MasukCandice's P.O.V.
It was like sweat and gasoline that stink of the hood that was on my head, and my stomach was turning as I was bouncing over the rugged roads, as the war gripped me like a noose, and I was fighting the zip ties that held my wrists, then my skin was scalding, and I felt that I was burning, but I could not scream, I was thinking of the faces of Mantovani, and he was screaming and this is how it sounded in the night, and passion that we had made love together was the strength that kept me going, and I was fighting The men who had captured me--'featureless black operatives--grumbled in low tones, their voices stifled by the hood, talking of directions and check points and I was unable to hear, trying to spread out bits of their scheme, the mystery of the game playing out like a black riddle when one of them spoke of the boss wanting her alive so he can negotiate with her, and the thought that I was now the bait in the sheriffs game and that I was now an instrument in his plan, a hook to lure Mantovani into the snare, sent shivers along My thoughts flew back to the cabin, and to the wild embrace of mom, and Sanna, with her willful stare, Conti, with his hurt smile, and dad, with his secure distance in New York, the family that I had struggled so hard to keep united now torn apart, and their love my lifeboat in the hurricane of violence. Hours went on--or perhaps only minutes, time being as vague as a night--and the van halted at last, the engine was switched off with a shudder, and all that was heard was my gasping breaths and the crunch of the feet of the men getting me out of the car, my feet stumbling over the uneven surface, the cool night breeze slapping my skin like a slapper, bringing the scent of pine and distant sea. they pulled me inside, what seemed to me to be a building, and the air became stuffy and stifling, and when they pulled off the hood I stared at the ugly face of the world, and in this temporary jail in this shantytown. I was pushed into the chair by the lead captor, a man of rough features, scarred, and with cold blue eyes, and tied me more firmly to the chair, and he leant in close, his breath hot on my face, and said, "The sheriff has big plans of you, princess, you'll end the d'Agostino line forever, and I spat at him, and defiance burned in my chest. Then they deserted me, and the door was closed with a finality that resonated throughout the room and I was trying my chains, jerking my wrists until I was bleeding, the agony something to remind me that I was alive, in conflict, not the pathetic creature they believed me, but the woman who had been in courtyards with guns and who had preferred love to security. I was swamped with memories--Mantovani, with his hands on my skin, slow and caressing in the low light of the cabin, his words of forever of the heat of our bodies, the passion that had united us with that first forbidden glance in the mansion living room, that made stepsiblings soulmates in the shadows of mafia. I remembered Mom, how she had so changed since I was a child, moving like a socialite at a distance, and like a fierce protector, raped, bandaged, gunfiring, her love a silent power that had mended old divisions; Sanna, the father who was so distant when I was a child and who had become a main-stay, now his approval of us a triumph, her unswerving support his rock in this storm; Conti, the brother-in-arms, who had so far been distant, and whose side we had always taken, and who had been wounded; It opened its door hours later--or days? I was hungry, my throat was parched, the scarred man brought me a tray of water and stale bread and placed it on the floor too high to reach, which was mean to excite my spirit, but I stared him down and said, "Tell the sheriff I am not breaking; my family will find me, and the villa is ashes; and your stepdad is barely breathing, and your boyfriend are walking into our trap as we speak. The interest struck a blow next, and his words were the seeds of doubt--had they struck again? Was Mantovani all right?--and I almost cried, concentrating upon the love that was our lot, sheets twisted together, words of love in time of fire, the human instinct of clinging at something in time of wreck. He pushed the food away, smacking the door a second time, and I pulled at the chains, moving the chair a little until my toes were against the tray, kicking it nearer, spilling the water, but scoring a small triumph in this infernal place a mouthful of cool water to get me through the struggle to come. There were sleeping intervals, nightmares with fire and blood, and Mantovani looking like a ghost, and his voice calling my name, and I woke up wet and the cold of the room penetrated my bones, but I hung to hope, saying to myself, They are coming; hang on. The scarred man came back later with another, a smaller man who kept in the shadows, and they questioned me, inquiring about our activities, about the Miami project, about the lapses of Sanna, but I kept my mouth shut, challenging them with an expression of my own, my thoughts running back to Mantovani and what he had taught me in the garden, self-defense, being able to maintain my mind, and when the scarred man struck me the smack was quick and easy, but I laughed at him, saying, "Is that all you can do? My stepbrother strikes more in bed. Their anger increased, fascination mounting as the thinner man moved forward, his voice recognizable, and with a shock I saw it was Aston, another of the villa bodyguards, and the fact that he was betraying Giovanni, even though it pierced me as a human, made me feel cold, and his eyes cold when he said, You think you are a tough guy, but the sheriff knows, he has files on your real dad, and your mom and even the therapy sessions of Mantovani,-- make a person feel down to the ground. Talk, or we may release you, speak not, and we begin with your fingers, said Aston sourly, who I headbutted, the stars swirling in my eye, a stream of blood pouring out of his nose, as he reeled away cursing, and the scarred one held him back, drawing him away, and I was left alone, bruised but not broken. The time added on, the isolation eating away at my boundaries, but I centered on what everyone could relate, the silence of the hugs of the dad, the lasagna dinners of mom, the bad jokes of Conti, those few smiles of Sanna, that passion that had blazed in forbidden glances and flowered into something undying, and had supported me. There was a repeat of the footsteps outside the door, and, as it opened, back came Aston single-handed, his face twisted in anger, the interest climaxing with his coming nearer with a knife, "You think you are special? The sheriff wants you cut before your boyfriend comes and he was tracing the blade along