SHAYLE
By the time I got home, it was almost eight in the evening. My feet hurt like hell. I could barely walk properly and had to take my heels off just to make it up the stairs. That son of a gun had overworked me to the core. I was starving, my back felt like it had been broken in two, and my brain felt like soup. I dragged myself down the hallway, clutching my shoes and my bag like a dead body, praying not to bump into anyone. I didn’t have the strength for small talk. When I finally reached my door, I pulled out my key, trying to unlock it, when I suddenly heard my name. “Shayle?” I froze. That voice. Oh no. I turned my head slowly toward the next door, and there he was. Kieran. Shit. My heart immediately began hammering in my chest like it wanted to break out. Why did we have to run into each other now that I looked like a sweaty raccoon after a twelve-hour shift in hell? I forced a nervous smile. “Oh… hey.” I quickly turned back to my door, hoping to escape, but of course, fate wasn’t on my side. “Wait,” he called, walking toward me. From the looks of it, he had just gotten home too, still in his plain black shirt that somehow managed to make him look like he stepped out of a damn perfume ad. When he got closer, I could see everything clearly—the sharpness of his cheekbones, the fullness of his lips, the way his eyes looked so warm. I found myself staring for a moment. If only I could just taste those lips, I would gladly die if I only even had one month. “Why are you always running away from me?” he asked, tilting his head slightly. “Did I do something wrong?” His voice snapped me out of the trance. I blinked hard then rubbed the back of my neck, forcing an awkward laugh. “No, not at all. I just… had a lot on my mind. I’m sorry for walking out the other day. That was rude.” He smiled gently. “You don’t need to apologize. I figured something must’ve come up.” The way he looked at me when he said that, soft and genuine, it almost made my knees give out. Then his gaze traveled down and up again, slowly. His eyes glinted in a way that made my stomach flip. “You know, I almost didn’t recognize you just now. Thought it was one of your friends coming to visit.” My throat went dry. He took another step closer. “You look… different, much prettier for sure.” That word hit me like a punch straight to the chest. Prettier? Up till now, I've never even considered myself pretty. The last person who ever called me that was that lying jerk, Carlos. Hearing it now, from someone like Kieran, someone who looked like ‘that’, it felt like my heart was melting into a puddle. “Thanks.” He smiled wider, this soft, innocent curve of his lips that made him look like a cute puppy that didn’t realize how hot he actually was. “I mean it,” he said. “That dress looks good on you. Really good.” My cheeks flamed instantly. I tried to keep a straight face but failed miserably. “If you still want that tattoo,” he said casually, “you can come by tomorrow. I’ll make time especially for you.” He paused, his eyes catching mine, a tiny smirk tugging at his lips. “And maybe after that… we could grab dinner or something. If that’s fine with you.” I stared at him like an idiot. Did this hot man just ask me out for dinner? For real? My brain went blank. My mouth refused to form words. I just stood there, smiling like an idiot. So I nodded, like a dumb goat. He chuckled softly at my reaction, his eyes gleaming. “Goodnight, Shayle.” He turned and headed into his apartment, closing the door behind him. I didn’t move. I stood there, completely frozen, until he was gone. When I finally managed to move, I opened my own door and stumbled inside. The moment my body hit the bed, all the earlier exhaustion, hunger, and pain vanished. It was like my whole mood had been rewritten. Kieran. The hottest guy I’d ever met, my freaking next-door neighbor, had just asked me out on a date. “Oh my god,” I muttered into my pillow. I rolled onto my back, staring at the ceiling, grinning like a crazy person. The butterflies in my stomach refused to calm down. Oh Ma Jackins, you're who you say you are. I let out a breathless laugh. But then I paused. After dinner… should I make a move on him? Was that too much? I bit my finger, imagining what it would be like; his lips on mine, his body, the warmth of his hands. I blushed so hard I had to bury my face in the pillow again. I couldn’t wait for tomorrow. —--- When I woke up the next morning, I