ETHAN
~Sometimes, the truth you've always known could be a lie all along~ “Dear master, I'm on heat, and the only way I'll feel better is by pinning you beneath me.” His deep baritone voice lingered in my ears like black smoke. Even as I stepped into college after skipping classes for a whole week, It still haunted me. I'd always hated walking through the busy hallway. Now, I could literally feel some curious eyes burning holes into my back, making my skin prickle with unease. I was the odd one. The lean guy who was always stuck with his books. The golden student. The one who never skipped a single class, but I broke my records now, didn't I? He fucking made me do it. Their curious glances made me bump into some tall shit. He shot me a ‘watch it' look and I shrugged, mouthing an apology as I headed straight for my first class on the list. Suddenly, my body was squashed like some tomato stacked with a few others. Ladies began pushing me, eager to rush over to the front, and I couldn't help but roll my eyes in frustration. A particular blonde kept running her tits over my arm—by mistake of course—and I couldn't help but grin. This wasn't so bad, alright? “OMG! He's so fucking handsome.” “He literally looks like a Greek god! Hell, I can't wait to get my paws on him.” It was obviously some new student shit. The crowd was slowly clearing up, a relief. I didn't care about the new student—didn’t care about the activities in school, so I headed towards Prof. Meadows class, until I heard a statement. A statement that should be a coincidence. It had to be. Silver hair with icy blue eyes could belong to anyone. It didn't strictly belong to him. Something in me kept clawing at my chest, urging me to attend the class rather than feed my burning curiosity, but my legs just kept moving faster. Eager. I'd left Killan in bed. He tried sniffing me again, but I angrily pushed him away. He wasn't even awake when I left. How could he— My thoughts evaporated as my gaze locked on the athletic young man leaning on a brown locker, a cocky smirk playing on his full lips. He was clothed in something that definitely wasn't mine. Black leather blazers, black pants, his silver hair much more defined and smooth. And there was something about his eyes. Dark. Icy. Lifeless. They were staring at me. My legs threathed to give out, the weight of his gaze pinning me in place. Something about his eyes made me want to get the hell outta here. I stepped back. His smirk widened. What the hell was he doing in my college hallway? And how did he become a new student? I'd have loved to ask him the fucking question right now, but not when ladies were all trying to have a conversation with him. He was buried in the crowd, their eyes dragging over him with insane hunger. I'd get more time with him alone. ‘I definitely have to talk to him’ ~~~~ Upon getting into class, my mind was completely shitty and messy. My eyes trailed towards Alicia, her slender arm clutching my bestfriend’s, and this fiery flame ignited again. It felt like the fresh pain of betrayal was peeled open, making me realize I wasn't just hurt by Alicia, I also couldn't accept the fact that Jamie had stabbed me in the back. I ripped my gaze from them, nodding at the ginger haired fella grinning at me. Liam. I settled in my front seat, watching as Liam leaned over my table. “Buddy.” He grinned, wriggling his brows, “heard about the new student girls are fussing over?” Liam asked in his usual observative voice, and it took everything in me to not ask him to fuck off. Liam was just about the same height as Killan. We'd known each other for a pretty long time, long enough to know my lack of interest in girls. Since he was leaning so close, his curly ginger hair obstructed my vision, “You're not saying anything.” He quipped, noticing I was zooming off, and maybe I was, because…Killan suddenly strode in, commanding the whole room with his suffocating presence. And fuck it, he was striding torwards me. He was fucking approaching me. I sank my nails into my flesh as he slipped into the seat next to me. “You didn't wait for breakfast, Master.” he teased, completely ignoring Liam. Liam gave me a be-careful-around-him stare before walking away. As soon as Liam was out of sight, I grabbed Killan's wrist, almost bruising his skin. “What the heck do you think you're doing here?” I snapped, my voice a soft whisper, “you shouldn't be here.” Killan gave me a hurtful look, like his heart was being squeezed, “I should be with Master every time.” “That's not going to work this time.” I gritted out, “tell me the truth or—” I was forced to swallow up my words due to Professor Meadow's