LOGINLATER THAT DAY
“What do you mean you can’t make it?” I asked, knowing fully well I wanted her to hear the disappointment in my voice. On the other end, Amanda sighed. “Nina, I’m so sorry. Kayla had homework. I sat down to help her and completely lost track of time. I should’ve called earlier to let you know I wouldn’t be able to make it.” “You should have,” I muttered, watching a couple ahead of me laugh too loudly at something that wasn’t the least bit funny. “I know,” Amanda said quickly. “This was all my idea. I dragged you out to take your mind off things.” “Yes, you did,” I replied, shifting my weight from one heel to the other. “Coming to this bar was all your idea.” “Believe me, I’m really sorry,” she repeated. “But you shouldn’t waste the night. Please. Just go in and have a drink. Use this time to forget about everything happening at home. Even if it’s just for a moment.” My jaw locked out of frustration. “I think I should just go back home.” “No, no, no.” she cut in firmly. “If you go home, you’ll sit in that big house and watch the man you married disrespect you by frolicking around with his secretary in your matrimonial home.” I stared at the entrance as the bouncer waved two women forward. “You need this,” Amanda said. “You deserve one night that isn’t about him.” The words lingered in my head longer than the music thudding through the walls. I exhaled slowly. “Fine. I’ll go in.” “That’s my girl.” “But if this is a disaster, I’m blaming it all on you.” “I accept full responsibility,” she laughed. “Text me when you’re leave.” I ended the call and slipped my phone into my purse. For a moment, I stood still, watching strangers disappear through the door like they all belonged to a cult having a meeting behind this large door. The music hit me first once I got inside. It was loud, pulsing and alive. It swallowed me whole. Lights spun across the ceiling, across faces, across glasses raised mid-toast. Conversation overlapped with laughter, with the rhythmic banging of ice in metal shakers. I paused for a second once I was inside. I felt like an intruder in someone else’s night life so I moved toward the bar to get a drink to fit in, because everyone around me had one. The bartender glanced at me. “What’ll you have?” I stared at the rows of bottles behind him, confused at what I was staring at. “Something not too strong,” I said finally. “But enough to help me drown the noise in my troubled mind.” He smiled knowingly. “I’ve got just the thing for you.” I rested my elbows lightly on the counter. The wood felt cold once my skin landed on it. Around me, bodies pressed closer, laughter rising and falling like waves. Within minutes, a glass slid toward me. It had a pale amber liquid in it and a thin curl of citrus resting on the rim. I lifted it and took a cautious sip. My face immediately reacted to the burning sensation in my chest afterwards. I exhaled and barely had time for a second sip when a shadow fell across me. Before I could turn fully, someone had locked their lips with mine. A shock wave surged through my body, and in seconds I was frozen like a sculpture. My fingers loosened around the glass. The kiss was firm, unexpected and strange. For a few reckless seconds, a few dangerous, breathless seconds, I didn’t move an inch. I hadn’t been kissed like that in a long time but I snapped out of it when clarity slammed back into me. I drove my fist upward hard into his groin area. He jerked back with a choked groan, doubling over. Without hesitating, I gripped my glass and flung the rest of my drink into his face. Liquid dripbackwards his cheeks. Hands raised in surrender, he stumbled backward. “Hey! Hey!! It’s me!” “Are you insane?” I snapped even though people were staring at us now. He winced, straightening slowly. He was tall, broad shoulders, well-built for a man who seemed older than me. “Aren’t you Melissa?” he asked, then got a reply from the look on my face. “What the hell. I thought you were someone else,” he said quickly, fumbling for his phone. “I swear.” “Does that make it better?” He pulled up a Tinder profile and thrust the screen toward me. “Melissa. That’s the lady I thought you were. We had a dare.” I glanced at the picture. A brunette woman in a red dress. “Do I look like Melissa?” I demanded. He shook his head immediately. “No. No, you don’t. It’s completely my fault.” I studied him and realized that it was really just a silly mistake. He cautiously lowered himself onto the stool beside me but left a noticeable gap between us. “Let me at least buy back the drink you drenched me in,” he said to the bartender. “You can tell the bartender to put it on my tab.” I scoffed then laughed. “There it is.” He blinked. “There what is?” “The assumption you thick headed fools have that money fixes everything.” I watched his eyebrows lift up. “Ouch.” “You men,” I continued sharply, “think you can insert yourselves into a woman’s life, make a mess of things, even bring your whores homes and then throw money at it like that solves anything.” He stared at me, wondering what was going on and then he laughed. My eyes narrowed. “What’s funny?” “You,” he said honestly. “Excuse me?” “You have this look when you’re angry. It’s really funny if I’m being honest.” “How is that relevant right now?” “It’s not,” he admitted. “I just thought I should say it.” I rolled my eyes but accepted the fresh drink from the bartender when it arrived. “I used to wear one of those,” he said quietly, nodding toward the ring on my finger. “Marriage can make you hate the world around you.” My fingats tightened instinctively around the glass. I looked down on my ring and stared at it for a few seconds before taking my eyes