felt… alive. Hopeful, even. But yet, I dreaded the day because that meant seeing Lucien again; the most horrible person I've ever met. Still, for now, I wanted to enjoy this feeling. I took a long shower, washed my hair, curled my bangs to match my wavy curls, and picked out one of the new dresses I’d bought. It was less shorter and tighter but still pretty. This time, I even reached for the red lipstick I hadn’t used since high school. When I applied it, I blinked at my reflection. I didn’t look too bad at all. I smiled at myself, tossed the lipstick into my bag, put on my heels, and headed out. As I locked the door, a small part of me hoped I’d bump into Kieran. Maybe he’d see me like this, tell me I looked good again. But unfortunately, it didn't happen. When I arrived at work, the reaction was same as yesterday. I didn't think I could ever get used to this kind of attention. Everyone was looking at me so differently. As I walked through my department, people actually greeted me. “Hey, Shayle!” “Morning, Shayle!” I blinked, offering small smiles. “Uh… morning.” No more “Miss Vale” or “Workaholic Vale” or being ignored entirely. Suddenly, I wasn’t invisible anymore. I wasn’t sure how to feel. Anxious? Excited? Confused? Maybe all three. As I made my way toward Lucien’s office, someone called my name again. “Shayle!” I turned and saw Maddie; the Maddie everyone in the department adored. The social butterfly. The one all the men were after. She walked toward me in her sleek pencil skirt and heels, flashing me a smile. I almost looked behind me, thinking maybe she meant someone else. “You look amazing today,” she said, her voice light and friendly. “I didn’t even recognize you at first.” I blinked, stunned. “Oh. Uh. Thank you.” Another compliment from someone like her? My brain couldn’t process it. “You’re Lucien’s new secretary, right?” “Yeah.” Her eyes sparkled. “Perfect. Then we’ll be seeing each other a lot. I’m Maddie.” “I know. I mean—uh—everyone knows.” She laughed lightly and looped her arm through mine like we were old friends. “We should hang out sometime. You seem cool. How about lunch later?” “Lunch?” I repeated, still processing everything. “Yeah. At the cafe.” I couldn’t help smiling. My first real friend at work? It felt unreal. “Sure. I’d like that.” “Great!” she grinned. “And if you ever need anything, anything at all, just ask me, okay?” I nodded, warmth blooming in my chest. When we finally reached Lucien’s office, Maddie squeezed my arm gently. “Good luck in there. He’s not exactly the easiest man to deal with.” “Thanks,” I muttered under my breath. She laughed again, waving as she walked away. I took a deep breath and pushed open the door. Lucien was already there. He looked freshly arrived, his black tailored suit perfectly fitted, his tie undone just enough to make it look intentional. His gaze snapped toward me the second I entered. I smiled awkwardly. “Good morning….” “From now on,” he cut in sharply, his tone cool, “you’ll report an hour earlier.” “An hour earlier? What do you mean?” His eyes locked onto mine, unreadable. “Yes, Shayle. You’ll also report to my house first.” My jaw dropped. “Your house?” He took another step, closing the space between us. His voice dropped slightly. “You’ll be given the address,” he continued. “You’ll meet me there an hour before work, and we’ll head to the office together. You’ll handle my schedule from there as my secretary. Do you understand?”SHAYLESlowly, I walked forward, my shoes dragging slightly against the floor as my mind tried to catch up with what my eyes were seeing. What the hell was Alina doing here?Was she here to see Carlos? Or me?My throat tightened. I could feel the air in my lungs growing heavy as my steps carried me closer. Maddie was the first to notice me. She was the one Alina was talking to. She froze mid-sentence, her expression changing so fast.Then Alina turned too.Her eyes landed on me, and I saw that flicker; shock, followed by something smug and cruel. Her lips curved into a smirk that made my stomach twist.“Well,” she drawled softly, walking toward me. “Long time.”Her tone was too sweet, dripping with venom.“It’s sad I’ll be seeing you from now on,” she added, brushing a strand of her hair behind her ear. “But, well… we don’t have a choice.”I frowned, every muscle in my face tightening. “What the hell does that mean?”She tilted her head, that smirk deepening. “Oh, you didn’t know?”
