MasukFive years later.
The Bali sun was ruthless.
I was sprawled out on a rattan lounger on the back porch, wearing my favorite black bikini that was aggressively unfriendly to uninvited guests. One arm was tucked under my head, the other holding a chilled glass of mango juice.
My house sat on a patch of white sand that opened directly to the Indian Ocean. Not a rental. Not a joint investment. My house. Paid in full with sweat, tears, and one insane project five years ago that, by some miracle, turned into a launching pad.
Funny how it all started with one lost Australian socialite who wandered into the flower shop I used to work at part-time. She needed a wedding planner in a week because the last one ran off with the lighting guy.
I told her I could do it. Even though, the only thing I’d successfully planned at that point was a resignation letter and an escape suitcase out of New York.
But somehow, Maya Moguel turned out to be disturbingly good at turning chaos into something I*******m-worthy.
And the rest... was history and administrative hell with wealthy clients who wanted Disney movie weddings on cartel budgets.
“Sienna, stop eating sand! You are not an ostrich!”
The little girl turned around fast, both hands full of sand, plastic toy spoons raised in the air.
“This is chocolate ice cream!”
Angela stood a few feet away, looking half-crazed. “She kicked me out of her kitchen because I was ‘too loud,’ and told me to sit down and shut up.”
Sienna pointed at Angela. “She doesn’t understand fine dining!”
I set down my mango juice and sat up straight. “If you eat sand again, Mommy swears I’ll hose you down. And not because you’re hot.”
Angela, her babysitter, flopped onto a bean bag with a dramatic sigh. “She’s got boss energy. Like, mafia CEO level.”
“She’s my kid,” I said calmly.
Angela rolled her eyes “Genetic crime.”
I leaned back again, trying to enjoy the sea breeze, it lasted about three seconds.
Sienna crawled onto my lap, plopping her chubby, sweaty, sand-covered body across my legs. “Mommy,” she said with terrifying seriousness, “I want to be a mermaid. Tomorrow!"
“I have to work.”
“Work is boring.”
I pinched her cheek. “Boring keeps the roof from leaking when it rains.”
I glanced at her back and gently pulled down her swimsuit strap. The rash was almost gone. Two days ago, she had a fever and angry red blotches all over her skin. I nearly passed out when the doctor said it was a chlorine allergy, from the pool at our client’s ultra-luxury hotel.
Turns out they hadn’t changed the water in three weeks.
But of course, my daughter swam for three hours straight. Said she was ‘training to be a full-time mermaid.’
“Sienna,” I whispered, stroking her hair, “no swimming for a week, okay?”
“You are mean,” she mumbled, hugging my leg tighter.
Before her telenovela-level drama could escalate, the sliding glass door slammed open.
Catalina stormed in, my assistant. “There is a God in heaven, and a massive crisis in our wedding folder!”
Sienna groaned. “She’s too loud. Mommy, please... make her go away…”
Angela moved closer. “Come on, Mermaid. Let’s find a popsicle.”
Catalina tried to yank the beach blanket out from under her. “Maya, this is about cash flow!”
But Sienna clung tighter.
Sienna looked her dead in the eye… then bit Catalina’s butt. No hesitation. Catalina screamed. “SIENNA!”
Sienna took off running, laughing her head off. “You deserved it!”
Catalina stood frozen, clutching her butt. But instead of losing it, she exhaled, closed her eyes, and started chanting, “Breathe in... breathe out... honor the space around you... you are calm... you are light…”
I almost pulled a muscle trying not to laugh. “Did you go on another meditation retreat?”
“Yes, and it was expensive!” she snapped, pointing at the iPad on the table. “Now sit. Open this. We got a new client. Big one.”
I frowned, taking the iPad and opening the file her agency had forwarded.
It was cleanly formatted. Client logo. Color scheme. Location. Budget. Guest count. All the usual stuff for a high-end project.
Nicholas De Castello & Vittoria Alfieri.
My heart stopped for half a second.
“No,” I whispered, my fingers tightening on the edges of the iPad.
Catalina was sipping that ridiculous infused water she always carried. “Funny thing,” she said, balancing the glass on her thigh, “apparently he run a giant mining company.”
I said nothing.
“And he’s marrying his secretary. Who, oh, just so happens to be the youngest daughter of one of those crazy-rich Italian families.”
