The boredom of life is bothering me more and more, the image of Rahman I must immediately erase in my mind, let it be if one day he chooses that woman over me and Queeniera. Yes I have to be alone first, I want to be alone even for a moment. Matured my intention to separate from Rahman.
But before I go on vacation, I have to meet Febri first, so I have to apologize to him. And to be honest about what happened when I was in high school, why did I have to leave him in college. I heard from high school friends because Febri and I have not been able to move on and have a serious companion until now. I called him, Febri's house is not far from my office, it took me 10 minutes to pick him up."Sin get in the car.""Yes Feb, thank you.""Bump, why are you calling me, I haven't seen you in several years, where is your bodyguard, Sin?""Going to the sea with the actor Feb.""Seriously you Sin? Sintia, her husband was taken by the actor?”"Yes, why should you be surprisedOne year I lived in honey, some said Rahman was just dating, some said Rahman had remarried behind my back. My career was ruined, my girl grew up without a father, Rahman still worked, he always left early in the morning and came home at midnight and almost dawn. My life is like hell. His nonchalant attitude disgusts me. Day by day he grew colder towards me, but towards Queeniera his affection was still the same.Gone is Rahman's romantic sense to me, who used to always be loyal to accompany my activities, now almost nothing at all. I go to work alone, have lunch with friends, go shopping, go to the salon. Rahman really doesn't care what I do and is getting more and more indifferent.Apart from working, I continue to pioneer my business at home, starting from a children's clothing store, cellphone accessories, cellphone credit, herbal medicines and so on. All these activities I do to get rid of my loneliness. Sometimes mom and Egi who always support me for business, there's no
Sintia has been hurt by Rahman for a long time, Sintia is already strong in deciding to divorce from Rahman. My body is getting thinner, the tears are gone, days and years. I go Rahman, live with him not me and your son. Today my heart is strong to say that.Every night Rahman came home late, always above 20.00 WIB, his body was wrinkled, the smell of gasoline and dust seemed to have been spent on a long trip. Where did he go, even though he wasn't working anymore. My friend who was in charge of following also gave the news that Rahman often came to his lover's boarding house. The further and daring they did, the more likely they were to have an unregistered marriage behind me. I want it to feel like I don't care and just close my eyes. But my heart can't feel it. Yes I will take care of my divorce soon, soon I will take care of it with my lawyer.I've been asleep since this afternoon, after Agus bought me medicine, at 21.00 pm Rahman startled me, he snapped at
Egi went to my house, I told him what had happened, that I had divorced from Rahman, and I told him all my troubled feelings. I want him to stay away from me, so that there is no slander in the environment. Egi shed tears, he told me if all time could be turned back to 2010 years ago."Why did everything have to end like this, Sis Egi has a replacement for you, her name is Natalie, my sister went out with her after you left and there is no news anymore. It's hard to forget you.""Yes, I'm sorry, Egi, sorry."“Sis Egi is really sincere about our relationship, now Egi wants to propose to Natalie but Mom forbids it because we are of different religions. At first, my sister wanted to try to explore our relationship again, maybe it won't be as easy as before getting the blessing of my mom and dad because of the widow's status. But big brother is trying to find the right reason to marry you later.""Yes, Egi, you understand that, so I really ask you to stay away from me first
I have entrusted Queeniera to my parents for three years in the village. I work around looking for a quiet word so as not to be disturbed by my ex-husband and the evil actor. My stepmother and stepfather looked older every time I visited and the old scars and sadness on their faces were evident. Obviously, it must be hard for them to think about the fate of my life which is not fine anymore.Now that I live and work in Jakarta, it's really hard, I never even imagined that long ago I had to be able to fight in a Metro Politan city full of crime, struggles in the world of work and for sure nothing is free here. I have to rent a boarding house, have to find my own food, and struggle to get to my own office in crowds on public transportation, both trains and buses. I don't have many friends because this is a new city that I stop by to find a new job and fortune.At the beginning of every month I always take the time to go home from Jakarta to Lampung just to see Queeniera's childr
Tonight, I smiled to myself in the corner of my room. A smile that either feels sad or happy. I remember that day when Hilda and I decided to look for work in Jakarta. It took only a few hours for the five of us to finalize a plan to find work with Alan, Deo and Wahyu. Ruru nugraha has forbidden me to go with them, yes my dear friend he told me."Why don't you go to Jakarta, if it's still possible, there may be life there but it's not as complicated as here.""Yeah I have to give Alan a chance.""Alan wanted to leave because his heart was still dark, still confused between the two options.""Yes Ru, I understand, but what's wrong if I try to believe.""Yes, it's up to Sin, I can't hold you back, you are still blinded by love, it's just sad that I see everything you will do is in vain."“Ru, pray.”"Yeah, if you want to hear me stay here, I can't help and protect you anymore, if you go Sintia."Maybe, could Ruru really love me? But he's not working yet? But he
For almost a year I was alone and only focused on work, all the men who approached I only considered friends, there were no more feelings than that. Honestly now I'm more sensitive to judge men. If they are just for fun, just playing around, just experimenting, I'm also the same as just getting to know them. My heart and feelings are expensive enough to just play around now. Yes, I just want to find a partner who is sure, who is well-established, who has a job and is ready to support Queeniera and I in the future.When calling my daughter often what is asked is the figure of daddy. Yes, at the age of only 3 years, between knowing and maybe forgetting the father figure that is remembered in his brain memory."Mom buy a new Daddy please." Or, "It's good, Aziz is always sent to school with Daddy and Queeniera's mother when Mom."All the words that Queeniera asked and said, sometimes I can only cry and scream in my heart without replying to those words. Especially if I'm going
Jakarta - Bekasi, the distance that is quite time-consuming for me to make love with Dwi, is enough for me to know my future priest, and maybe it's time for me to bring him back to Lampung. Yes Dwi I will introduce mom, daddy and my girl. Hopefully, I hope this time my choice is right. And hopefully this is the mate that God really sent for me, not just a test or just playing around.The Eid holiday arrived, we went to Lampung, I introduced Dwi to my mom, dad and gilr. Alhamdulillah they accepted our good intention to get married. We spent about three days on vacation and Eid in Lampung. We spent time getting to know each other and of course bringing Dwi closer to my two children and my parents.Alhamdulillah, Dwi is an easy going person and loves small children very much, we went to the beach, to the mall and played in the playground with Queeniera. Enough to be a good start for us, especially my son. Finally Queeniera got what she wanted, the warm embrace of a father figure
The first year of marriage definitely needs adjustment, the house is still empty, and the standard form of the developer must be renovated, I still have to work to help the family economy, and I still have many dreams with Dwi, still want to spend our honeymoon, want to renovate the house and fill the house with beautiful furniture. Of course I have to continue working as usual, I still leave my child in Lampung. I have to give more time to my husband, slowly changing habits and circumstances so that everyone is not surprised by this change. In fact, I still have to stay in Jakarta and work in Jakarta the same as before.Every weekend we always spend together, through the good times and my honeymoon. Recreation to Puncak, Bandung or even to Garut. One by one we visited tourist destinations. After a few months of marriage, it turns out that we have the same hobbies such as listening to music, traveling and not forgetting to capture vacation moments by taking selfies. Many of my fa