SHAYLEBy the time we arrived at the company, I still couldn’t believe what had happened this morning. While we were in the car with me seated in the front and him at the back, my eyes would drift to the rearview mirror where I could see his reflection and how he looked completely detached.I would bite my lip and state out the window so I wouldn't glance at him again. I saved his life. I actually saved his life. And he hadn’t even muttered a damn thank you.Typical.When the car stopped in front of the building, I pushed open the door, stepped out and followed his long strides.He looked so effortlessly intimidating he looked from the back in his dark suit. A small part of me found it unfair that a man could look that good and be that much of a jerk.We walked straight into the elevator together. Just me and him.The silence stretched for a while, heavy and strangely awkward. The only sound was the faint hum of the elevator. I was beginning to think we’d ride the whole way up like
SHAYLE I guess I’d been delusional to think I could ever be happy, even for a second before I die. Life was never fair when it came to me. It’s like it had this personal grudge, like it enjoyed watching me struggle while dangling little bits of joy just out of reach. I laid on my bed, staring blankly at the ceiling, my drugs scattered on my nightstand. What was even the point of taking them when I was still going to die? I rolled over, groaning into my pillow, my hair falling all over my face. “I’m so damn stupid,” I muttered to myself. A small laugh escaped my lips, but it sounded hollow. I couldn’t tell if I was trying to laugh or cry anymore. I didn’t even mind that Kieran was a virgin; that wasn’t the problem. The problem was, well, getting disvirgined by a virgin? What was the fucking use? It felt ironic and unfair. Couldn’t the universe just throw me one good thing? I rolled again, sighing louder this time. “Do I have to find someone else now?” I whispered. But who?
SHAYLE Kieran led me over to a small, leather couch in the corner far from Jim and his client, gesturing for me to sit. It felt comfortable.I sunk into it. The soft cushions were a welcome contrast to the stiff, angry posture I’d held all day. “So, are you ready to get ink on you?”My heart fluttered. I looked down at the tattoo magazines scattered on the small table between us, a sudden, nervous excitement bubbling up inside me.“Yeah,” I said, “I’m ready. I think.”He laughed, a rich, low sound that vibrated through the air. “You think? It’s okay if you’re not. It’s a big decision.”“No, I’m ready,” I insisted, feeling a rush of confidence. “I just… I have no idea what I want yet.”He moved from the stool he was sitting on, picked up one of the magazines and flipped through it. “Okay, let’s see. What are you looking for? Something big and bold, or something small and subtle?”He paused, a thoughtful look on his face. “You know,” he began, “we can design something from scratc
LUCIEN I didn’t think Shayle would actually leave. When she dropped the iPad and that goddamn red dress and walked out like that, I thought she’d come crawling back in a few minutes, head down, voice small, maybe muttering an apology. But she didn’t. I didn't care though. I bet she just went somewhere close to cool herself. Even the blondie was surprised, staring at the door Shayle had just slammed behind her. Her lips were still wet, her blouse half open, and her expression was caught somewhere between confusion and embarrassment. When she finally found her voice, she glanced at me and whispered, “Wasn’t that the girl whose boyfriend humiliated her last Friday?” I didn’t bother replying. I zipped up my pants, tucking my shirt back in, my mind still running through what the hell had just happened. The blondie frowned. “What are you doing, Lucien? We’re not done yet.” I finally turned my head toward her. “What’s your name again?” She blinked, taken aback, then stammered,
SHAYLE People definitely saw that slap; Carlos’s shocked face would probably be trending on office gossip by evening. As I walked away from the small crowd, I should’ve felt proud. I should’ve felt vindicated for finally putting that bastard in his place. But instead, all I felt was boiling anger. Did he really think I’d crawl back to him? That I was some pathetic girl who couldn’t live without him? No fucking way. By the time I reached Lucien’s office, my blood was still simmering. I didn’t even think twice before pushing his door open. I should’ve knocked. I really should’ve but I was too angry and I had not forgotten what he did. The moment I stepped in, the scene in front of me was unbelievable. But again, it was Lucien and I've seen worse. He sat there, cool, calm, and collected, leaning back in his chair, while a blonde woman knelt between his legs. Her head moved rhythmically, and even without a clear view, it was obvious what was happening. His gaze locked on mi