presence. I loosened my grip on Killan's wrist and he smirked. I'd always enjoyed Professor Meadows class, but with this predator right next to me, it was starting to get uncomfortable. I couldn't focus on my notes nor listen to the professor's voice. Killan was too close. So fucking close, his scent was messing with my entire system. I endured professor Meadow's class and about two other lectures before walking up to the cafeteria for lunch, and fun fact? Killan was there, his gaze sinking deep into my bones, his presence like acid peeling my skin. Fury coiled in my chest at how much my body reacted to his mere gaze. Strangely, his voice still echoed in my ears again. I clutched my tray and headed to a table far away from him. I just wanted to fucking get away from him. From everyone. By the time school was over, my head was a mess. But Travis would have my ass if I didn't come for my shift. St. Travis’s restaurant was where I worked, it was the only thing that kept me from being kicked out of my apartment. So much for being an orphan. If my parents were here, It'd definitely be a different scenario. I missed watching my mum smile as she basked under the warmth of the sun, I missed hearing my dad tell her how beautiful she was—but everything went down during a plane crash. It still hurts. Badly. But I'd survived. I changed my clothes upon getting in through the back door. “Serve the first table, Ethan. You came late.” My boss snapped, shoving a silver tray in my hands. I glanced at the single glass of coffee resting on the tray and tightened my grip on it, “whatever you say, boss.” I got out of the kitchen and walked towards the first table, but upon seeing the same smirk plastered on someone I badly wanted to escape from, I froze. He smirked at me. He fucking smirked at me. And what the hell was he doing at my workplace?ETHAN~Trusting sucks when you get stabbed in the back repeatedly~“What are you doing here?” I whispered, placing his coffee on the round table. The smirk on his lips was gone, replaced with a look that sent a shudder down my spine, like he'd answered the same question before. He made me feel dumb for asking a reasonable question. He took a small sip of the coffee, his eyes never leaving mine, “I followed you here, Master. I wasn't allowed to go in through the back door.” Why on earth was he even following me?I pinched the bridge of my nose, glancing over my shoulders to stare at my grumpy boss. “You need to leave. Now.” I spat, fingers tightening around the silver tray. He ruined my class with Prof. Meadows, he'd definitely do the same here. Standing up close to him was already messing with my system. “I'm not leaving. I'll stay till you close up.” He gave me a challenging smile, almost like he was saying ‘you can't make me leave. I'm stuck with you till death' “That's not go
ETHAN'S POV~I met him again—the young boy that found comfort in darkness instead of being afraid of it~“Who on earth does he think he is to order me around?” I huffed, plugging my earbuds in as I strolled down the empty streets. Did he think I was some helpless guy who couldn’t fight for himself? Or a damsel in distress, clinging to cryptic messages from some strange guy calling me “Master?” I had just finished my shift at St. Travis’s restaurant.It was almost midnight, no taxis in sight, so I kept walking, letting ‘Just My Type by The Vamps’ blast through my ears. The beat always calmed my nerves during frustrating times like these. To get home faster, I took a shortcut through an alley, but the moment I turned the corner, three men blocked my path. My steps slowed as I yanked my earbuds out and shoved them into my pocket.“Excuse me,” I said, squaring my shoulders. “You’re in my way.”“That was intentional.” The leanest of the three crossed his arms. The dim alleyway barely le
ETHAN~Betrayal doesn't come from enemies—it comes from those who promised to stay~“So, you got all mushy together last night?“ Liam asked, stuffing some chips into his mouth, his lips spreading into a wide grin. “Tell me, did something else…happen?“ “No, gross.“ I spat, grabbing a small bottle of water on our round table. Each student had their table. For example—the school losers, Liam and I, had been sitting on this table since freshman year. Jamie moved ever since he started fucking Alicia. Not like he was a school loser. He was seemingly too perfect to be one. A complete opposite of me. “I don't believe you.“ Liam smirked, staring down at his empty bag of chips. “I mean, he wouldn't have just hugged you without initiating something.“ “Shut the fuck up, Liam.“ I growled. “Nothing happened. He…it was just a hug.“ But deep down, I knew it was way more than that. It was how he tapped into my emotions and calmed me in a way no one had ever done it. And strangely, I gave into h
