Emma
I was just finishing getting ready after breakfast. The sun had already risen, and we would soon be leaving for Bibury, so I didn't want to delay my benefactors. They were extremely attentive to me, and their manners were so kind. I think gentlemen are all like that.
They must consider me a savage.
"Why does this have to be so difficult? "I groaned as I tried to follow Mr. Thorpe's advice and fix my hair.
The fact that my hand was burnt didn't help either, it was stinging badly, in some places it had blistered, in others it was raw flesh.
I stared at the burn for a few moments, thinking about everything that had happened. In a matter of hours everything had been taken away from me, my home, my family, my whole life. The only thing I have left are a few changes of clothes and jewelry that I can't wear.
A knock on the door brought me out of my reverie. I opened it, finding the maid who had helped me yesterday, I had never even dreamed of having a maid before. She was a few years older than me, looking about my mother's age.
"The gentlemen have asked to see if you need any help "the woman explained, carrying some folded bedding.
"I'm already finishing "I denied it.
"Does that mean you intend to go out like this? "She measured me with arched eyebrows.
"Is something wrong? "I assessed my reflection in the mirror.
I hadn't made much progress with my hair, but it was pinned up and the dress was in place. It didn't go with my sandals, but I had no options.
The woman approached, putting the clothes on the dressing table and reaching under the folded fabrics for something.
"I hope you won't be offended, but I've brought you a shoe
She sat me down on the small stool in front of the dressing table and put a pair of shoes on the floor, before undoing all my work on my hair, letting it down once again.
"How? "I blinked in a daze as she began to carefully fix my strands.
"My name is Anna. I saw that you wore these sandals yesterday and this dress doesn't look like it was bought for you "she explained.
"I'm Emma "I replied embarrassed "I didn't know you'd notice my feet.
"I also saw the way you were dressed before "she continued.
That made my heart soar. She knows what I am, of course she does. But what will she do about it? I've never been afraid to let everyone know my origins. Despite my father's fears, I was proud of them, but now...
"Are you a gypsy? "She asked unceremoniously, surprising me.
"I used to be "I lowered my gaze to my burnt hand.
"Are you and that boy running away together? "She skirted around me as she finished with my hair, stopping in front of me to observe the result.
"In a way, I guess "I frowned, not understanding what she meant by that.
"Do you think so? "She looked at me confused.
"Our camp was attacked "I opened up "I managed to escape, but I didn't get very far. Those two gentlemen found me and are helping me. I have nowhere else to go, so I accepted their help.
I don't understand why I was honest with her, maybe I thought she was trustworthy, or maybe I just needed to tell someone.
"I'm sorry "she bent down in front of me, holding my hands "What's wrong?
She frowned as she noticed a small grimace of pain due to her injured hand. I turned my palm up, showing the burn.
"That's terrible! "She exclaimed "I'll get the apothecary, we'll take care of it.
"No, it's not necessary, I'm fine!
"It must be hurting, darling "she looked at me with concern.
"I can't delay their trip any longer "I explained, receiving an understanding sigh in return "I've been burned before, it's nothing.
"You look so young "Ana appraised me, putting the shoes on me "How old are you?
""I turned twenty in March," I explained.
We were in the middle of August, the temperature had already started to drop, soon we'd be in the fall.
"Much better now "she stood up, urging me to follow her example "If you get a nice hat, you'll look perfect.
"I don't think I'll have one to hand "I replied, looking at my reflection in the mirror.
I looked so different from the way I used to. It was as if I had been transported to some other universe where I could barely recognize myself.
"You have beautiful hair "she smiled, brushing a few strands away from my face "You can always leave a few strands loose. It looks great like that.
That gesture brought back memories of my mother, just a few days ago she was with me, painting my eyes, helping me decorate myself. What would she say if she were with me right now? Would she be proud? Would she teach me how to behave?
Those thoughts tore a hole in my heart. She has no way of helping me, of teaching me anything else. She's gone, like everything else in my life. I fought back the tears that threatened to come out. I couldn't cry now, I had to be strong, move on.
I wouldn't let anyone witness my tears.
"They're waiting for you "Anna smiled at me "I think it's time for you to go.
"Thank you "I thanked her, picking up my bag and following the maid.
It's time to go.
What am I doing? I hardly know them and I'm trusting them with my life. This is crazy. With every step, fear tried to overwhelm me, but I pushed it away, into the depths of my soul with all the anguish that plagued me.
Anna led me to the room where Henry and I had talked last night. He and George were having a conversation when I entered. They both stood up when they saw me, bowing briefly. Anna closed the door behind me, leaving me there with the two of them.
"You've got your hair up," Henry appraised me.
His expression didn't reveal much, did he like it?
"Yes "I forced a smile, running my hand through my hair "Anna helped me.
"Are you ready to go? "George approached me offering me his arm, receiving a questioning look from his friend.
