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ANNABELLE
She had worn the earrings his mother once called pretty at a Christmas dinner, the gold ones she'd been saving for an event that deserved them, and she sat across from Jack Mensah, her boyfriend who hopefully after tonight would be her fiancée.Annabelle couldn't wait to say YES. They had been in the restaurant for the past hour, eating food she couldn't taste, and she had felt like a woman on the edge of something wonderful. Annabelle had to give Jack his credit; he knew how to keep the suspense.
"I'll be right back," Jack said, standing, patting his jacket pocket the way men do when they're checking for a ring box, and Annabelle Wade smiled into her wineglass and thought, so it's really happening tonight. She'd suspected for weeks that Jack was going to propose. He had been carrying a careful energy that she'd found suspicious.
The dinner had been exactly what she'd wanted it to be, which made her further believe her theory.
Jack had made the reservation himself, and that's usual of him. He was a man who would show up to places and charm his way in, he believed that confidence was a reasonable substitute for planning, and it usually worked for him. But a week ago, he had walked into her office and said, "Clear your Saturday. I'm booking Osei's."Osei's, where they'd had their first date. She'd worn a green dress and knocked over a water glass, and he'd laughed in the easy way that had made her think she had chosen the right man. She'd asked him earlier tonight if he remembered that night, and he'd said yes with a complicated smile. Annabelle did not read too much into it, she thought he must be nervous.
She believed in him and had built a great deal on that foundation.
"You seem far away," Jack said some minutes into the second course, tilting his head with the attentive frown he used when he wanted her to feel seen. He was excellent at it, so much so that she found it endearing.
"I'm right here," she said and smiled. "I'm just happy."
"Yeah?" He smiled back, as if proud of himself.
"Yeah." She reached across the table and touched his hand. "I really am."
He squeezed her fingers and looked down at the table for a moment, and she watched his jaw tighten slightly, watched him swallow something down. She also interpreted it as a sign that he was overcome and gathering himself before a significant moment. She found it unbearably sweet that Jack Mensah, who walked into boardrooms like he owned the air in them, was nervous to ask her a question she'd already decided to say yes to.
"I wanted tonight to be good," he mumbled.
"It is," she said. "It really is."
He nodded slowly, his hand still around hers. She looked at him across the candlelight and the good crystal. She felt the warm and settled
"I've been thinking about us," Jack said. "About what we have been building and what comes next."
Her heart skipped a beat. "Me too," she breathed.
He opened his mouth, then closed it. Reached for his wineglass, but didn't drink from it. "There's something I need to tell you, Ann."
"Okay," she teased lightly.
He exhaled, rubbed the back of his neck and looked up at her, and there it was again, that expression she had been noticing for weeks and calling tenderness. "I'll be right back," he said, standing and straightening his jacket. He left his phone on the table.
She did not notice the phone at first, her mind was too busy mentally rehearsing her reaction. Her goal was to appear somewhat surprised and a little emotional, yet composed, creating a memorable story for later.
She was smiling at nothing when the phone screen lit up with a text.
Miss me already?
The name above the text read Mia with a love emoji attached. Annabelle set down her wineglass with great care.
Mia, whom Jack had introduced six months ago with his hand easy on her shoulder. His childhood friend from his old neighborhood. The same Mia who Annabelle had folded into her life with the open-handed generosity of a woman in love. Why would Jake be missing Mia on the night he meant to propose?
She stared at the message. Curiosity got the best of her, so she picked up the phone. No password. Of course, no password. Why would a man who had thoroughly taken you for a fool bother with a password? Hoping to God she was just being paranoid for nothing, she opened the thread.
Annabelle read backwards, quickly, the way you rip off a bandage, and what she found was six months of messages that rearranged the last six months of her life into something unrecognizable. She read until her vision went strange at the edges. Then a new message stopped her entirely.
Have you told her yet?
Jack hadn't come back from the bathroom. She stared at the question and then, with the steadiness of a woman who had spent her life being the practical one, she typed:No. And she waited. Two responses came in immediately, one after the other.
Ugh, babe, just do it.
I wish I could see her face when you tell her salary is being cut. She's so stupid she actually believes the company is in financial crisis.
Annabelle couldn't believe her eyes, she laughed maniacally, placing her hand over her chest to ease the pain that erupted there.
The company that she had built from a good idea and a G****e Drive folder into something with clients and a reputation and a functioning back end, her company, with Jack's name on the door because she loved him and love had made her catastrophically generous with things that should have had her name on them. It was all a lie.
Her steady hands impressed her, but her mind wasn't as composed, still reeling from the shock that the night had turned out the way it did. There was no proposal, no ring. Her five years with Jack, with nothing but betrayal to show for it.
Annabelle opened the phone's camera. She took a picture of herself, her expression showing a woman calm in the face of a storm. Satisfied with the picture, she typed out a message to Mia:
How about I send you a picture instead, fucking slut?
She attached the photo, hit send and put the phone faced-down on the table exactly where Jack had left it.
