ETHAN I woke up with a slight groan, sunlight bleeding through my lacy curtains. My whole body was so sore, it felt like I was run down by a truck. I didn't even remember how I got home last night. My pale green hoodie and black slacks framed my body, but I felt naked, revealed, violated. While I trailed my fingers over my lips, I could still taste him.Hear him. Feel his fingers dragging fire across my scalp. Fuck it. I peeled off the hoodie from my body, tossed the slacks away and stepped into the bathroom to have a shower. I avoided the mirrors.I didn't want to see the marks Killan gave me because I didn't want to accept the truth—that he was right. That I craved him as much as he craved me. That I couldn't get enough of his enormous cock buried in my mouth. Stepping out of the shower, I realized my phone kept buzzing. I didn't have to check to know who it was. Liam. He'd call that way each time I was close to missing an extremely important lecture. Professor Meadow's. St
KILLANLast night, I allowed him to take over—Rhydian. The beast that lurked beneath the surface. The other part of me I tried to hide from him. It was chaotic. Pleasurable. Tempting. The control I'd always craved for, I felt it slipping through like my cum. I could barely hold it in, could barely keep it together. Sinking my back into my black couch, I surfed the internet, eyes feeding on the news I'd missed out on. Images of my brother, some tweets about my mother, and the pack—but a particular video caught my attention. A blue haired dick had a large grin plastered on his lips. One I badly wanted to rip off. Ethan sat there, cheeks flushed, his transparent tee dripping with brown coffee. He tried to avoid the camera, but a few students surrounded him, calling him all sorts of names, and when my eyes trailed towards the caption, my blood ran cold. ‘Golden boy is actually an old man's fuck toy.’ Hours ago, I'd asked Bernard to take Ethan home because I didn't want him to fre
ETHANI didn't believe in words like “woke up on the wrong side of the bed”—but today, it badly felt like I'd woken up in someone's nightmare. As I strode through the busy hallway, I kept hearing the same voice. Soft. Calm. Haunting. A deep promise that I wasn't alone. But it could have just been a dream, right? Due to the incident that occured yesterday, I'd thought I'd be the topic of discussion. But I wasn't. My name wasn't on everyone's lips, it felt like everyone had forgotten the golden boy with the purple hickey on his arm. Phones were out. Josiah's name was everywhere. It wasn't just a whisper, or a rumor, it was a fact, a truth, an evidence that something huge had befallen him. I didn't understand what the sudden buzz was about, but it suddenly made me bump into someone. A brunette. She had her palm on her shoulder, brows knitted in pain. “Are you okay?” She asked softly.I glanced over my shoulder, wondering if she was referring to someone else. But it doesn't look l
KILLAN‘He'll haunt my dreams if I should mention his name.’ Clever. From a high tower—an old cathedral in the college—I stared down at the cafeteria, carefully watching as Josiah pleaded for his sins. The cathedral had no life in it, it was just there, living, breathing, housing forgotten prayers and cries of plea. But does the devil pray? I didn't know why I was here, but as the time ticked—fifty days left—I wanted more time. More time to watch fear spread across Ethan's face. More time to watch him smile. More time to fill his mouth with my cum, slap his ass cheeks, to remind him he wasn't alone. But time was one thing I didn't have. I couldn't give. Josiah's fingers were tightly wrapped around Ethan's legs. He looked pale, like he'd seen enough misery, but it was mine to tell if it was really enough. Last night, I gave him a choice. But he picked the latter. FLASHBACKIn the cold, dark night, I sneaked into Josiah's home. His parents were wealthy, well to do, I could tell
ETHAN My phone pinged with a text. “There's a car outside your home. Step in.” —Killan From my windows, I stared at the sleek black car which my whole neighborhood paled in comparison to. The past week had been pretty chaotic—the hickey night, the fall of almighty Josiah, Liam getting hooked with a stripper. And now, this? There was no way I'd return to his penthouse to be mouth fucked the second time. As much as I craved him, his scent, his whole being, staying away from him was the only way I'd remain sane. “What are you up to?” —Ethan I texted back, pacing around my room, patiently waiting for an explanation of some sorts. His reply came almost immediately, more like his eyes were glued to his phone. “I promise not to fuck your mouth.” —Killan I chuckled. Hard. Was that supposed to be an apology? What if this was another ploy, some calm before a storm kind of shit. What If he lured me into his room, planned something romantic, and fucks my mouth until it bec
KILLANThe firing range was dimly lit. The cold morning air kissed my skin, ruffling the silver strands falling over my brows. My whole attention was fixed on only one thing—the target. I fired at it with a perfect aim. Rapid. Emotionless. I aimed at another target for the hundredth time today. I needed a distraction, but I wasn't getting any. All I could think about was the sound of Ethan's voice, his lips glistening with the garlic soup I'd made, the hesitation in his eyes when he wanted to leave. The Moon Goddess knew how hard it was not to drag him to my bed. It was damn frustrating, keeping the wide smile on my lips, just so he wouldn't freak out and leave. I fired again. And I didn't miss. Not even once. “You should consider enlisting.” A loud clap echoed in my ears, interrupting my train of thoughts. I paused, glancing one my shoulders. “Your shots, they're clean as hell.” I came here to unwind, not to listen to praises. I ignored him. “You know, a ‘thank you’ wouldn'
