My heart skipped a bit when I read that text. It was the best thing yet not thee best because she didn't have a good day. I mean I could relate.. my day was also upside down..
I went straight to my room and started video calling her.
'heeeeeeey'
A fucken smile in my face spread wide as she came in view on my screen. She was wearin a white shirt with a USA flag.. I laughed a bit since she was in Germany, "hey baby... how are you?"
She shook her head and sighed, 'not as good.. I had a fucken awful and long day.... how about you? How are you?'
I cleared my throat trying to figure out how I was really feeling. It was weird a bit. I felt something towards Kathy everytime we talk and thought of her every second when Layla touched me..then I felt weird
I couldn't believe what I did. After kissing Chris I immediately left without talking to him or listening to what he wanted to say.On the other side, her eyes... I could feel them on us, on me as I made my way out of the studio I felt so empty, weird and lost..I quickly got a taxi and went home. I felt sick.. physically and emotionally. I was tired...I had so many questions in my head. It was clear.. It was so clear that this was wrong... but how do I go about? Where do I start?I've seen people get hurt, I've seen them get killed, discriminated, be picked on... could I handle that? Could I handle the hate from people I valued, people I love, people who have been here from me from the start? The church? My best friend? My father? Everyone?I couldn't...As I imagined everyone turning away from me I couldn't... I couldn't do this. I couldn't follow my heart. I couldn't do
I jumped away from Layla and turned around, "hey...""What's happening here?" She asked with her nose ached you'd swear she was disgusted by the sight."We are dancing...?" I said already not in the mood for what was about to go down."Really? Her lips are literally on your neck and you are telling me that you are dancing. Precious do you think I'm dumb.."Layla got up, "Umm.. calm down.. I wasn't trying to get her pregnant... like she said we were about to dance..""I thought you had shit to do when you left early this morning, leaving me behind..""I did Julia and this is it.""Her sucking on your neck.. I thought we talked about this. You stay away from her.. or do you want me to tell the whole church about this..."My heartbeat... I could literally feel it and I felt like if I looked at my chest I'd see it pumping in and out of my ch
I quickly got home and started cleaning up the mess that was left by my little brother and so called best friend.I smiled a bit when I realized that she cooked. Great, minus one thing for me and more time with Kathy..My phone startee ringing and I answered, "dady...?"'I just got your brother a bus to go to Umtata... I'll be there a bit late waiting for it. You can just put my food in the microwave...' I smiled, I love my brother with all my heart, but a break from him is a blessinh, "thank you daddy but I'll stay up.. I have a few things to do and something to tell you. So I'll see you when you get back."'Is everything okay?' He sounded worried. Aww my poor old man."Daddy.. we will talk when you get here..."'okay I'll be there soon...' "Wait.. did you pack everything that he'll need?"
"Shit I'm tired... I just couldn't wait until we sit down.."I smiled joining her as we sat by the couch at Nandos, "yeah my legs are killing me. If I can't dance, then it's your fault."She laughed, "oh God I'm so sorry okay... can we order something before I go further with my apology.. I'm thirsty and hungry.."I took the menu and checked what I wanted, I wasn't that much hungry but I just wanted something to drink, it was July and cold but darn noo, I was craving for something cold."Can I have an appletizer.. then I'll know what I want..." I said to the lady in front of us and Meagan ordered something in the lines of a cream soda.We kept in looking at the menu and Meagan laughed, "I'm thinking full chicken."I joined her too by laughing, "if you are that hungry you'll end up eating me too.. should I be scared.."She looked at me and bit the inside
KATHY🌈💯❤: As you wake up, I want you to know that you are beautiful and smart and funny and are an idiot. Someone out here really cares and loves you.. Thank you so much for allowing me to be a part of your special life. Good morning and all the best for your interview... I love you.❤ I woke up to that text causing me to smile like an idiot.The message was sent around 23:59...Fuck.. this is thee greatest way to actually wake up.I typed back.ME: you are just thee best. I swear. Waking up to this soothed my nerves and made me the happiest girl alive. I sent the message amd got up to go take a bath. I was really feeling amazing after that message from Katharina..The bath didn't take long because I just wanted to be out and for this day to be done with. As much as I was excited about the interview I was
BESTIE: I talked to Paster Zondi and he agreed to come pray for you so that you can find the right path... you're straying from the word of God.. you're walking away from him. One day you'll understand that I am doing this because I love you... you are my best friend and I don't want that to stop. So on Thursday afternoon we will go to his place.. he has an opening after the late prayer with the youth. I pray you come with me...." My jaw was literally on the floor as I read the text from my so called best friend... you know a person who I thought would never turn their back on me.You know sometimes when shit happens we sometimes are lucky or blessed enough to have people who are in our corners.I remember back in high school when some girl wanted to beat me because her boyfriend kept asking me out. As if it was my fault that the dude couldn't leave me alone.Julia came through a
'oh really... what the fuck is wrong with people there? I mean I get it... but still, what the fuck is wrong with them.. and I thought Layla was fine though ..'I sighed and adjusted my phone well making sure I don't even hold it. I was so mad at the incidents that took place earlier. I got home, cooked and then video called Kathy after bathing.And now I just finished telling her how shitty my day was and she was actually really helping break this down."Well I thought she was fine too but turns out she's not. Fuck... why is my life like this? I discover that I'm gay and then everything turns upside down."'look baby can I just say something about Layla, she's probably going through a lot.. you said it yourself she seemed off when your ex best friend said all those things to her. Maybe they are true...' I shook my head, "baby I don't care if they sre true or not, I would
KATHY💯❤🌈: Okay so I know you're definitely sleeping but I want you to wake up with thee biggest smile on your face. Thank you for last night, I pray you didn't feel pressured into it, but it was fucken amazing. Good morning beautiful Princess and have an amazing day... take it easy on Layla. I yawned as I read a text from Kathy, the second I read the line about last night my face flushed. I couldn't believe we did that and I couldn't believe how amazing it was even though it was a first to me.I quickly typed back..ME: Hey baby.. Morning and I hope you slept well. Last night was amazing and I did willingly. Yeah yeah smart pants I'll give Layla a chance if she comes talking to me.. I love you and let me go bath... I wasted no time. I got up, fixed my bed and went to take a bath.My body felt a bit refreshed.. The smile on my face grew