Not Again!

“Sweetheart, I never wanted to leave you,” I said heartbrokenly as I closed my eyes. “From the day I was forced to leave you, I was hoping that you would look for me.” I took a deep breath as my hands clenched into fists. “I thought about the day that I would see you again so often. This was not how I expected it to go. I am so sorry that I took advantage of you last night.”

“Advantage?” she repeated slowly, and I could hear the tears in her voice. I hated it when she cried. “I thought you wanted me.”

The muscle in my jaw ticked for a moment as I thought about what exactly we had done the night before. Wanting her hadn’t been the problem. I had wanted her desperately. Hell just thinking about the passion we shared last night had my dick throbbing in my pants. I took a deep breath.

“Naomi, I always wanted you, but it was never supposed to be in that way.”

She was quiet for so long that I started silently begging her to say something. Anything. It didn’t matter what it was. I just needed her to tell me I wasn’t quite the asshole I thought I was, but all my hopes were dashed the minute she began to speak.

“Is this when you disappear from my life again?” she whispered.

I spun around to rush back to the bed to take her hand as I sank to the floor beside her. “NO!” I cried. “I know I screwed up really badly, but I’m hoping that you will forgive me and give me a chance to show you that I’m not going to continue doing that to you. I don’t want what happened last night to be the end of our relationship. I always thought you would inherit everything I have and I’m still hoping that you’ll choose to let me be in your life. I swear that I won’t ever touch you again like I did last night. Naomi, sweetheart,” I murmured as I put her hand on my heart. “I love you more than anything, and I want to show you that.”

“But you wanted me! I know you did! You can’t fake that!” she whimpered as she flung the blankets off her while she spread her legs apart to show me my cum dripping out of her. “See? You wanted me!”

I swallowed hard as I tore my eyes away from her perfect pussy and pushed her legs closed while my heart threatened to beat out of my chest. Great, now I wasn’t going to be able to stand up. I raised my eyes to hers, but they stopped at her breasts. Fuuuuck! She was absolutely stunning! How was I supposed to maintain a non-sexual relationship with her when everything in me begged to lay her back down on the bed and make love to her until she was too sore to continue. I squeezed my eyes closed again as I took a shaky breath.

“Naomi, please,” I pleaded. “Get dressed so we can talk!”

“Why? You didn’t have a problem with my nudity last night!” she snapped.

I clenched my jaw as I pushed myself to my feet and spun away from her so I could open my eyes without seeing her.

“Because I can’t think when you’re naked,” I told her. “So, please, put some clothes on.”

The bed squeaked as she jumped up. “No! Tell me right now, Rip! Am I walking out the door and going home?”

“NO!” I hollered before I could stop myself. I shook my head as I desperately tried to get control of my libido again. “I don’t want you to leave me, Naomi. Just please get dressed so we can talk.”

“Why don’t you come back to bed and we can talk there?” she asked softly as she moved her hand over my shoulders.

I took a step forward, making her hand fall off. “Naomi, please! Just get dressed and come to the living room.”

As I was walking out of the room, a pillow hit me in the back of my head, making me spin around to glare at her, which immediately made me have to bite back a groan when I see the same stubborn stance she had when she was about to argue with me until I gave her whatever she wanted. The only problem was this time I wasn’t exactly sure what she wanted.

“You want to talk, let’s talk! I’m grown now, and I get to decide what I do. Tell me right now what’s it going to be! This isn’t what I expected to happen either! But it did! You may not have known who I was, but I knew who you were! I knew what I was doing, what we were doing! I wanted to do that with you! I enjoyed you touching me! Tell me why that was wrong? We’re both adults. We both consented. You always told me that I should give myself to someone who loved me for me, and not what I could do for them. Who could ever love more purely than you do?!” she whispered.

“Fuck, Nomes!” I grunted as I pushed my hand through my hair. “That’s not what I meant at all and you know it! I wanted you to find a man that was going to love you forever and be your partner through life!”

She raised tear filled eyes to mine. “So, I was good for a night, but not for more? That’s great! Thanks for letting me know,” she snapped as she stomped across the room to grab her clothes.

I stood frozen as I watched her get dressed. I didn’t know how to respond. What could I really say when what she said was valid. She felt the way she did because of what I said. I was not explaining myself very well. I really needed to get my head out of the gutter so I could have a chance at salvaging our relationship. When she went to storm past me, I grabbed her wrist to pull her against my body.

“I’m not letting you leave like this, Naomi! I want to talk to you first!” I practically growled.

“Then be honest! Admit that you wanted me too! That you still do!” she begged.

“Naomi! Please! I shouldn’t want you! Nor should you want me to want you!” I told her.

She palmed the bulge in my pants, making my breath slam out of my lungs as her petite fingers began to stroke over my erection.

“Admit it, Rip! You want me too!” She took a deep breath. “Be honest or I’m leaving, and I won’t come back!” She tilted her head back to meet my eyes. “Please.”

I closed my eyes as my fingers curled around her wrist. I wanted to yank her hand away from my pelvic area, but I also wanted to put her hand inside my pants so she could really touch. Suddenly, she pulled her hand away from me as she took a step back.

“Okay. I get it. I won’t bother you again. I’m sorry.”

My eyes snapped open as she started to walk away from me, and once again I found myself frozen in place. Fuck! What was I doing? Surely I wasn’t actually considering continuing this type of relationship with her. When my dick throbbed in my pants, I knew that was exactly what I was doing! Fuck! As I was hurrying out of the room, I heard the front door slam shut, and I took off running to catch her before she disappeared again. I got outside just as she was stepping onto the sidewalk in front of the house. I raced after her, and the moment she was within reach, I scooped her up, turning her around to glare down at her. She opened her mouth to say what I was sure would be something nasty, but I silenced her response with a deep kiss that had her melting against me. When I finally broke our kiss, I set her down on the ground hard while I continued to give her a stern look.

“You’re not going anywhere, Nomes! You’re going to march your ass back into the house and sit on the fucking couch so we can talk!” I told her, my frustration coming through.

She swallowed hard, but nodded. “O-okay.”

I removed my arm from around her waist to put my hand on the small of her back to guide her inside. Once we made it to the living room, I stood in front of the door while she moved across the room to sit on the couch. When she turned toward me, her eyes were on fire.

“What do you want to talk about, Rip?”

I crossed my arms over my chest before letting them fall as I sauntered across the room to put my hands on the back of the couch on both sides of her head, pinning her against it.

“I’m not letting you go again, Naomi! Try me if you want, but you will find yourself tied up in my closet with no hope of escaping…”