathan. He probably has girls throwing themselves at him all the time, clothed or otherwise, and would be no stranger to it. I would ju
VERA'S POV "Are you there?" Rachel's voice came over the phone, cutting through my dismay. "Yeah, yeah," I said, flustered. There was a suspicious "uh huh," at the other end of the line, followed by a pause and a giggle. "Wait…Vee, are you just coming back from your crush's party?" Rachel asked. "Um…yeah…" There was a squeal at the other end. "Hurray! It was all night?" she asked breathlessly. "Yeah…," I wanted to tell her I didn't even know when the party was over, seeing as I was knocked out, but she speared on. "Wow!" she squealed again. "You're a big girl now, Vee. You're leaving me behind," she giggled madly. "How was it? Wait, you haven't told me who it is, have you? Which boy wasn't at school today too?" I held my breath. Rachel groaned in frustration. "Gosh. They're too many that didn't come to school today. You will tell me who it was and all about it when you come to school, won't you?" she asked breathlessly. I groaned mentally. I
VERA’S POV I slouched on the couch, my eyes on the door through which Rachel had just left and thought about the conundrum. That was one bridge I wouldn't wait till I got to it before thinking how to cross it. Nathan was like a big brother, so just talking with him shouldn't be much of an issue. But for some reason, I felt like talking about the products with him wouldn't be just talking. Sighing, I stood up. With Nathan, talking about his business was uncharted territory. His professional life had always been something he kept to himself, so I didn't really know how to broach the topic with him. Well, I would just let my mind work it out while I go replenish my supplies. I hate not having any food in the house as I usually get hungry at midnight. I took my credit card, purse and a paperback novel before walking out of the room. Thirty minutes later, I stood before a large store with glass doors. I returned a red haired store attendant's wave before pushing the
VERA’S POVMartha, Beth and I exchanged a look. "That would be me, sir —" Martha said before we could talk, but we both interrupted her. "No. That would be me sir, and I'm sorry," Beth and I said at the same time. We looked at each other and had to bite back a smile. Martha was already in a lot of trouble with the manager and he might fire her. The manager looked at the three of us in confusion. "Who?" he asked. "Me," all three of us replied again. His face clouded over. "Are you playing with me?" he growled. Then he turned to Freya. "Which of them, baby?" he asked her. Freya pointed at me. The manager turned to me, and I could see he was conflicted. We were not really on bad terms, and I was one of his best employees. "You?" he asked me. "Seems like a week off has made you forget how to treat customers. No days off for you till I'm satisfied," he said. By the side, Martha rolled her eyes, which was a feat of its own, but Freya looked very dissat
VERA'S POV They went at it for a few seconds more before realizing they had company. Both their faces turned to me and while the lady's face heated up in embarrassment, Nathan's face hardened in irritation. "Um…sorry?" I said, my own face heating up as well. I hurriedly backed out of the door, slamming it in my haste. Gosh, is there some bleach for the brains? If you don't have that, I could make do with that memory eraser from men in black. I waited till I was sure they must be dressed, then knocked on the door just to be extra sure. "You can come in now!" Nathan's voice called from inside, a little gruffy. I walked back in cautiously because…just in case. The girl was nowhere to be found, but Nathan was sitting on the couch, still half naked. He had on his shorts, but nothing else. I couldn't help taking in the nice view. I had seen him half dressed before, but that was way back when he was still in high school and I in middle school. He hadn't devel
VERA We both watched her walk out the door, then Nathan turned to me. His face was set, and I recognized the angry protector look he gets on him sometimes. "Now, you, don't even try to feed me that bullshit. What's between you and her?" I opened my mouth for some smart retort but none came to mind. This was just like Nathan. Any other person would have known what the problem was, but not Nathan. To him, all women were the same and for the same purpose. Hell, I wasn't even sure he remembered she was the same lady he had made walk out of his party topless just the night before. I sighed in frustration. "Just another lady your attention to me is making jealous," I replied. "Poor her, then," he replied dismissively. "Please, could you stop calling me your kitten in front of your female friends?" "Acquaintances," he corrected. Then he smiled brightly. "You know that's not happening, baby. So, what's it you need?" I gulped. Could we go back to discus
VERA I had just returned from Amelia's birthday party and was full of the party spirit. It had been very fun, and Amelia had called me her best friend, much to Thalia's displeasure. That alone had made the part worth it. I had rushed back home, eager to share everything that happened at the party with my mother. But now, I stood at the door knocking, and she didn't answer. I continued knocking, the excitement from the party replaced by a growing sense of unease. Each unanswered rap on the door echoed through the silent house. "Mom?" I called, my voice trembling. No response. I twisted the doorknob, my heart pounding, and the door creaked open. The darkness inside seemed thicker than usual, swallowing the familiar contours of our home. As I stepped in, an ominous chill hung in the air. The living room was shrouded in shadows, and an eerie silence clung to the walls. "Mom?" I called again, my voice now barely a whisper. The only reply was the echo of my own fe
VERAThe car pulled up before the store. The ride had been pleasant, not like yesterday when he drove me back to my apartment. We were back to teasing and joking with each other now and I was somewhat sorry when the car stopped moving. But, hey. I had not seen Martha and Beth for almost two weeks now, and yesterday had been spoiled by Freya. So, I got the door open, got out of the car and turned to wave him goodbye. I froze when I saw he was out of the car too and a bad sense of foreboding came over me. "You're not thinking of following me into the store, are you?" I asked, narrowing my eyes at him. "The door is just four feet away, for Christ's sake! And you promised," the last sentence came out more as a sulky pout than I would have liked. "To stop my assholeness?" he asked, smirking annoyingly. "I will, trust me. But only when you have got yourself a boyfriend to look after you," My eyes widened, and I felt a little childish at the anticipation I felt. It shouldn't b