ETHAN ~Sometimes, pain doesn't bleed. It stays quiet, eats you up slowly until you can't hold it in no more~ “What little secret?“ My jaw clenched, rage surging through my veins as my pulse raced. Sometimes, I wondered what I'd done to deserve friends who shattered the word 'trust' like it never really mattered. Jamie and I had been through the worst together, been through hell even. Once, we skipped prom to sit on a cold hospital floor, waiting for his sick mom to wake up. He took punches for me in highschool and me? I took the fall for him in college every fucking time. He'd apologize, say it was a mistake, but I knew my best friend was slowly slipping. He was the first person who ever said he loved me like family, but now, he made me realize that the word 'brother' never really mattered. He hurt me. And hell, it hurt more than a thousand stitches on my dick. Jamie smirked, his eyes ridiculously dark. He once told me we'd be friends for life, join our children together
ETHAN~Sometimes, I wondered if everything he showed was just a mask, but I chose to trust him anyway~I woke up with a slight groan, my head pounding, vision blurry. Glancing around the white walled room, my eyes naturally gravitated to a tall, lean figure leaning on the wall. Clad in a black blazer and some blue jeans, he looked ruggedly handsome, breathtaking, beautiful—in a dark way. Dammit. Why was I thinking about him that way? I tried to sit upright, but my whole body ached. It literally felt like I was run down by a large truck. Swallowing hard, I squinted my eyes. “Take me home, Killan. I shouldn't be here.“ Killan's gaze pinned me in place, cutting through me like a blade as a twitch touched the corner of his lips. “You have a broken nose, a broken rib, and oh,” he stalked towards me, his eyes narrowing. “A purple eye. So, tell me MASTER, do you think you deserve to go home in this state?“ “I have to work.“ I ripped my gaze from his, focusing on something else. Those eye
ETHAN~He wasn't the monster I feared, he was the one I couldn't help but reach out for~Now that I thought about it, Liam was quite right. It made me remember the first time I picked up a dog in the middle of the street, my first reaction to meeting a grown up man laying on my bed like he owned it. It was odd. Too strange. What was Killan if he wasn't human? And who exactly was he? I was discharged from the hospital a few days later, and I spent most of my time doing research on the theory of a dog transforming into a man. Each writeup I came across didn't make sense, none of them did. What I saw was Lycanthropy—a man transforming into a beast, but that dog was no beast. Could it be a disguise? Of course not. It could have been a hallucination, maybe Killan sneaked into my home, perhaps science could explain whatever the shit happened . I closed up my computer and sucked in a deep breath. A chilly sense of dread crawled up my spine, making me uneasy. Lycans didn't exist, werewo
ETHAN ~Regret is a useless feeling, the deed is already done~The soft ray of the sun seeped in through the curtains, disrupting my peaceful sleep on a barely perfect day. Massaging my temples, I briefly glanced at the blank space where Killan slept—but he wasn't here. I stretched with a groan and stumbled into the bathroom, almost losing my balance at the sight of a shirtless Killan washing his face. For some odd reason, I couldn't stop staring at his broad shoulders and the V shape of his firm waist. His chest was well sculpted, powerful, but my eyes kept wandering towards the slight bulge dow—“Can't stop staring?“ Killan teased, turning to stare at me, his back leaning against the ceramic sink. “I wasn't staring.“ “Which isn't true.“ His lips tilted into a cunning smirk as he stalked towards me. Standing before me, his fingers found my cheekbone, grazing it slowly, like a master caressing his favorite pet. I unconsciously leaned in, but Killan pulled away with a mischievous g
ETHAN ~He was a deathly mistake, a pleasurable sin, a deadly obsession….and soon, he'd be the death of me~Days turned into weeks. The sun barely showed up, the sky was always cloudy, gloomy and moody. Just the way I felt ever since my encounter with the stranger at the cafeteria. He held so much power that he crushed my bones with a single touch. It literally felt like my whole being was being stuffed with unquenchable flames, more painful than anything I'd ever experienced. Killan avoided the question like a plague. He avoided me like a plague. He was always on the edge, always extra cautious—like he knew he was being followed. Standing at the front porch of my small apartment, I licked my lips, watching as Gregor's car passed right by. I'd been able to get a little cash from my shift at St. Travis—wasn't all of it, but it was a tangible amount. “Gregor.“ I called out, jogging after his crumpled car. The shit was as messed up as he was. He pulled up at his garage, his stern e
