Chapter two

Around 3:pm that day I got a call from my doctor talking about my schedule, he asked if I was free to come to the hospital or if I was okay with receiving my test result via Email.

I have known Dr Elija even before I got married , so he was more than a friend than just a doctor , from the call he sounded softer and concerned making me wonder when he had started taking the professionalism ethics seriously, I asked repeatedly if he was undergoing work stress and he said he was okay , he only suggested i come to the hospital to get my results and have a consultation too , I guess that was enough hint that something was probably wrong with me but I didn’t think too much about it since I didn’t do a full body scan that could detect issues with kidney , liver ,pancreas issues , cancer or any terminal disease , I had only sent my fluid to the lab .

I got ready and drove my black Mercedes to the hospital not knowing what I was falling into .

Getting to the hospital Elija specifically came to me and asked me to his office making me wonder if our friendship had just disappeared into the thin air .He asked if I was feeling okay and if something was cool with me which I assured him I was then he shifted to my husband which really surprised me because Elija never really like my husband even before I got married to him .

“Uhm we really need your husband to be here “ he said trying not to make the atmosphere too serious .

“ tell me what this is about, do I have cancer? "I said jokingly but he gave me a short lived smile .

“ What is this about Elija? I asked him because I had been through a lot and genuinely believed there was nothing worse than what I had been through .

“ Your result shows you have HIV Cassie “ he said and also talked about how I needed to bring my husband for a test and all .

I was a virgin when I married my husband, during courtship he had adorned me and waited till we got married without too much pressure about premarital sex which made me believe he kept himself too but on our wedding night I found out he was with mutiple girls while we were courting .Driving home I wondered how I ended up with a sexually transmitted disease, the girl who kept her body , who tried to be the best daughter without doing anything wrong became the girl who ruined her life..

what was the need of waking up everyday as a person who would always be on drugs ?? This wasn’t a life I chose or a path I walked on , I couldn’t tell anyone and not even my husband so I packed my car under a tree with my windscreen close then I cried my eyes out in a way I don’t think I have cried before not even those days when I was younger watching my mum get hit and watching her cry about my Dad’s poligamous nature.

“ I have made the same mistake as my mum “ I said out softly as I cried so hard because I thought I had learnt about marriage from my mum . I had kept myself as a virgin not really because I wasn’t a sexual person but because I needed to be with a guy that would wait for me.

I thought that a guy who could date and wait for a virgin in this generation would probably be a man with principles and a man who would never cheat .

Remembering all the things I did , all the sacrifices I made and all the way I curtailed my will while growing up I didn't know I would end up this way .

I screamed and carried inside my car hitting my hands on my staring as if those shouts could reach God or my hands hitting the car could take away the pain in my heart but it didn’t .

So I just stayed there for hours hoping that the pain would go away or an Angel would rewrite the stories of my life and take me back to when I was younger and unmarried but nothing happened. All I felt was silence and the rhythm of my aching heart .

Suddenly I heard a knock on my window screen asking me to wind down which I did and found the police asking why I had parked there for too long .

So I ignited my gear and set my car in motion but it seems it wasn’t just my car that was in motion , my life was in motion and the only place I could go was home , not my parents home but my husband’s house . The same man who has ruined my life all because I was born into a society where women were ordered around , sexed , cheated on and used for child bearing business and I knew my life would have been better if I wasn’t a girl who this society created and raised .