my arm, not with his knife but with his other hand, he took ahold of my chin, and I had to look at him. I spat at him, I kicked him there, in the groin, and he bent over, and the knife fell on the floor, and I charged to get it, but Aston rose up, and snarled, "Time to send a message," and, before he could strike, the firing of guns broke out, and the noise of the pandemonium filled the air, and Aston stood motionless with his eyes agape and the war shattered the walls. The voice of Mantovani came howling through the noise, "Candice! Hold on!" and hope filled me, the longing to be reunited with them, and passion made me hot, and Aston took a hold on me, knife against my throat, and pulled me to the back door, and said, "Unless I can break you, then I will make him see you dead, then we went out into the night, and the compound was alive with fighting, and our men rushed the gates, and as Mantovani caught sight of us, he rushed after me, and a sniper-shot came down out of the rooftops, and struck him right in the chest, and he fellCandice's P.O.V.The sun came streaming through the hospital blinds in fine golden bars across the bed, and made stripes across the chest of Mantovani as the bandages just showed their heads through the open neck of his gown. I had seen those stripes go on--slow, tireless, measuring them out as they had to be they were evidence that time still had some course, that we were still alive at night. It ached in my back where I had just left the chair, it hurt my eyes because I had not slept, and my fingers were sore because I had not managed to take my hand off his, but it did not make any difference.He was breathing.On his own.No engines pressurizing him. No alarms screaming. Only the hard, obstinate swell and heave of his chest, each breath a little wonder that I knew I was bones.I had not slept over a few minutes at a time since the time they wheeled him out of the surgery. Whenever I shut my eyes I would see once more the red mark on my chest, I
Candice's P.O.V.The very first time that Mantovani opened his eyes after the third crash I believed I was dreaming.The room we were in was dark--blinds half-open to the mid-morning sun, machinery clammering its constant, mechanical lullaby--and I had been staring at his face so long that I had begun to see at the edges. His skin was too pale over the white sheets, the coarse stubble on his jaw coming out in sharp relief, the new scar on his temple still angry and red. I knew every word of him that had been stuttered in the operation since surgery: the tiny freckle in the left eye, the tiny crescent scar on his chin of some previous fight which I knew him when he was still young, how his lashes brushed against his cheeks when he slumbered.I hadn't slept.Not really.Each time my eyes drifted shut I saw the color red dot on my chest once more, saw him leap, saw him hit back at me and spurred my blood through both our shirts and I screamed his name
Mantovani's P.O.V.The initial inhalation that I made in the absence of fire in my lungs caused me to feel like robbing something holy.Slow--deliberate--as though I had to relearn the operation of air. The hospital room smelled of bleach and coffee that was old and stale and the kind of sterile silence that rubs against your ears until you start hearing every little thing: the drip of the IV, the little beep of the monitor that was keeping track of my heart (steady now, stubborn) and the soft rustle of Candice in the chair beside me.She hadn't left.Not once.The head of her dark hair lay on the edge of the mattress against my hip, and the spilt hair was lying on the white sheet like spilt ink. One hand also remained clasped about mine in sleep--fingers woven together to such an extent that I felt her pulse as if it were my own still trembling where the right hand still trembled. There were bruises under her eyes, a nick on her cheekbone that was
As we split up, foreheads against each other, breathing each other's air, she said, The doctors told me you had hardly escaped a surgical operation. The bullet tore--cut your lung, your spleen. On the table they lost you twice. Sanna was screaming at them in Italian. Conti punched a wall. Mom wouldn't stop praying. Dad... Dad just held me while I cried."I shut my eyes, and imagined it--my father losing his temper, my brother smashing up, her parents seeing the shambles of the life we had led. The feeling of guilt in my stomach was more like the surgical scars."They're all here?" I asked quietly.She nodded. "Down the hall. They wouldn't leave. Sanna is arguing with the hospital administrator regarding security. The fact that Conti is guarding the door like Fort Knox. Mom and Dad are going to get coffee and make a show that they are not terrified.I exhaled shakily. "Family.""Yeah," she said, voice thick. Our beautiful messed-up family.A
Mantovani's P.O.V.My consciousness came back in bits--sharp jagged bits that cut deeper than the bullet ever had.Then there was the pain: a living entity, red-hot and angry, wrapped around my chest like barbed wire that was tightening with each inhalation. Then the cattle, the sounds, beeping monitors, low voices, chattering in desperate Italian and English, the drip, drip, drip of an IV line somewhere overhead. Odors ensued: antiseptic, blood (mine, mostly), the slight odor of coffee that some one had spilled somewhere. And finally--her.Candice.She lay huddled against the bed in the little corner beside me, with her head on the edge of the mattress, and one of her hands still clodded in mine even asleep. Her hair had dropped round over her face and strands of it had clung to the lines of tears that were still not quite dry. She breathed quietly and irregularly the type of rhythm that follows hours of weeping yourself to pieces. The view of her, weary
Mantovani’s P.O.V.Pain was the first thing that registered--sharp, white-hot, blooming across my chest like someone had driven a red-hot poker through my ribs and left it there to twist. Every breath felt like swallowing broken glass, shallow and ragged, each inhale dragging fire deeper into my lungs. The world came back in fragments: the low hum of an engine, the metallic taste of blood on my tongue, the faint scent of pine and gun oil clinging to the air. And then—her.Candice.Her hand was wrapped around mine, small but fierce, fingers locked so tight it hurt in the best way, grounding me when everything else wanted to pull me under. I could feel her trembling through the contact, could hear the soft, broken sound of her breathing—like she was trying not to sob and failing. My eyelids weighed a thousand pounds, but I forced them open anyway, blurry green meeting blurry green, and there she was, face streaked with dirt and tears, hair wild,