KILLANLast night, I allowed him to take over—Rhydian. The beast that lurked beneath the surface. The other part of me I tried to hide from him. It was chaotic. Pleasurable. Tempting. The control I'd always craved for, I felt it slipping through like my cum. I could barely hold it in, could barely keep it together. Sinking my back into my black couch, I surfed the internet, eyes feeding on the news I'd missed out on. Images of my brother, some tweets about my mother, and the pack—but a particular video caught my attention. A blue haired dick had a large grin plastered on his lips. One I badly wanted to rip off. Ethan sat there, cheeks flushed, his transparent tee dripping with brown coffee. He tried to avoid the camera, but a few students surrounded him, calling him all sorts of names, and when my eyes trailed towards the caption, my blood ran cold. ‘Golden boy is actually an old man's fuck toy.’ Hours ago, I'd asked Bernard to take Ethan home because I didn't want him to fre
ETHAN I woke up with a slight groan, sunlight bleeding through my lacy curtains. My whole body was so sore, it felt like I was run down by a truck. I didn't even remember how I got home last night. My pale green hoodie and black slacks framed my body, but I felt naked, revealed, violated. While I trailed my fingers over my lips, I could still taste him.Hear him. Feel his fingers dragging fire across my scalp. Fuck it. I peeled off the hoodie from my body, tossed the slacks away and stepped into the bathroom to have a shower. I avoided the mirrors.I didn't want to see the marks Killan gave me because I didn't want to accept the truth—that he was right. That I craved him as much as he craved me. That I couldn't get enough of his enormous cock buried in my mouth. Stepping out of the shower, I realized my phone kept buzzing. I didn't have to check to know who it was. Liam. He'd call that way each time I was close to missing an extremely important lecture. Professor Meadow's. St
KILLAN “Did you do this deliberately? Drag him here like a little prey begging to be spanked?” I crossed my arm, back leaning on the wall as I gazed at Bernard. He exhaled out loud, his fingers tightly wrapped around an antique vase. “You told me the seer had told you about having sixty days left.” His voice dropped lower. “Shouldn't you spend those days with someone you trust?” “Fifty eight days to be exact.” There was a bite to my voice as I recalled the bitch’s words. “I might be putting him in danger Bernard, you really don't understand.” “You're the Alpha, you're strong enough to protect him.” “I know, but—”“Alpha Alex, I think you deserve to be happy. You should be.” “We both know that happiness is just an illusion. It never lasts.” Bernard exhaled again.This time, he placed the vase on a small coffee table. His palm hovered over my shoulder blade before he slowly placed his palm on it. “Enjoy the tiny bit of happiness you have, and even though it doesn't last, you liv
ETHAN“You made the right decision, Ethan.” Liam's all knowing voice made me clench my fists. Tightening my grip on my phone, I inhaled a deep breath. “If I made the right decision, I need to understand why it hurts so much, you know? I can barely sleep without anticipating his return. It's….eating me up.” “Then do something else.” Liam suggested. He wasn't my best pal, but I'd told him everything between Killan and I. Our first meeting, our last meeting, the chaotic kisses that tied our hearts together. Everything apart from the dog part. Cleaning up the last table, I exhaled out loud. “Something else like what?” “Look, Ethan.” He paused, clearing his throat. “It's still a bit hard for me to process the fact that you're gay, but—” “I am bisexual.” I argued. “Yeah, tell that to my stomach. You can't kiss a girl for ten minutes straight without getting the urge to puke.” “That's so not true.” I laughed, setting the wipe in the trash can. “I..it's difficult to explain.” “Which
