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I want to meet Renne. I miss her.

And I miss everyone .. actually.

But I can bear it. Until Rhysand's craziness wears off, until he gets tired of me, or until he changes enough to think that what he's done to me is wrong. I won't fight him anymore. This time. I know that Renne will be fine, Rhysand confirmed and assured me that yesterday. He wouldn't do anything bad to Renne when I didn't piss him off. And I was only able to maintain his sanity, not asking for anything more than he allowed: like running or trying to escape from him. I can't be selfish anymore, and I have to be realistic. He had already taken the lives of several people I cared about, and I would never let them be put in jeopardy by stirring up Rhysand's emotions. What will happen to me .. let it happen.

This might just be the way it goes, and I'm resigned to everything Rhysand wants to do for me. I'm just trying to enjoy this little piece of heaven... the backyard, and everything in here. It really felt like magic, an