MasukChapter 1
*~°*~°*~°* Elizabeth *~°*~°*~°* There is a man bleeding on the altar. I blinked—once, twice, to be sure I wasn't seeing things. I'm not, because he is still there and he's bleeding quite a lot. There's blood all over the floor that I have to force myself to breathe… and not throw up. My eyes dart across the cathedral, but there is no one here but him… and me—an ordinary nun who is yet to take her vows. What should I do? I can't just run and leave him here… The only reason why I'm up at this ungodly hour is because I couldn't sleep. I've been having trouble sleeping this days and I only needed fresh air. Maybe Mama was right—where ever I go, bad things tend to happen. Take a deep breath, Liz. Take. a. deep. breath, Liz. Exhaling deeply, I walked towards him, clutching my rosary like it was meant to protect me from him. He could be a bad man. What if him bleeding on the altar is an act? What if I get there he’ll grab me and— Oh. My. God. He's looking at me now. He's really looking at me with eyes so dark that I could have sworn—if nuns are allowed to swear—that there's something dangerous about him. “Come here,” he commanded, in a deep and raspy voice that does something to me that I can't explain. My heart skittered to a stop. The way his voice comes out makes it seem like he says that to a lot of women and they listen immediately. And I had an awful, awful impulse to listen. With an erratic heartbeat, I took sure steps towards him. As soon as I reached him, he grabbed me by hand, pulling me onto him. One moment I was standing and the next moment am on him, my entire habit is stained with blood now. What will I tell Mother Superior now? He tilted my chin up to meet his gaze, studying me like he’s trying to uncover if I'm a threat or not. His eyes stopped on the rosary around my neck, his gaze softening right after. We're too close to each other so I rocked back, not fighting him because I'm afraid that if I do, I might end up worsening the injury—a bullet wound at his side. I pulled back again and for a man who is bleeding, his grip is surprisingly tight and I'm already shaken with the lightening bolt exploding in my chest and fizzing through my veins. My breasts are pressed against his hard, warm abs and a shiver rolled through me. He's a dying man, Liz. Control yourself! “Y-you're really hurt. I'll have to go find help,” I told him, trying to get up because the position we were in was not one I needed someone else to walk into. A lot of things could be misread, and as it already is, I'm not really in the good books of many. But he dragged me back before I could succeed in rising up, hauling me back onto him. “Don't call anyone, Angel…” Angel? Angel?! Is he seeing angels already? Oh my God, this man is going to die. Mother Superior always says that when people are close to death, they begin to see ghosts, visions of their loved ones who are dead and most importantly, angels who have come to take them. But if I can't call anyone, how am I supposed to save him? We tend to the sick, wounded and those dying in the convent. Well, exclude the latter part because this is the first time am this close to a dying man who is bleeding this much. If I don't save him, the Lord will never forgive me. I can't let him die. I won't. “But…” “Take me to your room,” he asked in the same voice as earlier that I'm beginning to hate, it does things to me that I shouldn't like. To my room? Does he not realize who I am or is his brain so fuzzed up that he can't think properly? If anyone sees a man in my room, I'll be kicked out of the convent for sure. No man should even be on the monastery grounds at this hour, let alone taking him into my room. I'm just about to tell him that but he repeated the words again, “Take me to your room.” His tone more firmer than before, with added force than necessary. Taking a deep breath, shutting all the screaming voices in my head, I manage to lift him up, although I don't do it on my own. He helped by trying to get up as well. I guess he understands how huge his body frame is. With slow steps, we make our way out of the cathedral, heading to the convent and specifically to my room. Luckily, the rest of the sisters retired early today, so it's just me and a man twice my height beside me. I'm not going to lie, I'm panicking. What if someone sees us? What if he dies and am accused of murder? I hope he doesn't. I just want to help a man… an innocent man perhaps. Please, Lord… help me this time. Help me pass this test, please. With a little push, my room door opened and we stepped in. After helping him onto the bed, I quickly rushed back to close the door, locking it after me. A low ragged groan erupted from him, dragging my attention back to him, then I realized his eyes were closed now. I don't have much time. “Please don't die,” I whispered, almost crying now. “Please, stay alive for me. Please…” He didn't respond. Rather, he was mumbling something under his breath, something I couldn't quite hear. Opening my closet, I grabbed the first aid kit, blowing off the dust scattered all over the top of the box. Clutching it to my chest, I walked towards the bed, sitting beside him and dropping the box next to me. I inhaled. I exhaled. You can do this, Liz. Just don't kill him and you'll be fine. I took one look at the door again, listening for footsteps before returning my eyes to him. Lord, I should have stayed in my room today.Hi lovelies, I'm here again... with another apology letter. Firstly, Happy new month amazing people! Thank you... Thank you for sticking with me despite how irregular my updates have become. Honestly, I'm scared that you all might be angry or fuming with me at this point, and it's quite understandable. Regardless, I'm deeply sorry for not updating daily this period. I'm so, so sorry. Please forgive me if you can. I'm going to be honest— we are not yet done with this book yet, because there's still a lot to come. Although my updates this month might not be steady due to medical/personal reasons, I'll try my best to update as much as I can, whenever I can at least until updates become regular as usual. Thank you for sticking with me even with the "off and on." Some of you still leave comments asking about the book or how I'm doing and that makes me emotional every single time, makes me realize I have a book family here, like a community I can lean onto and I'm honestly grateful. A