back to him. “So a married man walks into a bar and kisses strangers?” “I said ‘used to,’” he corrected gently. “I’m divorced. Have been for a while.” Divorced. The word lingered in my mind as I wondered what that might feel like. He cleared his throat. “And I really am sorry about the kiss.” I twisted my ring unconsciously before letting it go. “You don’t look like someone that belongs in a place like this?” he said after a moment. I didn’t respond. “It looks like you need someone to talk to,” he added softly. “I recognize this aura around you. I used to feel the way you do.” My throat tightened. “Can you not do that? I’m not talking about my marriage with a stranger,” I said firmly. “Okay. I’m sorry.” He left it there without pushing further. That restraint and respect for my wishes surprised me more than kiss had. I couldn’t remember the last time I requested for something and it was granted. For some reason, he shifted the conversation back to his Tinder dare. “She wanted me to kiss her the moment we met,” he said awkwardly. “Who?” I asked, dropping my glass down after another sip. “Apparently it proves confidence.” He continued. “And you thought assaulting the first woman you saw at the bar was a good strategy?” I asked dryly. “Hey, I said I was sorry. I really thought you were her,” he defended weakly. “The lighting in here is terrible.” I snorted despite myself and let out a tiny laugh. He smiled back at me and continued, stumbling over the absurdity of modern dating, how he barely understood the apps, how his nephew had set up his profile. “You have a nephew running your romantic life?” I asked. “Unfortunately. I have a nephew running my romantic life.” I laughed. Not a polite chuckle but a real laugh. It burst out of me for the first time in years. “Oh, so that’s funny?” He blinked, then smiled. Still laughing, I covered my mouth and waved my hand at him to give me a moment. “I’m sorry “ The sound startled me. I couldn’t remember the last time I had laughed like that. At home, laughter had been careful and mainly from movies or TV shows. With Daniel, everything had become annoying and spiteful. But this felt easy in a wau that I couldn’t explain. The door swung open. I recognized the face from his phone instantly. “Oops. Melissa just walked in,” I murmured while chuckling like a child. He stiffened and looked pale like I had just told him the ghost of a family relative he owed money just walked in. His phone buzzed in his hand. He glanced at the screen and quickly silenced it. We exchanged a look and the joy inside me wouldn’t stop overflowing. Suddenly we had become conspirators, partners in crime. “I should go,” he answered. “Before this gets any worse.” He settled the bill like he said then waited until I gave him the signal that she had gotten a sit, then he stood abruptly, covering part of his face as if that would make him invisible. I hesitated only a second then I grabbed my purse and followed this strange man. “Wait up!” I called out while asking myself what had come over me. Outside, the air felt cooler and the streets were quieter. The music dulled behind thick walls. We stopped under the flickering neon sign. He looked at me, half-amused, half-shocked. “You’re escaping too?” “Seems like the right thing to do.” I replied, meanwhile a part of me was screaming that I was married and shouldn’t be out doing things like this with a man I just met. He laughed, rubbing the back of his neck. “I can’t believe the first thing I do after getting back into the dating world is to ditch my date.” “Well, thank you for ditching your date.” I laughed again. “That felt good. Haven’t done something this wild in ages.” “Same.” We stood there, grinning like teenagers who had gotten away with something evil that we knew our parents wouldn’t approve of. Gradually, the laughter faded and now there was this awkward silence between us. The bar’s neon lights cast bright colours across his face. I got to see that the lighting in the bar didn’t do him any justice. He looked at me, and his blue eyes held my gaze. Before I could retreat into caution, I spoke words I never thought I would ever say to another man who wasn’t my husband. “Would you like to leave here and go somewhere quieter.”I sat with the therapist's question for two more weeks before I finally had an answer, though I didn't know that yet, and neither did Liam.He had asked himself, out loud, in that small office with the afternoon light slanting through the blinds, what controlling the outcome was actually protecting him from. He hadn't answered that day. He hadn't answered the following week either, circling the question in silence during long drives home, during quiet mornings before the office opened. But the question stayed with him, working its way loose over time the way real answers sometimes do, refusing to be rushed no matter how badly he wanted a clean, quick resolution."I think," he finally told his therapist, several sessions later, "it's protecting me from finding out that I could do everything right and still lose someone anyway. My father lost people too, in his own way, even while controlling everything he could reach with both hands. I think some part of me has always believed that if
