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*~°*~°*~°* Elizabeth *~°*~°*~°* There is a man bleeding on the altar. I blinked—once, twice, to be sure I wasn't seeing things. I'm not, because he is still there and he's bleeding quite a lot. There's blood all over the floor that I have to force myself to breathe… and not throw up. My eyes dart across the cathedral, but there is no one here but him… and me—an ordinary nun who is yet to take her vows. What should I do? I can't just run and leave him here… The only reason why I'm up at this ungodly hour is because I couldn't sleep. I've been having trouble sleeping this days and I only needed fresh air. Maybe Mama was right—where ever I go, bad things tend to happen. Take a deep breath, Liz. Take. a. deep. breath, Liz. Exhaling deeply, I walked towards him, clutching my rosary like it was meant to protect me from him. He could be a bad man. What if him bleeding on the altar is an act? What if I get there he’ll grab me and— Oh. My. God. He's looking at me now. He's really looking at me with eyes so dark that I could have sworn—if nuns are allowed to swear—that there's something dangerous about him. “Come here,” he commanded, in a deep and raspy voice that does something to me that I can't explain. My heart skittered to a stop. The way his voice comes out makes it seem like he says that to a lot of women and they listen immediately. And I had an awful, awful impulse to listen. With an erratic heartbeat, I took sure steps towards him. As soon as I reached him, he grabbed me by hand, pulling me onto him. One moment I was standing and the next moment am on him, my entire habit is stained with blood now. What will I tell Mother Superior now? He tilted my chin up to meet his gaze, studying me like he’s trying to uncover if I'm a threat or not. His eyes stopped on the rosary around my neck, his gaze softening right after. We're too close to each other so I rocked back, not fighting him because I'm afraid that if I do, I might end up worsening the injury—a bullet wound at his side. I pulled back again and for a man who is bleeding, his grip is surprisingly tight and I'm already shaken with the lightening bolt exploding in my chest and fizzing through my veins. My breasts are pressed against his hard, warm abs and a shiver rolled through me. He's a dying man, Liz. Control yourself! “Y-you're really hurt. I'll have to go find help,” I told him, trying to get up because the position we were in was not one I needed someone else to walk into. A lot of things could be misread, and as it already is, I'm not really in the good books of many. But he dragged me back before I could succeed in rising up, hauling me back onto him. “Don't call anyone, Angel…” Angel? Angel?! Is he seeing angels already? Oh my God, this man is going to die. Mother Superior always says that when people are close to death, they begin to see ghosts, visions of their loved ones who are dead and most importantly, angels who have come to take them. But if I can't call anyone, how am I supposed to save him? We tend to the sick, wounded and those dying in the convent. Well, exclude the latter part because this is the first time am this close to a dying man who is bleeding this much. If I don't save him, the Lord will never forgive me. I can't let him die. I won't. “But…” “Take me to your room,” he asked in the same voice as earlier that I'm beginning to hate, it does things to me that I shouldn't like. To my room? Does he not realize who I am or is his brain so fuzzed up that he can't think properly? If anyone sees a man in my room, I'll be kicked out of the convent for sure. No man should even be on the monastery grounds at this hour, let alone taking him into my room. I'm just about to tell him that but he repeated the words again, “Take me to your room.” His tone more firmer than before, with added force than necessary. Taking a deep breath, shutting all the screaming voices in my head, I manage to lift him up, although I don't do it on my own. He helped by trying to get up as well. I guess he understands how huge his body frame is. With slow steps, we make our way out of the cathedral, heading to the convent and specifically to my room. Luckily, the rest of the sisters retired early today, so it's just me and a man twice my height beside me. I'm not going to lie, I'm panicking. What if someone sees us? What if he dies and am accused of murder? I hope he doesn't. I just want to help a man… an innocent man perhaps. Please, Lord… help me this time. Help me pass this test, please. With a little push, my room door opened and we stepped in. After helping him onto the bed, I quickly rushed back to close the door, locking it after me. A low ragged groan erupted from him, dragging my attention back to him, then I realized his eyes were closed now. I don't have much time. “Please don't die,” I whispered, almost crying now. “Please, stay alive for me. Please…” He didn't respond. Rather, he was mumbling something under his breath, something I couldn't quite hear. Opening my closet, I grabbed the first aid kit, blowing off the dust scattered all over the top of the box. Clutching it to my chest, I walked towards the bed, sitting beside him and dropping the box next to me. I inhaled. I exhaled. You can do this, Liz. Just don't kill him and you'll be fine. I took one look at the door again, listening for footsteps before returning my eyes to him. Lord, I should have stayed in my room today.Chapter 7*~°*~°*~°*Elizabeth*~°*~°*~°*Mama shoved me inside the room, her eyes raking over me in disgust. The room was the only place she could hit me in peace without the neighbours running to our front door to figure out what was happening.“Mama! Stop it… you'll kill her,” Gemma screamed, trying to drag our mother out but she was past any level of reasoning.“Gemma, leave this place. I need to teach her a lesson, one she would never forget. She thinks because she's serving the Lord now, that makes her better than the rest of us, makes her capable of questioning me? That holier-than-thou attitude is not fooling me, and it's certainly not going to fool anyone else.”“I’m so sorry… Mama,” I whispered, with no idea of what exactly I was apologizing for.My back hurt due to how hard I fell against the floor. I could no longer suppress the tears from streaming down my face, and when she saw them, she got really angry. Her eyes were burning with such lethal fire that showed that she w
