YOO-MI’s POV
Jeonghan helped me get inside the bathroom to clean myself again after our fight. He carried me back inside the room and laid me on his bed. I heard him rummaging around in the closet as the sun sets over the mountains. The night has fallen.I felt his fingers graze my skin as he removed the towel on my body. He put on his shirt on me, something with long sleeves covered my body as I laid back down. It smelled like him. Just like him. He pulled out the towel and threw it in the basket together with his dirty clothes.My hands reached for him as soon as I felt his side of the bed dipped. He’s warm, feverish. I could feel the weight on his shoulders as I scooted closer. I wanted to be closer to him, right next to him.The moment my head found his chest, it felt like every broken piece of my heart was instantly healed.“We need to talk,” I exhaled as his hand rubbed the back of my head. The other links with mine on his stomaYOO-MI’s POV“Jeonghan..” I whispered. I couldn’t think straight. I couldn’t believe this was happening.The first man that I loved, my first kiss, my first heartbreak, my first in everything was setting me free.“Why?” my voice broke. I shouldn’t be asking him but I want to know.“Why?” Jeonghan repeated. His voice was shaky and trembling. “Why not Yoo-Mi? You’re happy now with Josh. You’re happy without me, you can live without me and I am too. I had lived without you. You don’t need someone like me who’s coward, useless, and mentally unstable.”“You had lived without me, but were you happy?”“It doesn’t matter if I was happy or not. I’m alive, see? Without you.”It’s different now that he was saying goodbye in front of me. it’s different and it means more and hurts more, it hurts like hell.“I
YOO-MI’s POVJeonghan’s hand found my chin and he lifted my face. I gave him a small smile, decided that I don’t really want to talk about this. I closed the remaining space between us and kissed his lips. They still tasted like him. Minty, dark, and dangerous.This is dangerous. Too dangerous for my heart. We should stop.But I don’t want to.His arms wrapped around my waist and he walked me backward until my calves hit the bed and I fell back, floating through the air, finally landing somewhere warm and soft. I think I’ve been falling for a long time.I felt his hands wrapped around my knees as he spread me wide open. I felt another tear escape as he settled between my legs, kissed each hip bone, my inner thighs, my lower stomach before his breath fell on my center, my core, the place only he’s ever been.I shuddered, shivered, felt my body sing for him as the wiry hair of his beard tickled my skin. My muscles clenc
YOO-MI’s POVJeonghan heaved himself up as he slid out of me before lying on his back beside me, his hand over his stomach. He was smiling as he stared up at the ceiling.My hand drifted across the cool, stiff comforter in search of his skin. The moment my fingertips connected with his arm, a prickling sensation overtook my entire body. I rolled onto my side and gazed at him.Jeonghan looked at me, the smile still plastered all over his handsome face. He’s really the most handsome man I’ve ever seen, even with dark circles around his eyes.“I’ve missed doing that with you,” he said.I knew I should feel hurt that he didn’t say he missed me. Maybe it’s because I felt the same way. Knowing that no one will ever make me feel the way he does.My hand found the rise and fall of his chest, his abdomen, his hips.It’s been a long time since I’ve felt him. My hand wrapped around the base of his ma
JEONGHAN’s POVThe moment I opened my eyes, she was gone. Yoo-Mi’s gone.What will I expect anyway? Her promises? Did she even promise me anything? She told me to help me with my condition, that we’re going back to Seoul together and talk to Josh, then what?Damn!Yes, I do. I expected her to still be here, tucked against my side like she used to be. Back before I ruined everything. Before I left her, left her safe from whatever was going on inside my head.After the way she reacted last night, I would say I did a really shitty of leaving her.I rubbed my hands over my face, rolled over onto my side, ran my hands over the cool, white sheets. I thought they would still be warm. Guess she’s been gone a while. The pillow still smelled like her. Something fruity. She has changed perfumes. Just like she has changed her hair color which is black.I didn’t expect to see her here in Los Angeles. Not on this side of town. Not t
JEONGHAN’s POVYou should go home and see dad. He missed you a lot. That’s what Cheol's last message to me.Guilty, that’s all I feel.I’ve been carrying around this guilt for years. The guilt of needing to go home and tell dad that I couldn’t stay. Couldn’t look him in the face because I had this terrible secret I was safeguarding for the woman he loved. Mom, who cheated on him, for having an affair with Mr. Lee.The last part of my healing journey is going home, telling dad the truth. Finding who was Honey’s biological father, and hoping everything will be alright between me and Yoo-Mi.Sometimes, I wonder what would have happened if I stayed. If I didn’t leave. If I told her I needed help. Would she have stayed with me? Yes, because we’re family. Yoo-Mi, Honey and me.I know it might sound selfish. Selfish that I didn’t want to dump my issues on her. How could I do that to her? Ask her to he
YOO-MI’s POVI felt someone gently shake my shoulder while my head was stuck on Honey’s bed in the hospital as I pried my eyes open. There’s a fuzzy, white glow around the room. I sat up straight, wiped the drool from my mouth. My head was pounding. I have jetlag from my flight last night.I looked up and saw Josh’s gentle smile. If guilt was an ocean, I’d be drowning in it.“Honey is fine now, though you might want to go home first and take a rest.” Josh offered.“What time is it?” my voice was raspy and hoarse. It sounded like I haven’t had anything to drink in days.“It’s eight,” he answered. “Let’s wait for your mom and then we’ll go.” He said and I nodded.I brushed my hand over Honey’s hair who was peacefully sleeping. “Honey baby, please stay strong okay? Mommy’s here now, I won’t leave you again.” I cried and kissed
YOO-MI’s POVThe blinds were still closed as my eyes fluttered open, tears gathered in their corners. There wasn’t a sliver of sunlight beaming across the room. It must be overcast today because the clouds were dark, grey and there’s a biting of cool breeze, and a dusting of snow.I felt Josh’s arm before I remembered he was sleeping beside me. My heart sank in my chest. How could I tell him? I should tell him.Slowly, I turned over to look at him. Tiny hairs were now growing on his chin along his jawline, his jet black hair was messy, tossed atop his head while he sleeps. His mouth was slightly open, his lips red, his arm still holding onto me, his shallow breaths soothing and sobering.I should tell Josh what Jeonghan and I did. What I did. How I betrayed him. How I ruined whatever it is we’re trying to figure out here. How I ruined our family, how I lied to him about going to Monaco but I went in LA instead.I didn’t th
YOO-MI’s POV“Mommy!” Honey greeted me with her arms spread wide open as soon as I entered inside her room in the hospital. She looked so weak, but still, a bright smile plastered on her lips when she saw me.I swiftly walked towards her and a tear escaped from my eye as I came closer to hug my daughter. Her body was getting paler and thinner. “Baby, how are you?”She pulled away and smiled as she looked up at me. “I’m fine now mommy, because you’re already here.”She then reached for a drawing book that was placed on top of the table and showed it to me. “Mommy, look at this, this is my drawing of you, is it look alike?I leaned over and took the sketch book from her, observing it attentively. I nodded my head. “It looks alike, baby.” I smiled looking at the sketch of my face on the paper. She loves to draw and soon became her hobby ever since she was admitted in and out of the hospital