Chapter 190••~••*••~••Luciano••~••*••~••“Come here,” I order, while trying to hide the desperation in my voice. “Come suck my cock.”Elizabeth doesn’t move. She doesn’t act like she heard me at all.Instead she sits on her knees, running a hand through her hair as she stares at me with a look I know too well already.This woman is fucking daring me.That’s what the look means.Without thinking twice, I push myself up, already reaching for her, but Elizabeth moves first. She crawls towards me fast, plants one hand firmly at the center of my chest and then she shoves me back down against the headboard with surprising strength.“What the—”Elizabeth doesn’t let me finish the sentence since she silences me with a finger to my lips. My chest heaves up and down of it’s own accord as she trails her fingertips over it, causing me to swallow hard. The drag of her fingers against my chest is enough to send jolts of heat straight to my cock.Then she leans closer until her lips brushes the
Chapter 189*~°*~°*~°*Elizabeth*~°*~°*~°*“It's about fucking time,” he growls. Just when I think he'll finally do what I've been begging for, he stops. His gaze drifts to the bar opposite the bed and without another word, he walks towards it. I can't help but look at him as he walks away.My throat dries when I do, as if it's the first time I'm seeing him. He's large and thick, his skin golden like the rest of him. A throbbing vein runs along the underside of his shaft, his tip curving slightly upwards. Saliva pools at my mouth at the sight of him.Swallowing thickly, I shake my head. A dark grin touches his lips when he sees the way I stare at his cock. He reaches into the glass covering of the bar and pulls out a bottle, one that resembles whiskey or vodka even.He comes back to me slowly, that victorious look still on his face. Then he stops in front of me, close enough that I feel the heat radiating off his body and onto mine.He unscrews the cap of the bottle with one hand. W
Chapter 188*~°*~°*~°*Elizabeth*~°*~°*~°*Luciano doesn't come closer.He stands away from me, waiting, with his eyes burning into me. The evidence of how badly he wants me is impossible to ignore, at least not with the thickening bulge in his trousers. Yet he is still refusing to close the distance between us, only waiting till I break first.I hate how much I still want him.I hate that my body hasn't gotten the message that this man is dangerous, furious and currently refusing to give me anything more unless I beg for it.“I'm not going to beg, and I certainly will not ask you for anything,” I finally manage to say with mustered courage, but the words come out smaller than I intended.One dark brow lifts. “No?”My skin pebbles and my pulse races as I give my head the smallest shake.And he notices. “Then I walk out,” he tells me quietly. “You stay here in those soaked little panties, and you deal with the rest yourself. I won't touch you. I won't even look at you while you try to
Chapter 187*~°*~°*~°*Elizabeth*~°*~°*~°*“Coward,” I whisper.Luciano stops, slowly turning back. “What the fuck did you just say?”The atmosphere in the room seems to have shifted, making everywhere seem suffocating, more hot… like so many degrees hotter. When he finally faces me, his eyes are darker than I have ever seen them.“Say that again,” he says quietly.I push myself off the wall, obviously still half-naked, still wet, and I force the words out even though they sound like I'm surrendering.“You heard me. You are standing there hard as hell, looking at me like you want to ruin me all over again, and then you put an ultimatum on me as if you don't want me. That shows how much cowardice you are displaying. You want it to seem like you walking away is some kind of punishment. Coward.” I pause, catching my breath, “Fine. Go. But don't pretend this is about principle when we both know you're too angry to admit you still need me as badly as I do.”‘As badly as I do.’Oh my, I
Chapter 186*~°*~°*~°*Elizabeth*~°*~°*~°*His mouth leaves me with a final, deliberate drag of his tongue, and the sudden emptiness makes my hips twitch against the wall.I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I am still shaking. My thighs are slick, my bra half-pushed up, panties shoved to the side where he had held them out of his way. It's like he just sucked the life out of my pussy earlier, only that it is springing to life with the way he is looking at me. Luciano rises slowly, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand in the most depraved way as if he is done with me, and the look in his eyes is pure fury accompanied with something colder.With my chest heaving up and down, I stare at him through heavy-lidded eyes, watch him rise to full length before me. His bleeding hand dry now, and it doesn't look like that matters to him.My head and heart are at war over what's the biggest decision in my life right now, but my feet doesn't care. They just keep moving me away fr
Chapter 8 *~°*~°*~°* Elizabeth *~°*~°*~° “Hello, sister,” he rasped, in that familiar voice that does things to my insides that I can't explain. His voice is deep. But gentle. Soft even. And my brain doesn't know how to react. My stare shifted from him to Mama, but she's too excited to notice h
Chapter 85 ••~••°••~•• Luciano ••~••°••~•• If there was ever a moment when it felt like my heart had been ripped out, and life squeezed out completely from it—then right now is included. As soon as the child slipped, falling on the raining, it did feel like my lungs had been seized completely of
Chapter 87*~°*~°*~°*Elizabeth*~°*~°*~°*She is still breathing. Thank the Lord, the child is still breathing. I know, because I’ve checked thirty-two times. And in every single one of them, I half expected my heart to burst out of my chest due to how fast it was beating.Nothing could have prep
Chapter 88*~°*~°*~°*Elizabeth*~°*~°*~°*“Thank you,” I utter, my voice barely audible as I take the tea cup from Ms. Gladys, Luciano's housekeeper who I'm just meeting for the very first time. Turns out she was on leave during the periods I had been here. She's old, looks like she is in her earl







