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*~°*~°*~°* Elizabeth *~°*~°*~°* There is a man bleeding on the altar. I blinked—once, twice, to be sure I wasn't seeing things. I'm not, because he is still there and he's bleeding quite a lot. There's blood all over the floor that I have to force myself to breathe… and not throw up. My eyes dart across the cathedral, but there is no one here but him… and me—an ordinary nun who is yet to take her vows. What should I do? I can't just run and leave him here… The only reason why I'm up at this ungodly hour is because I couldn't sleep. I've been having trouble sleeping this days and I only needed fresh air. Maybe Mama was right—where ever I go, bad things tend to happen. Take a deep breath, Liz. Take. a. deep. breath, Liz. Exhaling deeply, I walked towards him, clutching my rosary like it was meant to protect me from him. He could be a bad man. What if him bleeding on the altar is an act? What if I get there he’ll grab me and— Oh. My. God. He's looking at me now. He's really looking at me with eyes so dark that I could have sworn—if nuns are allowed to swear—that there's something dangerous about him. “Come here,” he commanded, in a deep and raspy voice that does something to me that I can't explain. My heart skittered to a stop. The way his voice comes out makes it seem like he says that to a lot of women and they listen immediately. And I had an awful, awful impulse to listen. With an erratic heartbeat, I took sure steps towards him. As soon as I reached him, he grabbed me by hand, pulling me onto him. One moment I was standing and the next moment am on him, my entire habit is stained with blood now. What will I tell Mother Superior now? He tilted my chin up to meet his gaze, studying me like he’s trying to uncover if I'm a threat or not. His eyes stopped on the rosary around my neck, his gaze softening right after. We're too close to each other so I rocked back, not fighting him because I'm afraid that if I do, I might end up worsening the injury—a bullet wound at his side. I pulled back again and for a man who is bleeding, his grip is surprisingly tight and I'm already shaken with the lightening bolt exploding in my chest and fizzing through my veins. My breasts are pressed against his hard, warm abs and a shiver rolled through me. He's a dying man, Liz. Control yourself! “Y-you're really hurt. I'll have to go find help,” I told him, trying to get up because the position we were in was not one I needed someone else to walk into. A lot of things could be misread, and as it already is, I'm not really in the good books of many. But he dragged me back before I could succeed in rising up, hauling me back onto him. “Don't call anyone, Angel…” Angel? Angel?! Is he seeing angels already? Oh my God, this man is going to die. Mother Superior always says that when people are close to death, they begin to see ghosts, visions of their loved ones who are dead and most importantly, angels who have come to take them. But if I can't call anyone, how am I supposed to save him? We tend to the sick, wounded and those dying in the convent. Well, exclude the latter part because this is the first time am this close to a dying man who is bleeding this much. If I don't save him, the Lord will never forgive me. I can't let him die. I won't. “But…” “Take me to your room,” he asked in the same voice as earlier that I'm beginning to hate, it does things to me that I shouldn't like. To my room? Does he not realize who I am or is his brain so fuzzed up that he can't think properly? If anyone sees a man in my room, I'll be kicked out of the convent for sure. No man should even be on the monastery grounds at this hour, let alone taking him into my room. I'm just about to tell him that but he repeated the words again, “Take me to your room.” His tone more firmer than before, with added force than necessary. Taking a deep breath, shutting all the screaming voices in my head, I manage to lift him up, although I don't do it on my own. He helped by trying to get up as well. I guess he understands how huge his body frame is. With slow steps, we make our way out of the cathedral, heading to the convent and specifically to my room. Luckily, the rest of the sisters retired early today, so it's just me and a man twice my height beside me. I'm not going to lie, I'm panicking. What if someone sees us? What if he dies and am accused of murder? I hope he doesn't. I just want to help a man… an innocent man perhaps. Please, Lord… help me this time. Help me pass this test, please. With a little push, my room door opened and we stepped in. After helping him onto the bed, I quickly rushed back to close the door, locking it after me. A low ragged groan erupted from him, dragging my attention back to him, then I realized his eyes were closed now. I don't have much time. “Please don't die,” I whispered, almost crying now. “Please, stay alive for me. Please…” He didn't respond. Rather, he was mumbling something under his breath, something I couldn't quite hear. Opening my closet, I grabbed the first aid kit, blowing off the dust scattered all over the top of the box. Clutching it to my chest, I walked towards the bed, sitting beside him and dropping the box next to me. I inhaled. I exhaled. You can do this, Liz. Just don't kill him and you'll be fine. I took one look at the door again, listening for footsteps before returning my eyes to him. Lord, I should have stayed in my room today.Chapter 92|The Past- Luciano (Age 16)|It is the silence that hits me as soon as I open the front door of the house that immediately lets me know something is wrong. The house is never this quiet. It's either Papà is barking out orders on a phone call—of which, the calls don't stop coming in or Mamma is reciting her latest poem while trying to add even more spice to whatever she's making. Kiara has discovered she likes to talk a lot about everything she learned in school, everything including boys in motorcycle clubs, boys that I would rather slice my ears off than hear about one more time. She's only ten by the way.Each step I take makes my heart pound loudly in my ears. Something is wrong… something is definitely wrong. Hushed voices drift from the kitchen, my mother's whispered words freezing me in place.“You've done it again!” She cries out, the loud keening sound from her filling the entire room. “You don't think about us at all. You only care about yourself.”I press mysel