ETHANWhat other distraction was better than being at Liam's? Dim lightning. Loud music. Soft hum of laughter, and beer bottles piled up on his table. Liam was sprawled on the couch, hands stretched behind his back, Jaz—his stripper girlfriend—curled on his lap like a cat. She had red lips, red hair, and red pointy nails. “Red brings new goodluck.” She'd always say, but I found it quite creepy. And Liam? He found it sexy, hot, says it gives her a killer vibe. Jaz’s stormy grey eyes were on me, nose breathing out smoke. “Liam baby, you sure your pal’s okay?” Okay? I was damn sure I felt the opposite. It's been more than a week. A week and two fucking days since I hadn't seen him. He didn't visit school like the old days, didn't hover around me or call me Master, he was different. So fucking different, I could rip my heart out to get the old Killan back. I could still taste the ginger soup. Okay, not the soup. But the weight of his stare? Still there. I saw the pain in his eyes
KILLAN Was he going to come? Would he make it here in time? I couldn't rip my gaze from the gates. It felt like my insides were quivering, intestines burning away in a hot bowl of flames. The pool party was alive, it was everything anyone could dream of—but I wasn't everyone. I only wanted one thing. ETHAN. Loud bass pulsed through my veins, fingers tightly wrapped around a glass of wine. I didn't know if I lost count of the days, but I could barely stand, barely keep my gaze on a particular object without it getting all blurry. But I held unto the fact that Ethan would be here. He had to be here. I was gradually losing it—my sanity—but I didn't want to push. Not when he'd stare at me like the monster I was. Bodies were gliding against each other, water being splashed as giggles filled the air. But this whole shit was for just one person. Ethan. I'd thought about it. Maybe Bernard was right, maybe telling him the truth wouldn't hurt. I didn't want to leave without s
KILLAN Was he going to come? Would he make it here in time? I couldn't rip my gaze from the gates. It felt like my insides were quivering, intestines burning away in a hot bowl of flames. The pool party was alive, it was everything anyone could dream of—but I wasn't everyone. I only wanted one thing. ETHAN. Loud bass pulsed through my veins, fingers tightly wrapped around a glass of wine. I didn't know if I lost count of the days, but I could barely stand, barely keep my gaze on a particular object without it getting all blurry. But I held unto the fact that Ethan would be here. He had to be here. I was gradually losing it—my sanity—but I didn't want to push. Not when he'd stare at me like the monster I was. Bodies were gliding against each other, water being splashed as giggles filled the air. But this whole shit was for just one person. Ethan. I'd thought about it. Maybe Bernard was right, maybe telling him the truth wouldn't hurt. I didn't want to leave without s
ETHANWhat other distraction was better than being at Liam's? Dim lightning. Loud music. Soft hum of laughter, and beer bottles piled up on his table. Liam was sprawled on the couch, hands stretched behind his back, Jaz—his stripper girlfriend—curled on his lap like a cat. She had red lips, red hair, and red pointy nails. “Red brings new goodluck.” She'd always say, but I found it quite creepy. And Liam? He found it sexy, hot, says it gives her a killer vibe. Jaz’s stormy grey eyes were on me, nose breathing out smoke. “Liam baby, you sure your pal’s okay?” Okay? I was damn sure I felt the opposite. It's been more than a week. A week and two fucking days since I hadn't seen him. He didn't visit school like the old days, didn't hover around me or call me Master, he was different. So fucking different, I could rip my heart out to get the old Killan back. I could still taste the ginger soup. Okay, not the soup. But the weight of his stare? Still there. I saw the pain in his eyes
KILLANThe firing range was dimly lit. The cold morning air kissed my skin, ruffling the silver strands falling over my brows. My whole attention was fixed on only one thing—the target. I fired at it with a perfect aim. Rapid. Emotionless. I aimed at another target for the hundredth time today. I needed a distraction, but I wasn't getting any. All I could think about was the sound of Ethan's voice, his lips glistening with the garlic soup I'd made, the hesitation in his eyes when he wanted to leave. The Moon Goddess knew how hard it was not to drag him to my bed. It was damn frustrating, keeping the wide smile on my lips, just so he wouldn't freak out and leave. I fired again. And I didn't miss. Not even once. “You should consider enlisting.” A loud clap echoed in my ears, interrupting my train of thoughts. I paused, glancing one my shoulders. “Your shots, they're clean as hell.” I came here to unwind, not to listen to praises. I ignored him. “You know, a ‘thank you’ wouldn'
