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Jade Pov

I don't know what to think of what happened. I thought coming to California will bring me some sadness because of my mates, not Lil. I never thought she went through this many hardships. What is the use of being powerful, and immoral, we can't even have what we want. Now I am afraid of my eternity. When I talked with her that I am not seeing her romantically but as a friend. She said she would wait for me this whole eternity to get my love. After that, I don't know what to say or do to convince her to change her mind so I let it be and left with a heavy heart. I wish I could die at some point I mean after I saw my kids grow up and settled with their life. Grow old and die. I know this is impossible in my case and I don't want to go through this alone. I can't give Lil a chance just because she was desperate. Can I? Why not? Why should? Is it ok? Can't I try? But it's not normal. Is it? My self-debate came to halt when I heard the announcement from the speaker, "We were landing