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*~°*~°*~°* Elizabeth *~°*~°*~°* There is a man bleeding on the altar. I blinked—once, twice, to be sure I wasn't seeing things. I'm not, because he is still there and he's bleeding quite a lot. There's blood all over the floor that I have to force myself to breathe… and not throw up. My eyes dart across the cathedral, but there is no one here but him… and me—an ordinary nun who is yet to take her vows. What should I do? I can't just run and leave him here… The only reason why I'm up at this ungodly hour is because I couldn't sleep. I've been having trouble sleeping this days and I only needed fresh air. Maybe Mama was right—where ever I go, bad things tend to happen. Take a deep breath, Liz. Take. a. deep. breath, Liz. Exhaling deeply, I walked towards him, clutching my rosary like it was meant to protect me from him. He could be a bad man. What if him bleeding on the altar is an act? What if I get there he’ll grab me and— Oh. My. God. He's looking at me now. He's really looking at me with eyes so dark that I could have sworn—if nuns are allowed to swear—that there's something dangerous about him. “Come here,” he commanded, in a deep and raspy voice that does something to me that I can't explain. My heart skittered to a stop. The way his voice comes out makes it seem like he says that to a lot of women and they listen immediately. And I had an awful, awful impulse to listen. With an erratic heartbeat, I took sure steps towards him. As soon as I reached him, he grabbed me by hand, pulling me onto him. One moment I was standing and the next moment am on him, my entire habit is stained with blood now. What will I tell Mother Superior now? He tilted my chin up to meet his gaze, studying me like he’s trying to uncover if I'm a threat or not. His eyes stopped on the rosary around my neck, his gaze softening right after. We're too close to each other so I rocked back, not fighting him because I'm afraid that if I do, I might end up worsening the injury—a bullet wound at his side. I pulled back again and for a man who is bleeding, his grip is surprisingly tight and I'm already shaken with the lightening bolt exploding in my chest and fizzing through my veins. My breasts are pressed against his hard, warm abs and a shiver rolled through me. He's a dying man, Liz. Control yourself! “Y-you're really hurt. I'll have to go find help,” I told him, trying to get up because the position we were in was not one I needed someone else to walk into. A lot of things could be misread, and as it already is, I'm not really in the good books of many. But he dragged me back before I could succeed in rising up, hauling me back onto him. “Don't call anyone, Angel…” Angel? Angel?! Is he seeing angels already? Oh my God, this man is going to die. Mother Superior always says that when people are close to death, they begin to see ghosts, visions of their loved ones who are dead and most importantly, angels who have come to take them. But if I can't call anyone, how am I supposed to save him? We tend to the sick, wounded and those dying in the convent. Well, exclude the latter part because this is the first time am this close to a dying man who is bleeding this much. If I don't save him, the Lord will never forgive me. I can't let him die. I won't. “But…” “Take me to your room,” he asked in the same voice as earlier that I'm beginning to hate, it does things to me that I shouldn't like. To my room? Does he not realize who I am or is his brain so fuzzed up that he can't think properly? If anyone sees a man in my room, I'll be kicked out of the convent for sure. No man should even be on the monastery grounds at this hour, let alone taking him into my room. I'm just about to tell him that but he repeated the words again, “Take me to your room.” His tone more firmer than before, with added force than necessary. Taking a deep breath, shutting all the screaming voices in my head, I manage to lift him up, although I don't do it on my own. He helped by trying to get up as well. I guess he understands how huge his body frame is. With slow steps, we make our way out of the cathedral, heading to the convent and specifically to my room. Luckily, the rest of the sisters retired early today, so it's just me and a man twice my height beside me. I'm not going to lie, I'm panicking. What if someone sees us? What if he dies and am accused of murder? I hope he doesn't. I just want to help a man… an innocent man perhaps. Please, Lord… help me this time. Help me pass this test, please. With a little push, my room door opened and we stepped in. After helping him onto the bed, I quickly rushed back to close the door, locking it after me. A low ragged groan erupted from him, dragging my attention back to him, then I realized his eyes were closed now. I don't have much time. “Please don't die,” I whispered, almost crying now. “Please, stay alive for me. Please…” He didn't respond. Rather, he was mumbling something under his breath, something I couldn't quite hear. Opening my closet, I grabbed the first aid kit, blowing off the dust scattered all over the top of the box. Clutching it to my chest, I walked towards the bed, sitting beside him and dropping the box next to me. I inhaled. I exhaled. You can do this, Liz. Just don't kill him and you'll be fine. I took one look at the door again, listening for footsteps before returning my eyes to him. Lord, I should have stayed in my room today.Chapter 66*~°*~°*~°*Elizabeth*~°*~°*~°*I'm holding my breath when I step into his cabin. We haven't said anything to each other since what happened at the garden. The only time he spoke to me was when he wanted me to know where we were going. And when he told me he was taking me back to the cabin, it sounded like he didn't give any room for arguments or protests.Not like I was going to raise any.He clicks the door shut, the sound reminding me how very alone we are.Finally, he turns to look at me, regarding me with an intensity I didn't know was possible. I return the intensity of his look.I let my eyes take in his broad shoulders, the air of menace he embodies.His tie is loose around his neck and several buttons on his wet shirt are open.I wish I can see more. I want to run my eyes over every inch of him.His shoulders rise as he takes a deep breath. “You must be cold. I'll show you to your room.” My chest flutters with something new at the mention of ‘your.’ He says it lik