ETHAN My phone pinged with a text. “There's a car outside your home. Step in.” —Killan From my windows, I stared at the sleek black car which my whole neighborhood paled in comparison to. The past week had been pretty chaotic—the hickey night, the fall of almighty Josiah, Liam getting hooked with a stripper. And now, this? There was no way I'd return to his penthouse to be mouth fucked the second time. As much as I craved him, his scent, his whole being, staying away from him was the only way I'd remain sane. “What are you up to?” —Ethan I texted back, pacing around my room, patiently waiting for an explanation of some sorts. His reply came almost immediately, more like his eyes were glued to his phone. “I promise not to fuck your mouth.” —Killan I chuckled. Hard. Was that supposed to be an apology? What if this was another ploy, some calm before a storm kind of shit. What If he lured me into his room, planned something romantic, and fucks my mouth until it bec
KILLAN‘He'll haunt my dreams if I should mention his name.’ Clever. From a high tower—an old cathedral in the college—I stared down at the cafeteria, carefully watching as Josiah pleaded for his sins. The cathedral had no life in it, it was just there, living, breathing, housing forgotten prayers and cries of plea. But does the devil pray? I didn't know why I was here, but as the time ticked—fifty days left—I wanted more time. More time to watch fear spread across Ethan's face. More time to watch him smile. More time to fill his mouth with my cum, slap his ass cheeks, to remind him he wasn't alone. But time was one thing I didn't have. I couldn't give. Josiah's fingers were tightly wrapped around Ethan's legs. He looked pale, like he'd seen enough misery, but it was mine to tell if it was really enough. Last night, I gave him a choice. But he picked the latter. FLASHBACKIn the cold, dark night, I sneaked into Josiah's home. His parents were wealthy, well to do, I could tell
ETHANI didn't believe in words like “woke up on the wrong side of the bed”—but today, it badly felt like I'd woken up in someone's nightmare. As I strode through the busy hallway, I kept hearing the same voice. Soft. Calm. Haunting. A deep promise that I wasn't alone. But it could have just been a dream, right? Due to the incident that occured yesterday, I'd thought I'd be the topic of discussion. But I wasn't. My name wasn't on everyone's lips, it felt like everyone had forgotten the golden boy with the purple hickey on his arm. Phones were out. Josiah's name was everywhere. It wasn't just a whisper, or a rumor, it was a fact, a truth, an evidence that something huge had befallen him. I didn't understand what the sudden buzz was about, but it suddenly made me bump into someone. A brunette. She had her palm on her shoulder, brows knitted in pain. “Are you okay?” She asked softly.I glanced over my shoulder, wondering if she was referring to someone else. But it doesn't look l
KILLANLast night, I allowed him to take over—Rhydian. The beast that lurked beneath the surface. The other part of me I tried to hide from him. It was chaotic. Pleasurable. Tempting. The control I'd always craved for, I felt it slipping through like my cum. I could barely hold it in, could barely keep it together. Sinking my back into my black couch, I surfed the internet, eyes feeding on the news I'd missed out on. Images of my brother, some tweets about my mother, and the pack—but a particular video caught my attention. A blue haired dick had a large grin plastered on his lips. One I badly wanted to rip off. Ethan sat there, cheeks flushed, his transparent tee dripping with brown coffee. He tried to avoid the camera, but a few students surrounded him, calling him all sorts of names, and when my eyes trailed towards the caption, my blood ran cold. ‘Golden boy is actually an old man's fuck toy.’ Hours ago, I'd asked Bernard to take Ethan home because I didn't want him to fre
ETHAN I woke up with a slight groan, sunlight bleeding through my lacy curtains. My whole body was so sore, it felt like I was run down by a truck. I didn't even remember how I got home last night. My pale green hoodie and black slacks framed my body, but I felt naked, revealed, violated. While I trailed my fingers over my lips, I could still taste him.Hear him. Feel his fingers dragging fire across my scalp. Fuck it. I peeled off the hoodie from my body, tossed the slacks away and stepped into the bathroom to have a shower. I avoided the mirrors.I didn't want to see the marks Killan gave me because I didn't want to accept the truth—that he was right. That I craved him as much as he craved me. That I couldn't get enough of his enormous cock buried in my mouth. Stepping out of the shower, I realized my phone kept buzzing. I didn't have to check to know who it was. Liam. He'd call that way each time I was close to missing an extremely important lecture. Professor Meadow's. St
KILLAN “Did you do this deliberately? Drag him here like a little prey begging to be spanked?” I crossed my arm, back leaning on the wall, eyes fixed on Bernard. He exhaled, fingers clasped around the rim of a porcelain vase. “You told me the seer warned you—sixty days left.” “Fifty eight.” I corrected, a bite to my voice. “You think that makes this better?” “You should spend those days with someone you trust.” “And put him in danger?” I scoffed, letting out a soft chuckle. “You don't get it, Bernard.” “You're the Alpha.” He whispered, setting the porcelain vase on a small stand. “If you can't protect him, who can?” I didn't answer. I couldn't. “You deserve happiness, Mr. Grey.” “It's a goddamned illusion, you know that. It never lasts.” “Then make him your illusion.” He said firmly, eyes locked on mine. “And if I forget him?” “Then let him remember you.” A crash rang from the kitchen, followed by a curse word. Ethan. I left Bernard and strode towards the sound. When