"Of course "I assured him, wrapping my hand around his arm "We can go.
"Why do you still have that? "He pointed to my bag.
"They're my belongings "I looked at him confused.
"You won't be needing it anymore "he replied "you could leave it here, it would be strange for a lady to show up with a bag like that.
"Leave it? "I widened my eyes, disentangling myself from him "I can't leave it, it's my clothes, my jewelry!
"Ms. Ferguson, these things won't fit anymore "he tried to explain "Sell the jewelry, leave the clothes, and...
""No!" I exclaimed, taking a step away from him and receiving a surprised look from Henry. "This is all that's left of my life, you can't force me to get rid of it.
"This isn't your life anymore, Ms. Ferguson "he insisted "You have to understand that they can't find out you're a gypsy, they wouldn't understand!
"So I'm going to pretend that my life before this never existed? "Tears began to burn in my eyes as I tried to hold them back "My parents never existed?
"That's not what I meant, but the people who will be welcoming you will obviously be surprised if you turn up carrying this "he replied in frustration "It's just clothes you won't be wearing anymore, you can get rid of it.
"My mother died to give me this "I hugged the bag, letting the tears roll as my mind wandered back to that moment "She would be alive if she hadn't come back for it. This is all I have left of her.
"Mrs. Ferguson "George tried to approach me, making me take a step back.
"He's right "Henry, who was just watching the scene, finally spoke up "they'll be surprised if you turn up carrying just one bag.
They don't understand, even after everything I've said. They must think we're too perverse to care about the departed.
"I thank you for looking after me so far "I bowed my head "It was very kind of a young stranger, but I think I'd better be on my way. Maybe I'll meet others.
"Ms. Ferguson, I'm sure we'll find a way "Mr. Thorpe called out to me as I made a brief bow before turning to the door.
I'm alone now, how did I manage to lose everything twice in less than two days? I thought I had some hope of rebuilding my life, but what can I do now?
"Emma "I felt both of Henry's hands on my arms, preventing me from moving.
I blinked dazedly at the warmth of the man's hands on my skin. Why does he care if I leave or not?
He turned me towards him, watching me as I blinked, trying to force the tears to stop coming.
"Leave your bag with Mr. Thorpe "he instructed "We'll go after a suitcase so you can store your things.
"A suitcase?
"He's right "Henry let go of me "It will be strange if you show up with that bag, but it will also be strange if you show up empty-handed.
"I don't have the money to buy a suitcase "I pointed out the obvious.
""I do, don't worry about it." He carefully took the bag from my hand and handed it to his friend.
"I have no way of repaying you "I looked into his eyes, trying to understand what was going on in his mind.
"I'm not expecting anything in return "he assured me.
"Then why? "I insisted in an attempt to find an answer.
"I want you to be well "he replied as if it were obvious.
I couldn't stop my tears from falling again. Why does he care? He doesn't even know me. Why would anyone care?
I moved closer, and before he could react I put both hands on his chest, resting my head there, making him tense and unresponsive. I thought about pulling away for a moment, but then his arms wrapped around me, giving me that warm feeling once again.
Emma "Ohhh... I'll go... "Mr. Thorpe looked disconcerted "I'll find a place for your bag."Sorry "I turned away immediately when I heard the door close.Don't forget that you're no longer with your family, Emma."It's all right "he looked away."That was completely inappropriate "I continued "Forgive me."Shall we get a suitcase? "He suggested after a few moments in silence."Yes "I bit my lip, trying to wipe my face as best I could. "We can go."Please "He offered me a tissue.I took it, wiping away my tears, feeling a little disconcerted. None of this was supposed to happen. We were supposed to be heading for the next town, all my family, all together. But here I am, heading for a life that I can't even imagine."Come on "he led me to the door "let's get you some things.I followed him in silence, holding his handkerchief. I'd have to give it back at some point. But if only I could keep it.We left the inn and walked side by side towards the town. His handkerchief was still in my
HenryI felt bewildered after Emma's short walk around the city. That young woman had affected me more in two days than any of the young women in Bibury or Bath in my entire life.I went back to my room trying to put her out of my mind, but that moment alone only served to make me replay those moments. She seemed rather embarrassed when she found out that I was going to present her with a hat, and as we walked through the city, I constantly admired her as she watched everything with fascination. Emma was convinced that she didn't attract any attention, but I noticed every glance at her, her unique and beautiful features set her apart from other young English women. No, she would never go unnoticed.I opened my suitcase, locating the small tambourine she had dropped the day we met. I should give it back.I put it back, deciding to get out of there to get rid of those thoughts. My only intention is to help her. I need to keep that in mind. I joined George in the living room, absent-mi