Chapter 6*~°*~°*~°*Elizabeth*~°*~°*~°*My mama hates me.No, maybe that was too harsh—my mama looks at me like she hates me.Every time she looks at me, I feel like I'm something she can't stand the sight of.A disappointment.A disgrace.An excuse of a daughter.My heart always sinks when she looks at me like that. Over the years I've learnt how to control my tears when she hits me or says degrading words to me. Although sometimes I let the tears flow when the words are too much for me to bear.And something tells me today will be one of those days.When Mother Roselyn called me into her office earlier, telling me I had a visitor, I strongly hoped it would be Gemma—my sister and not Mama. To my dismay, my wish wasn't granted.She stood behind the Cathedral, her normal waiting spot. Even though I know she picks it because it was supposed to be the perfect place for her to hit me without anyone interfering.Not like if they interfered, she would ever stop.“Hello Mama,” I muttered,
Chapter 5••~••°••~••Luciano••~••°••~••When Alessandro Moretti, the capo dei capi and my cousin, enters the study, everyone stands and keeps standing until he takes his seat at the head of the table. No one knows why we've all been summoned.The last time we had this sort of meeting, we ended up having a raid on the Russians. Lots of blood spilled and lives lost.My favourite thing to do.Now, I have this feeling we're not here for the Russians, but something else entirely. And the suspense is killing me.I’ve never been a patient man with these kind of things. Alessandro turned towards the guard and motioned his head towards the door.“Leave and close the door. Make sure no one else comes in, not even my wife.”The guard nodded quickly, making his way to the exit and locking the door after him. Alessandro leaned back in his chair, eyeing us all like he was contemplating the right time to drop the bomb he had in mind.“As you already know, the Russians are after something we want,
Chapter 4⚜〰⚜〰⚜〰⚜Luciano⚜〰⚜〰⚜〰⚜Where the fuck am I?Certainly not my fucking bed!My head feels so heavy and it takes everything in me not to yank it off. One moment I'm sending a knife through that fucking priest’s throat and the other moment… I'm crawling into the church.If someone told me I would be anywhere near the altar, I would have called them a fool.Now look who just crawled into the temple…I'm still struggling to remember what happened after that, everything just pops up in my head vaguely, leaving more gaps and questions.Well, for starters, I remember getting shot. Not by the priest by the way. The man was such a weakling that killing him could count as the easiest one I've ever done. So no, he wasn't the one. It was someone else entirely, and before I could draw my attention to whoever it was, they fled like fucking cowards.Which means I was right earlier. I was being followed. And that's a puzzle I'm willing to solve later.The real deal is—how did I get here? I'm
Chapter 3 *~•*•~*•~* Elizabeth *~•*•~*~•* When I finally opened the door, Mother Roselyn stood at the other end, fuming with rage. “Mother—” I didn't even finish because she cut me off mid-speech. “Where have you been? I've been calling you for a while now, and don't tell me you didn't hear me screaming your name like I've lost my mind.” I couldn't tell her the truth. She wouldn't believe me. Worse still, the mister was undressed and on my bed. There were so many theories that can be cooked up and I'm very sure none of them would end up in my favour. “Elizabeth!” she yelled out, trying to look into my room but I blocked her view. She can't look inside not while he's still on my bed. “Yes, Ma,” I answered too quickly, my attention diverted. I hoped she didn't notice that I was shaking. “Didn't you hear my question? Or have you suddenly gone deaf?” “I did… I was sleeping. I didn't hear when you called earlier, I'm sorry.” She looked at me like I was another myster
Chapter 2 *~°*~°*~°* Elizabeth *~°*~°*~°* Resting my hand against his chest, a feeling of relief washed over me when I discovered he was still breathing. That counts for something, doesn't it? When I made a move to undress him, I started feeling fidgety and nervous all over, and I know why. I've never been this close to a man before. Never ever. I'm twenty-three and still a virgin. And I'm bound to remain one till I take my last breath. So this feeling should be totally normal. Right? “Lord, please help me,” I muttered to myself before reaching out to undress him. Each button I opened revealed a perfectly sculptured chest and I had to force my eyes back to his face. This man was incredibly good looking. That was one fact that I couldn't deny, no matter how many voices in my head screamed that I should. I peeled off his blood-soaked shirt completely and really took my time to look at him. Swallowing, my eyes roamed all over him in fascination. His chest and biceps