I noticed him before I fully registered who he was, a familiar shape across the coffee shop, half hidden behind a newspaper he clearly wasn't reading, his eyes flicking up over the top of the page every few seconds.Kevin.My stomach tightened instantly, old instinct rising before conscious thought caught up to it. I glanced toward the door, calculating the distance, the exit, the fastest way out without drawing attention to myself. Then I stopped, made myself breathe, made myself actually look at the situation instead of just reacting to it the way my body wanted to.He was watching me. Not approaching, not yet, just watching, the way he had that first time months ago before Liam had appeared and put an end to it with a look and a steady presence at my side. I understood immediately what he was doing here, in this coffee shop, on an ordinary Tuesday afternoon. Testing. Waiting to see if the absence of a powerful man standing visibly beside me meant the boundary I'd drawn had softened
Liam kept working during the days, the way he always had, the office the one place that still made sense when nothing else did, when the rest of his life felt suspended somewhere between hope and dread. But in the evenings, this time, he didn't go home to an empty apartment and sit with the silence until it hollowed him out the way it had before the board vote, staring at the closet, at the untouched side of the bed. This time he decided, deliberately, consciously, that silence wasn't something to survive alone anymore.He called Eleanor first."I want to understand," he told her, sitting in her formal sitting room for the second time in as many months, though this visit felt different from the last, less like an interrogation and more like an actual conversation between two people trying to reach each other honestly. "Not just the history with Drew's father, not just the business side of it. I want to understand what it was actually like for you, living with someone who managed inste
Elena's question stayed with me for days.I turned it over in the shower, in line at the grocery store, in the quiet stretches of Amanda's apartment after Zoe had gone to bed and the house settled into its evening silence, the kind of quiet that used to feel peaceful and now just felt like space for questions I couldn't answer. When does it become about the men, and when does it become about what you keep agreeing to accept.I didn't have an answer. But I knew I couldn't keep circling the question without actually looking at something I'd avoided for years, something I'd packed away along with half my old life when I left Daniel and never fully unpacked again."Do you still have those boxes from my old apartment?" I asked Amanda one evening, standing in her hallway closet doorway, my arms crossed against the sudden nervousness of asking. "The ones I dropped off after the divorce and never picked back up?""They're in the storage unit downstairs. Why do you ask?""I want to look throug
I called Elena on a Sunday morning, the time difference working in my favor for once, catching her with a cup of coffee still in hand and Marco somewhere in the background making breakfast for their kids, the sound of clattering pans drifting faintly through the line."Nina." Her voice warmed instantly through the phone, familiar in a way that loosened something tight in my chest before we'd even really started talking. "I was starting to worry you'd fallen off the earth entirely.""I've been dealing with something.""I gathered that much from Amanda's texts, though she wouldn't give me details. She said it was yours to share, not hers, which I respected, even though it drove me a little crazy waiting."I sat curled in the corner of Amanda's guest room, the phone pressed to my ear, sunlight cutting a thin line across the carpet, and found myself telling Elena everything in one long, unbroken rush. The board vote, the conversation I overheard through a hallway, the fight in the kitchen
His hands were warm against my face, steady in a way that made my whole body want to lean into them, to say yes and let this be the end of it, the relief of finally being close to him again outweighing everything else in the room, everything that had happened over the last two weeks.I almost did.For one long moment I stood there, his palms cupping my jaw, his eyes searching mine with an intensity that felt like it might undo every careful thought I'd walked in with, and I felt the pull of it so strongly I had to remind myself to breathe before answering him at all."Liam.""I mean it," he said, his voice low, urgent, his thumbs tracing gently along my cheekbones. "Ask me to prove it. I'll do whatever it takes, Nina. Name it."I stepped back, gently, and his hands fell away, confusion crossing his face as the distance opened between us again, the small space suddenly feeling enormous."I want to say yes right now," I said, my voice unsteady. "That's exactly the problem.""I don't und
The familiar vibration of my phone pulled me out of the first peaceful sleep I had had in days. It danced on the wooden nightstand, clashing with the smooth melodies of Frank Sinatra's voice drifting somewhere nearby. It all felt like I was in a dreamland but with someone banging on my head to wak
The loud movement downstairs dragged me the hell out of sleep.At first, I thought I was dreaming when I kept hearing voices and strange sounds in my head. The sounds came muffled through the wooden floors, persistent enough to keep tugging at my consciousness until I finally decided to open my eye
“Wait a minute. Isn’t that the boss’s wife sitting right there?”My ears heard those words despite the loud music playing while I sat still with my glass of champagne in my hand. Honestly, it took a lot for me not to turn my head in their direction.I sat alone at one of the VIP tables watching cam
“Hello, Nina. It’s really nice to meet you.” Liam responded with a smile on his face.I could hear his voice echoing in my ears while my mind played back events from last night. It felt like my favourite memory had suddenly become a nightmare that I was living in.“What’s wrong, honey?” Daniel aske