I swallowed.
“You know him?” she finally asked. Then her face shifted. Her lips parted. “Oh my God.”
I turned away, toward the ocean, the sky....anything but the truth in front of me.
Catalina sat up straight. “Maya. MAYA. Tell me this isn’t that Nicholas. Please tell me this is some other guy. An evil twin. A fake identity. AI-generated. Anything.”
I closed my eyes. “It’s him.”
Catalina’s mouth dropped open. “Oh my God…”
“Yeah.”
“And he married your ex-assistant. The one who got promoted to be his secretary—”
“Yeah.”
Catalina slapped her hand over her mouth. “I already signed the contract. Took the deposit.”
I handed the iPad back to her. “Decline. Refund it. Cancel the whole thing.”
She shook her head fast. “I… I can’t.”
My eyes narrowed. “What?”
“You were in the hospital for two days with Sienna, remember? That’s when their email came in. You told me, and I quote, ‘If it’s urgent, just take whatever’s important. I’m focusing on my kid right now.’ So I… I signed it. Took the deposit. It’s already in. Six million dollars.”
I closed my eyes. “Catalina…”
“And they… um, they’re… already on their way here. They’ll be here by this afternoon.”
I stood up. “WHAT?!”
Catalina took a step back. “I’m sorry! I thought you were over him! I thought you’d be happy about landing a famous client! I didn’t know it was that Nicholas! I thought Nicholas like...I DON’T KNOW... Nicholas Sparks? Nicholas Hoult? Nicholas Cage?!”
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Putting Sienna to bed tonight was a test of divine-level patience. She had energy like a nuclear reactor, even after running wild with Angela all afternoon and throwing a tantrum because her doll’s hair “wouldn’t curl like Mommy’s.”
It took three storybooks, two fake bathroom trips, one lullaby, and a serious threat to confiscate all her unicorn toys if she didn’t "close her eyes and play dead like Sleeping Beauty."
Now, finally, she was out. Lying face down in a sea of stuffed animals and pastel pillows, her messy brown hair falling over her chubby cheek.
I stood in the doorway for a moment. Just to make sure she was really asleep. Then I exhaled and gently closed the door.
My bedroom was dark when I stepped in, lit only by moonlight pouring through the large window that faced the ocean. The night breeze carried the scent of salt and the frangipani tree blooming in the yard.
I crawled into bed.
And this bed was usually comforting. Thick mattress, high-thread-count linen, those cold pillows I had custom-ordered from a hotel supplier. But tonight, nothing felt right.
I stared at the ceiling. And damn it, I couldn’t shut my eyes.
I couldn’t make sense of it. The same man who told me to keep our relationship a secret, like I was some contagious skin disease. The man who treated me and the pregnancy like a stain on his bright, shiny future.
And now?
He was marrying my replacement. Another secretary.
But this time, there was no shame. No secrecy. No whispered threats about "the future of the De Castello Group."
No cold suggestions to "take care of the situation before my father finds out" — and by situation, he meant our child.
Our child.
I closed my eyes. But that just made the voices louder.
They replayed everything.
Back then, I thought I lost because I was a nobody. Just an employee. Just a regular woman who made the mistake of falling in love with a man who didn’t have space in his life for a heart.
But turns out, it wasn’t about who I was.
The problem was never me.
Nicholas could love a secretary.
Just not me.
And if that doesn’t punch your pride right in the gut, I don’t know what does.