KILLANSilence—that was all I could hear. But the silence wasn't deafening, it was suffocating, a deep tug that kept reminding me of Ethan's absence. The last time we met was a few days ago, but I could still taste his lips on mine, feel the flavor, the sweetness, the overwhelming feeling it brought to my chest. Two days ago, I visited a bar. I fucked a blonde’s lips to exhaustion, made her throat ache and her eyes teary, but I kept seeing Ethan. A day before yesterday, I skipped school and went bowling. I won with each shot, it made it boring for me—the fact that I never lost—and what made it even worse was the fact that I tapped a stranger's shoulder because he had the same hair color as Ethan. Last night, it was a tug of war. I'd gotten his number—stolen it—by hacking Liam's phone, but I couldn't bring myself to type a single message. I'd type, erase, type. The never ending cycle made me punch the walls again and I ended up with a split, unhealed knuckle. Right now, I was sp
~He stormed out of my life like he always did, but this time, it might be the end~ETHANThe night was still, the rain tapping lightly against the window as I prepared for bed, completely exhausted from avoiding Killan. Earlier today, while he'd showed up at St Travis’ restaurant, he nearly sucked my breath from my lungs. With how dangerously seductive he looked, I wanted him to push me against some wall and fuck my lips with his tongue. But I couldn't keep on holding onto someone who refused to open up. I couldn't stay when we were walls apart. Just as I was about to settle into my bed, there was a knock on my door. Without glancing at the cameras, I already knew who it was. My heart picked up its pace, a sudden dizziness washing over me. I wanted to ignore him, leave him out there—in the rain—and force myself to sleep, but my body betrayed me. It always did whenever it came to him. Stumbling towards the entrance in my navy blue pajamas, I pulled the door open, meeting his dar
KILLAN I'd always loved punching. The idea of zeroing my mind on a dummy was a relaxation scheme. My relaxation scheme. My father had always said “the most important thing in our world is power, without it you'll be a pawn.” And this was the reason for my obsession. He drilled it into me like a daily mantra, sealed off every other thing—emotions, love, a sense of duty—and all that was left was a deep infatuation for power. I'd always loved control. But Ethan turned on my emotions like a switch. He turned them on and turned them off, showing me that the goddamned power and control that was driving me nuts? I didn't own them. Not when it came to my heart. It was why I couldn't stop punching this dummy. As I punched it, I was supposed to feel relaxed, to forget Ethan, to forget he existed in my world; but I only felt rage, anger, a deep infatuation to be punching an actual person instead. He'd told me to ‘stay the fuck away’ Ethan looked me in the eye and fucking
ETHAN ~I’d told him I didn't need his help, but I'd cut my chest open just to feel his warmth against my skin~“Killan hasn't been home for a few days and it sucks.” I bit into the hamburger I got from the kitchen. Seated across my lanky friend, Liam, I watched as his lips curled into a creepy smile. “You miss him, don't you?” Badly. My body craved his warmth, his lips, his touch, but he wasn't ready to open up to me. Taking another large bite of the hamburger, I slumped into my seat, letting out a soft moan. “I don't.” I denied, “my home is just…..” “Empty.” Liam cut in, crossing his arm over his ‘Fuck off, losers’ T-shirt. “Your house has always been empty, Ethan.” He said as a matter of fact, “I think it's high time you forget about him. He doesn't need you anymore.” He doesn't need me anymore? A sharp pain in my throat made it hard for me to breathe. Liam leaned closer, his ginger hair scattered all over his forehead, the root a bit darker. “He's the school's king now, the
KILLANI still saw my blood—soaked in a white tee, dripping from a large wound over my forehead, trailing down my brows until I was a bloody mess. The loud screech of the tires still rang in my ears day and night. It was a repeat of the never ending pain that sucked all air from my lungs, made me helpless, weak. That goddamned accident that changed everything. That goddamned accident that made me meet him—Ethan. Only two things mattered in my life. Control and power. With these two things, I could control the world, bend everyone to my will, make them bow to their knees at the sound of my voice. But it was different with him. He was slowly slipping into my cracks, invading my thoughts like he owned everything in there. He was making me lose one thing I valued more than my whole life—control. What I felt for him, I couldn't explain. It wasn't just attraction, it was a burn in my whole being, a sick obsession to claim him each time I set my eyes on him. Pin him against the wall, p