Chapter 91 *~°*~°*~°* Elizabeth *~°*~°*~°* A low noise I can't explain tears me from sleep. The sound more terrifying than anything else I have ever heard in my entire life. I stare into the dark and there it is again: a throaty sound full of dark despair. What is that? A wave of fear comes crashing down on me when I realize the tone is way too familiar. Rubbing my eyes, I sit upright, my eyes still searching through the dimly lit room. Luciano? Is that Luciano? I'm on my feet before the next grieving sound fills the room. I can't make out more than the outline of Luciano's body, all I know is that the bed is shaking from the force of whatever is happening to him. I switch on the lights, not sure if I should call the doctor yet or not. “Luciano?” I whisper, my voice so little and quiet I can barely hear it. He doesn't answer me. Instead, I notice his eyes are firmly closed, and his hands are clenched into fists. My first instinct is that it might be a seizure, perhaps somet
Hey Lovelies! I know I must have said "updates begins regularly" not once, not twice in the little notes underneath the chapters, and still didn't keep to that promise. I'm honestly sorry for that. Skipping updates is definitely not intentional on my path. This month has been quite unsteady with the updates—for that, I sincerely apologize. I have a lot going on right now, like literally—I'm fighting for my mental health. Like I said in the disclaimer, I am a law student, so things get really rough and scary at some point. And this is one of those times. I'm trying to scale through this month as much as possible, and I really hope you can see my efforts... although it's only a chapter update here and there. Additionally, my exams are approaching and it's a really crazy time for me. So why am I saying this? I don't want you to feel like I have abandoned this book. I wouldn't dare... I would never. If anything, I aim to finish a book before starting another, and that's how i
Chapter 90••~••°••~••Luciano••~••°••~••She jumps off the couch, the tea cup in her hands slipping through and crashing down onto the floor. The sound echoes through the room, but clearly it doesn't startle her because she runs towards me, carefully bypassing the broken pieces. “Oh my god! What happened?”I don't know how else to tell her what exactly happened in order to make it less painful to hear, so I hold my hands out in what I hope is a soothing gesture. “Elizabeth, don't worry. I'm fine. It's just a few scratches.”She shakes her head like she can't believe I just uttered those words. “It's…” She closes the space between us, whatever body mist she is putting on fills my nostrils, completely overwhelming me. Her eyes waters as she takes me in, her hand hovering over my chest, trying to ascertain which part hurts and which doesn't. “It's… It's not just a few scratches,” she murmurs, her voice shaky as she speaks. Her hands tracing the blood stains I have on my shirt. “You're
Chapter 89••~••°••~••Luciano••~••°••~••{Note: This scene takes place before the previous chapter but on the same day.}10:30pm.It's that late in the evening when I walk into the Don’s manor, heading to one of the the large rooms made for wrestling and fighting at the underground part of the building. Our soldiers train here regularly and are all gathered now, surrounding the boxing ring in the center of the room.I know why I have been summoned, and I also know what's coming next, regardless, I keep on walking—shoulders painfully bruised.Alessandro stands at the center of the ring and I walk towards him, head high. This is only a small price to pay for Elizabeth. It shocks me deeply that I'm willing to do more for her if it comes down to it, including going against the Don.Alessandro doesn't say anything, neither does he give me a reassuring smile that this is only going to be one of those times. No. He does none of that. Which only means it's going to be as brutal as it can ge
Chapter 88*~°*~°*~°*Elizabeth*~°*~°*~°*“Thank you,” I utter, my voice barely audible as I take the tea cup from Ms. Gladys, Luciano's housekeeper who I'm just meeting for the very first time. Turns out she was on leave during the periods I had been here. She's old, looks like she is in her early sixties, gives me a smile that I'm so comfortable seeing and doesn't look like she's mad her boss brought an unknown lady home. If anything, she has been so kind, available, and honestly, it's a bit strange to me.“Do you want anything else, Miss?” She asks, with that gentle smile still plastered on her face, inherently softening her features.I shake my head, gripping the tea cup like my life depends on it. I really need the burn from it, anything to help remind me I'm not in the dream and this is all real.“Alright then. My room is the first one down the hallway,” she describes while pointing in directions, “If you need anything… anything at all. One knock would do.”I nod this time arou
Chapter 40 *~°*~°*~°* Elizabeth *~°*~°*~°* “Liz?” Gemma calls me again, her eyes raking over me, and mine does the same. She looks perfectly dressed, suitable for the role of the perfect daughter. Her black curls fall over her shoulder in an alluring way. Lips curved into a smile that falters t
Chapter 39 *~°*~°*~°* Elizabeth *~°*~°*~°* I made a mistake. And I'm trying to repent from it, but the man sitting across from me just wouldn't let me. I can remember Father Bernard's advice like it was said yesterday— “You must distance yourself from the source. Cut off whatever invites thi
Chapter 38 *~°*~°*~°* Elizabeth *~°*~°*~°* I snap my eyes open, taking out my fingers hastily. When I lift my eyes to look at Luciano, he's staring at me with a mischievous glint in his eyes—a knowing look like he finally suceeded in something. Quickly, I raise the blanket to cover up my e
Chapter 37 ••~••°••~•• Luciano ••~••°••~•• “Goddamn it.” I fist my free hand in her strawberry-blonde hair and hold her head still. My other hand slides down her body, over the enticing curve of her breasts, eliciting a needy moan from her lips. Those lips. Fucking plump and begging to be wrapp