Annabelle picked up her bag, Jack came out of the bathroom doorway as she stood up to leave. She didn't look at him not trusting what her face would do if she looked at him, and she had already decided she would not cry in this restaurant and give him the memory of her falling apart because he couldn't keep it in his pants. She walked past him toward the door with the particular posture of a woman who is holding something very large, tightly.
He didn't call after her, and a lone tear escaped, slipping the the left side of her down her face.
ENOCHEnoch stood by the bed too long.Anna was already asleep again judging by her slow breathing, dark hair spread across the pillow like silk. He watched her chest rise and fall. Felt a dangerous twist in his gut.Dearest.The word she'd murmured against his shoulder still burned. For one moment in the dark hallway, he'd almost believed she knew who held her. That she wanted him to.He left before he did something unforgivable.The shower ran ice cold.Six years. That's how long he'd tried not to want her. Since her nineteenth birthday. She had been in a yellow dress that caught his attention like fire. Since he'd walked into his aunt's house, hed known that he was in serious trouble.She'd been laughing with her head tilted back. He'd stopped walking mid stride. Twenty-four years old and suddenly capable of nothing but staring at his cousin.He'd spent the years pretending it wasn't real. Sent birthday gifts. Avoided family gatherings. Built a company and told himself that was en
ANNAEnoch left twenty minutes later. Anna spent the next hour doing nothing.She made more coffee. Stared out the window. Sat on the couch and scrolled her phone without reading anything.Then she wandered around like she was in a museum, touching his things while she imagined she was touching him. The books on the shelf were way more novels than she expected. She saw photos from family events, none with her in them.She looked at the view from every window. Then decided to unpack.Her suitcase sat in the corner, untouched. She opened it and stared at the clothes she'd thrown in during her panic-packing. Just looking at them made her tired.But the wardrobe was right there. It'd be rude not to use it.She pulled the doors open."Oh my God," she whispered.It wasn't empty. It was full.Dresses in silk, linen and soft wool hung in rows with colors that made her breath catch. Blouses on one side. Trousers on the other. A whole section of casual clothes that looked like clouds.Below th
ANNAThe first thought that surfaced through the fog of sleep was that she was lying on something so soft and so expensive that it felt illegal to exist here without a signed contract and a credit check.She stretched both arms out, then rolled over and screamed into the pillow. Not a dignified twenty-five-year-old woman scream. A little kid scream.She was here. Actually here. In London. In Enoch's apartment.Anna kicked her legs under the duvet, grinning like an idiot. Then she rolled the other way because the sheets felt too good not to. She gave herself sixty seconds of pure, stupid happiness. When she finished, she sat up and looked around.The guest room with cream walls and dark wood furniture was bigger than her entire old apartment. Everything was in the right place. Through the gap in the curtains, she could see buildings climbing toward a grey sky.She padded to the window and pulled the curtains open."Oh," she breathed.The grand city spread out before her full of poss
ANNACheck-in was quick. Security was slower but manageable. By the time she reached her gate, she had forty minutes until board. She found a seat near the window and sat and watched planes take off and land and told herself she still wasn't scanning the crowd.She pulled out her phone and opened her notes' app. The list she'd started on Saturday night, drunk and heartbroken on her bathroom floor. It was stupid and petty and exactly what she needed.Beautiful men she intended to date.She scrolled through the names of her old friends and acquaintances and felt the absurdity of it. This was ridiculous, she thought. But just the right amount of ridiculousness she needed. The list was supposed to be honest. That was the whole point. She was done being practical about men, done pretending she didn't want what she wanted. If what she wanted was a man she couldn't have, a man who was her cousin, then the list should reflect that.She saved the entry and put the phone away.The gate area wa
ANNAAnna had been awake for hours before the sun finally appeared. She'd lain in the dark listening to Maya's steady breathing from the couch and had taken in every sound of the apartment. The refrigerator's hum. The faint traffic from the street below. The way the floorboards creaked near the door.She was saying goodbye to it before she'd even gotten out of bed.She gave up on sleep and made coffee. She showered and by eight A.M. She stood in the center of the living room with her single suitcase and her carry-on and looked at what remained. The boxes for storage, the leaving pile would go to donation, and the furniture that belonged to the apartment would stay exactly where it was for the next person.Maya appeared in the doorway of the bedroom, a blanket wrapped around her shoulders, her hair spiked up in different directions. She looked at Anna standing in the middle of the room and said nothing for a long moment."That's it?" she finally asked."Yeah." Anna looked at the suitca
ANNAAnna stood in the center of her living room with the box from the office still in her arms and realized she had nowhere to put it down because every surface was already covered with the debris of five years she was supposed to be dismantling. She set it on the floor instead. The cactus went on the windowsill where it belonged, rescued from Mia's territorial rearrangement, and she stood there for a moment with her hand on the pot and thought about how strange it was that a plant had been the thing that finally made her angry.Not the affair. Not the lies. A cactus. Moved to a windowsill like it was nothing.She shook her head, and then sat down on the floor because standing suddenly felt like too much, and she let herself have exactly five minutes of doing nothing.When the five minutes were up, she stood, changed into clothes that could get dirty, and started.The kitchen first, because it was the easiest. Dishes she didn't care about went into the leaving pile. The good ones, th







