Me Before You

"Will you marry me, Hikari?" Taehyung abruptly held my wrist and turned me around, he then brought out a gleaming tiny box from his pocket as he got down on one knee. My eyes widened on realization, I was overwhelmed with his sudden actions, I took a deep breath, it almost felt like I couldn't breathe, I couldn't stop smiling, it felt as though there was nothing greater than this, nothing more beautiful that could ever happen than this particular moment right now. I looked at him, he was equally anxious as I was, he was anticipating an answer whilst his eyes sparkled with so many emotions I couldn't point one out, he seemed happy now more than ever, he seemed excited now than he ever was, he seemed in love now than I ever was.

The wedding proposal is a moment each of us cast in gold into our memories. Time stood still, breath held, until that soulful yes binds us together for all eternity. The ring was Celtic, the strands of the trinity making the eternal knot.

The crowd went wild, most of them being fan crowd, I could hear the sound of flashing lights and fluttering cameras, of girls shouting some being joyous others envious.

I paid them no attention, I could barely hear anything else other than my own deep inhales and exhales, I couldn't see anything else than him in front of me, patiently waiting for my answer with the biggest smile glued to his face.

When I see him, it's as if space and time become the finest point imaginable, as if time collapses into one tiny speck and explodes at light speed. It's as if my universe begins and ends with him. I could run forever, search forever, but in the end, every path leads right back to his heart and soul. I love him, always. I could finally leave all of it behind and be with him. Start a family, travel the world, but most importantly be with him forever.

"YES!-" Right when I was about to agree to entangle myself in this beautiful everlasting bond and be his forever and ever, I noticed. I noticed that we weren't alone, they were here, Black suits and that horrendous tattoos engraved on their filthy skins. With their guns pointing at all the seven members from a distance. A chill went down my spine as my eyes met Oikawa's and he shook his head in denial. I was scared, no, I was petrified, I knew one wrong step, one wrong word and I'd lose them forever. I couldn't put them in danger.

Just when I thought life could be easy.

"I can't, I'm Sorry, Taehyung"

I spoke hesitantly and ran away from the booing perplexed crowd. I didn't look back, I couldn't, I just ran away as fast as my feet could carry me.

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Rain poured down from the sky mixing up with my tears. How I wished things could've been better. Much better than this, simpler than this.

"I have lived long enough to know that what we share I can't replicate with another. This love, this feeling, is just you and me. I could travel the world and the seven seas; I'd still have to come right back here if I wanted true love. It's not that nobody else wants me, or you, but that we were born to spark and run the same course. We are the protectors of one another, confidents and true friends. The trust I give you, that you give me, is what keeps us safe in this world, in this life. So whether this heart beats another day or another hundred years - it is yours. And I'm SORRY, for everything, I'm sorry things turned out the way it did!"

I wrote on a small piece of paper and dropped it in his mailbox.

One last glance at their house.

One last view of where I could've been.

One last smile to the place which I could've called 'Home'.

"GOODBYE," I murmured on the verge of tears. I Post-hastily turned and ran to my car, I closed the door behind me and told my driver to take me to the airport.

Just as soon as I sat at my seat, I knew I couldn't take it anymore, I burst into tears. The pain was excruciating, the sort of pain you can't eradicate simply because you want to, because this pain is there to stay and there's nothing you can do about it.

I couldn't help it.

I lost him. I lost them.

I lost everything.

The petrichor which had always seemed the most gratifying to me, today appeared seamlessly irksome.

You'll always live on in my Heart. You all will. I hope you forgive me.