HenryIn the end, we decided that Emma had been left in the care of an old, sick lady after losing her family in a fire. She begged us to bring her with us because she wouldn't be able to support her for so long. If they asked for any other details, we could make them up on the spot.We tried to teach Emma everything we could, answering all her questions, and towards the end of the afternoon, we went for another walk around the city. George once again offered his arm as a support for the young woman. The gesture bothered me a little, but I tried to push those feelings aside and concentrate on Emma's way of walking.She had a unique way about her, which helped her stand out from the others. Every step she took was graceful and fluid, it was as if she was all the time in the middle of one of her dance performances, where every movement was calculated to attract everyone's attention.I shouldn't let my attention get caught up in so many details. George is right, I'd better get away and a
Emma I felt a little reluctant to follow Ms. Crawford. What gave me some comfort was knowing that Henry would be back the next day. But I couldn't help feeling out of place in that house. Why does a single family need so much space? My whole old gang could live comfortably in this place. "How do you like it here? "Georgiana Crawford asked as we walked up the stairs. "It's a beautiful place "I commented "but I don't know it well enough to form an opinion. "I'll introduce you to everything "she opened a door "But for now, you can settle in here. Your quarters. "Really? "I looked around. My room at the inn was spacious and simple, but I didn't even know where to begin to describe this place. I walked over to an armchair next to the bed and put my suitcase there. "Perhaps you'd like to change," the young lady suggested. "It's still early, I can introduce you to the house and gardens until dinner time. I felt my face flush at the suggestion. Change your clothes? How can I, if this
EmmaWe soon reached the room, and Georgie helped me to lie down, then left with the promise that he would be back soon.Well, if Mr. Downey came with Henry, he would certainly take care of everything. He wouldn't let anything go wrong. That thought calmed me down a little.After lunch, Mrs. Crawford came with the dressmaker. She assured me that I would have new dresses soon, until then I could manage with the ones they had made for me.I eagerly awaited Henry's arrival, even though I knew he would probably come with the reverend, but when we finished dinner and he didn't show up, I began to understand that he wasn't coming. I kept the family company in the living room after dinner. Mr. Crawford asked Georgie to play the piano while I pretended to read a book. "Ms. Ferguson "Hill surprised me by approaching me with a note on a tray "This arrived for you.I accepted it, feeling everyone's eyes on me as I unfolded it."Ms. FergusonI'm sorry I didn't keep my promise to visit you toda
Emma"I don't want to be alone here," I sighed as I walked to the door. "Georgie is nice, but she doesn't understand me.""I promise to be more present, Miss Ferguson. I'm sorry for my absence," he assured, opening the door.I followed him out of the room, feeling Georgie's gaze immediately assessing us."Can we go?" she questioned, alternating her gaze between the two of us."Let's go," he led us to the door.The church wasn't far, so we walked there peacefully. Our small group attracted attention as we walked. Upon arriving, Georgie located her family, sitting with them. Henry guided me to a bench in front, where the reverend's wife was seated.I felt all eyes on me as we settled, George soon taking his place beside me, facing the other with a serious expression."I hope you're well, Miss Ferguson," he smiled friendly at me."I am, thank you, Mr. Thorpe," I frowned, strange by the interaction of the two friends."Dashwood, I believe this wasn't what we agreed upon," he whispered as
HenryTwo weeks had passed since I first took Emma to church, and by mutual agreement, George and I began attending Dyrham Park regularly. The Burkharts were hosting a ball in a few days, and Emma needed to prepare for the event. George suggested that it would be appropriate to host small gatherings at our homes so that we could train her properly.My family would be returning soon, and Kitty was eager to meet Emma, but Aunt Margaret convinced her to wait for the planned return date, in ten days.Emma still hadn't seen Casterly Park, and I continually wondered what she would think of the place. I found myself growing closer to the young gypsy; when I wasn't at Dyrham Park, I would send her notes.I loved every part of my days with Emma. She was fun, intelligent, and was gradually getting used to our lifestyle. Despite still noticing that pain deep in her eyes, I saw a significant improvement in the young woman.I wanted to protect her, take care of her every moment, be by her side. As
Henry"Mr. Dashwood, wait a moment," she rushed, blocking my way out. "Did she really go through all of that?""As I said, we had to hide her in our carriage to prevent the men from finding her. Can you imagine what they would do to her? Besides killing her?""My God," she blinked, letting a few tears escape. "Why would they do that? I need to talk to her.""No, I'll talk to her first," I stopped her from advancing."I won't say anything to anyone," Georgiana assured. "I'll help her however I can.""Thank you," I sighed. I knew once she understood the situation, she would help her friend. "Can you take me to her?"She silently led me through some corridors until we approached a closed door. She knocked, waiting for a response that didn't come."Emma, open the door, we need to talk about this," she requested.Did Emma tell her? How did she find out?"Emma, come on..."I approached, taking control of the situation."Emma, open the door," I asked. "I'm here now."For a moment, I thought