Chapter 65*~°*~°*~°*Elizabeth*~°*~°*~°*I close my eyes, letting my thoughts drift to a memory I wish I can erase completely.I was thirteen again, barefoot on concrete floor, outside with my hands to my ears whenever I heard the thunderclap. Numerous voices fills my head, I can't decipher between them, and it sounds like they are actually close. Really close.I snap my eyes open, involuntarily, my fingers tighten around his jacket until my knuckles turn white. The fear I thought was gone keeps coming back when I close my eyes and remember.Luciano notices, because he slows down in the middle of nowhere and turns towards me.“Look at me, Elizabeth,” he demands when my eyes stay fixed everywhere but not on him. I do. The tears I've been struggling to hold back rolls down my cheeks as I stare up at him, waiting for him to reprimand me. He must think I'm some broken soul, and is probably regretting why he sneaked me out in the first place. “You're here… with me,” he tells me instea
Chapter 64 Playlist- 🎼Khalid- Better🎼 *~°*~°*~°* Elizabeth *~°*~°*~°* “No, don't bring that with you,” Luciano insists for the second time. “You don't need it. We're going under the rain.” I clutch the umbrella tighter than normal, hoping he'll let me use it if I just stand here and refuse to leave the spot, but the look he gives me next tells me he isn't changing his mind anytime soon. With my heart rate speeding up faster than usual, I'm not sure if agreeing to this was entirely a good idea. I'm so terrified that I can literally feel my heart thumping loudly against my chest. I know he’s trying to help me get rid of my ombrophobia, but I don’t think it’ll work. My phobia might not be as great and triggering as most I’ve seen, regardless, it’s still there and terrifies me a lot. Maybe I should ask him to leave. Say thank you, sorry and show him out. This is not some fairytale. A criminal and a nun pretending the world is not built to crush them both. No, it's reality and
Chapter 63 ••~••°••~•• Luciano ••~••°••~•• I'm feeling fucking homicidal right now. I don't think I have ever needed to kill someone as much as I want to now. She doesn't want to give me a name, hint or something close enough. She's hiding the identity of whoever did this to her like the person still means a lot. I can't still get over the feeling that it might be an abusive lover, and yet, she decides to cover up for him. Slow, creeping jealousy burns in my belly, slowly rotting my insides. The possessiveness I feel towards her is as foreign as it is out of control. There's no reason I should be seeing red and nearly pawing at the ground like a raging bull at the thought that she's protecting another man from my fury. I'm going to end whoever it is. That's a promise. She hasn't moved yet, as she blinks back the tears in her eyes. I can tell she's still considering my offer but is still indecisive. I know I'm not leaving her here with the rain all by herself. If worse comes to
Chapter 62*~°*~°*~°*Elizabeth*~°*~°*~°*“Lord forgive him for he knows exactly what he's doing,” I whisper to myself, my eyes slowly closing, my body trying to adapt to the newly-found warmth emanating from his.“You're right Sister, I know exactly what I'm doing.” I froze the moment the words left his mouth, with me realizing I wasn't as quiet as I thought. “Tell me why you didn't come, Elizabeth.”“You can't corner me in my own room,” I ignore his question even when I know it's not the most sensible thing to do. “This is a sacred place, you're not supposed to be here.” I pause, then quickly add when his eyes locks with mine so intensely by each passing second, “Don't look at me like that.” “Mmhm,” a deep throaty sound escapes his throat. “Like what? Like you're the only one sacred in this hypocritic place? If it's that, then I'm afraid I can't stop.”The butterflies in my belly fluttered like there was an event going on there on hearing those words. Nothing could have prepared
Chapter 61 *~°*~°*~°* Elizabeth *~°*~°*~°* I'm convinced the Lord is punishing me for all my sins. There's no other explanation, none at all. And the gut wrenching part is that he's punishing everyone too for my mistakes. I associated with a man I shouldn't have, now the entire convent has to pay for it. We have a day left to pay up the money, and we have no funds to do so. It's a huge amount. Where on earth are we going to find such money? “It's a day left, Mother. What do we do?” Sister Maria voices out the exact thought in my head… in our heads. “We don't have such money. Are we going to live on the streets?” The twelve of us surround Mother Roselyn’s office, brainstorming like never before. The truth is—we have no idea what to do. This is a difficult situation for us. “You don't need to remind me about our lack of funds, Sister Maria. I am fully aware of that,” Mother Roselyn scolds her, a line drawing between her brows as the wrinkles around her face showed le