“I didn’t ask for that,” I said at last.“I know.”“I don’t like people arranging my life.”“I know that too.”“And yet you did it anyway.”“Because you’re trying to do everything alone.”I laughed softly. Not because it was funny. “I’m the owner, founder, and CEO. That’s literally my job.”“You don’t have to control everything.”I looked at him as if he had just suggested I trade Sienna for a houseplant. “Excuse me?”“Help is there. Your team is enough. The funding is enough. Legal is enough. The vendors are enough.” He nodded toward the screen on my desk. “You don’t need to sit here until night deciding whether the napkins should be warm ivory or bone white.”“First of all, those are two different colors. Second, do not talk about napkins in that disrespectful tone inside an event planner’s office. Third, if I’m not working, what am I supposed to do?”He didn’t answer right away.I raised an eyebrow. “Sit in your mansion? Stare out the window in a silk dress and wait for my husband
Nicholas De Castello never said, I’ll try. There was no I’ll see, no maybe, no room for the universe to weigh in with an opinion. He spoke like a man born with one hand around the world’s throat and the other signing acquisition papers.I set my phone on the desk.Catalina was still standing across from me, “What did he say?”“Don’t respond to anything.”Catalina blinked. “And?”“He’ll handle it.”She lifted an eyebrow. “That sounds like something a man says when he has personal lawyers for his lawyers.”I sat back down and breathed in through my nose. “Yeah.. well.. but, this time I don’t hate it.”Because this time, they hadn’t touched me.If they wanted to chew up my name between champagne and low-sugar dessert, fine. I had already survived office whispers while my body was carrying Sienna and my dignity was being dragged across the De Castello marble floors. I knew what it felt like to become the joke for women who had never once had to calculate the cost of a doctor’s appointmen
Nicholas disappeared.Traces of him still lingered in the house. black coffee sometimes left half-finished on the breakfast table, the sound of his car arriving too late, dark suit jackets appearing over the back of the study chair, short messages to Bianchi that made the whole house move. But his face was rarely here.The funny thing, of course, was that he still found time for Sienna.I woke to the sound of a door in the hallway.Sienna’s door.I sat up in bed, hair falling over my face, my body going instantly rigid. The clock on the nightstand read 1:17.For a few seconds, there was no sound.Then Sienna’s door hinge moved softly.I climbed out of bed without turning on the light. My bare feet touched the thick carpet, and I moved carefully toward the door. I opened my bedroom door just a crack.The hallway was dark, washed only in the soft glow of the wall sconces.Nicholas came out of Sienna’s room.Still in his white work shirt, sleeves rolled up, hair slightly messy, his tie m
Nicholas stopped beside our table without taking off his coat.His eyes dropped to my hand, still near the croissant plate, then to Gabriel’s coffee cup, then to Gabriel’s face. Slowly. In order.“Nick.” Gabriel, with all the energy of an eldest brother who had never wanted the company inheritance but had somehow still been born with aristocratic posture, leaned back in his chair and lifted one hand.Nicholas didn’t return the greeting.I bit the inside of my cheek.“What were you talking about?” Nicholas asked. His voice was very low.I picked up my napkin and lightly touched the corner of my mouth. “The weather. Taxes. The unreasonable price of avocados. Your oldest brother was also just explaining that this lemon tart has a brighter future than most European aristocratic families.”“That was actually a good point.” Gabriel laughed.Nicholas’s gaze didn’t move from me. “Gabe.”“She was asking about you,” Gabriel answered immediately.I glared at him.Gabriel stopped. His eyes blinke
I lay on my back, staring at the dark green ceiling of my bedroom, one hand on my stomach, my hair spread across the pillow like I had just lost a duel with expensive hair spray. Outside the window, Manhattan moved with its usual shameless urgency. Cars passed. Some birds of indeterminate species chirped. A gardener in the courtyard below trimmed the hedges with the precision of someone who maybe had a secret contract with the aesthetic mafia.I had barely slept.Every time I closed my eyes, all I saw was Nicholas’s hand rising toward his temple, then changing direction into the motion of fixing his cuff.I hated knowing him that well.I hated that my body still kept a complete catalog of all his habits. The way his jaw tightened before he denied pain. The way his shoulders dropped half an inch when the ache started winning. The way he blinked slower when the world around him got too loud.Five years ago, knowing things like that made me feel special. Now it felt like having VIP acces
I gave a smile, and then we moved again.I started noticing the same pattern I’d seen that morning in the kitchen. Small. Quick. Easy to miss if you hadn’t spent years reading this man’s body more carefully than a board schedule.At one point, his fingers tightened too hard around the base of his glass. His blinking slowed just slightly. Once, while an elderly donor droned on too long, Nicholas’s gaze went blank for a second, as if the sound in the room had drifted away from him. Then it came back. Neat, cold, perfect.I didn’t say anything.He could still keep going. I knew that because a man like Nicholas would stitch his own bones together with gold thread if it let him stay standing five minutes longer.And besides, the mini auction was starting, and I wanted to see this little circus.The lights dimmed slightly. The host began talking about scholarships, hospitals, and the family’s social commitments in the kind of tone that made millions of dollars sound almost holy. People star







